Kyle P NDEs

Experience Description

I had felt this before and in previous experiences was able to stave off the effects of loss of complete consciousness. I have had concussions and a few panic attacks that were never diagnosed but I knew what they were.

Late one night, I got up out of bed to get some water. I took a few steps down the hall and started to feel consciousness slipping from my grasp. The initial feeling leading up to blacking out felt the same; like the walls closing in, vision tunneled, breathing became shallow, dizziness, and seeing white dots. This time I could not stop it from happening. I knew I was going to fall as there was nothing for me to hold onto in the hallway. I turned towards the wall, fell with my back to it and slumped over, perhaps cutting off my airway. I cannot be positive of that, but the way I was positioned when I came to and the distinct rush of air followed by consciousness returning instantly leads me to conclude that's plausibly what happened.

When I blacked out there was a distinct feeling of being outside of my body. I have experienced that one time before from a severe concussion. During that experience, I viewed myself from the third person. I saw myself lying where I crashed, clothes scattered and voices coming from distinct directions in my field of perspective. I say 'perspective' because I am hesitant to say vision. During that experience, it was as if I was looking at myself from above. What I could hear was coming from the same direction the noises would have been coming from if I were inside my body. Another thing to note was that the clothes I mentioned were more like gear because I was snowboarding at the time. The clothes were located exactly as they had been when I was looking at myself from above. I was no longer in my body, just like what had happened years before when I suffered that massive concussion.

I quickly realized that I was still myself but I was not 'me' and I was no longer in physical form. This somehow made sense and I did not question that. It was scary at first. Then, almost instantly, I was calm and inquisitive as to what was next. I had questions such as where was I going and why? Where was I? All of this processed almost instantaneously.

Then, I had a distinct feeling of physical travel. There was a unexplained, dark void, seemingly endless and not measurable by anything in this world. It was purely immense, dark, scary and beautiful. I felt scared but drawn to the void. It was as if I was approaching a different realm of being. Suddenly the feeling of travel stopped. At the exact moment, a thought or knowing came to me. I dialoged with myself by asking, 'Where is this going to take me? It is OK if I go, but if I do go, I will never see my son again.'

Abruptly, I regained consciousness. It was as if I was sucked back into my physical body by a tremendous force. I could almost feel something similar to what felt like pressure applied to my state of being and then I was immediately back in my body. Air rushed into my lungs. I jumped up to my feet from an extremely slumped-over position between the floor and the wall. I sat down, gained composure, got my water. and went back to bed. It absolutely shook me. I pondered it day in and out for weeks until I was able to get my heart and brain checked out. Everything was fine and there was no explanation as to why I passed out. I am a healthy, fit, and active individual. No Scientific explanation has been offered. Nothing has made me feel better about any of this and I have been hesitant to tell anyone or discuss it with a therapist.

I am Thankful that I watched Dr. Long on Theo Von's Podcast today. Thankful for this work you are all doing.

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date NDE Occurred: 2021

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Unknown. I lost consciousness walking down the hall in my home, nothing could ever be determined as the cause.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Both pleasant AND distressing

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal. I was aware of everything, it was all there in perspective and out of perspective at the same time. There was no up and down or right or left; just being. I was aware of it all.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When moving in unconscious space, as I approached the void.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning. There was no time, everything was happening almost simultaneously

Were your senses More vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. You can't compare them, it's apples to oranges. Vision is life, it is what we know, see and smell day in and out. This was something else entirely.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I felt like me ears were ringing. The things I thought or should have been hearing, like an internal dialogue, were never spoken - just known. There was ambient noise but nothing I could describe. It wasn't a specific noise I was hearing, sound was simply present.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain I don't know. I went through a void towards a larger abyss.

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? No

Did you see an unearthly light? No

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm. I was clearly existing as energy or a formless entity in an indescribable, vast, dark void

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Scared, Sad, bewildered, curious, calm, confused, excited, adventurous, relief, anxiety

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Relief or calmness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt no longer in conflict with nature

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will. As previously described I came to a point of no return. But I had a fearful thought and I was immediately thrust back to my physical being.

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Do not know. I believe in something greater than all of us, I do not subscribe to any one religion. I was raised Christian but got away from that as an adult.

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No

What is your religion now? Do not know

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience. I believe in something greater than us; I do not know what it is and do not subscribe to any one religion. This experience confirmed my notion of a physical nonphysical place that is outside of us and this existence

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I know there is a place that we go when we are no longer 'us'

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? Yes There is a physical nonphysical realm that can only be attained in a nonphysical form

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes Again, I knew there was more if I had kept going

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Uncertain I can't say, but I knew that everything had a purpose and there was much more to existence.

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes I know that when we leave our physical body we go somewhere else and continue to be ourselves consciously but not in physical form

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? Yes I knew there was something else past the point of no return

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? No

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? I question the existence of man and our purpose on earth. Will we ever be able to attain our true potential in this life. I know now that there is more. Nothing is the same.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes How can you express the unexplainable in an intelligent way and not sound like a total kook. This is so far out of the realm of reality it was very hard to process. I have mulled this over for years. This is the first time I have spoken about it.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience. I remember every detail; I cannot forget it. I remember more about this than I do of the birth of both of my children.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? All of it. Every element of what happened and what I have explained here held weight.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? No

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes I knew it was a thing that people have claimed to experience but I always wrote it off as the brains natural process of dealing with worst case scenarios.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I can't get over how real it was. Completely tangible.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. Completely tangible.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

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