Laura S NDE

Experience Description

My husband and children went to church but I stayed home to rest since I wasn't feeling very well. After they got home, we were in the living room watching a movie.

I remember lying on the couch. The next thing I remember, I was out of my body. I was up near the ceiling and looking at my body lying on the floor. My husband and children gathered around me, calling my name. Within the next second, I was in a tunnel. The tunnel was black, with what looked like holes in it. There was bright white light coming through the holes. The light was magnificently bright, but soft. I remember feeling like an enormous weight had been taken off of me, as if all of the heaviness was gone. There was no fear or sadness; only love. I was only in the tunnel briefly. I cannot say a time because time is different there. It was like there is no time there. After the tunnel, I was in a dark place that I call the peaceful grayness.

Other beings were there. It was like I knew these beings very well, but I cannot say who they were. The only word I can think of to describe them is 'mauve'. They were mauve orbs of mist. They took me before a table of other beings. These beings were bigger, with the biggest one in the middle. He, it doesn't feel right to call it 'he' but in my mind that's what it was. He was imposing but I was not scared because there was no such thing as fear there. The big one in the middle talked to me. Actually, he didn't speak, but I could hear him. Anyway, there was a mild feeling of them being upset because I was not supposed to be there. The big one in the middle told me that I had to go back. But, I did not want to go back because I felt like I was home. I wanted to stay there. The next thing I remember was being shoved into a hole to go back to my body. The hole felt like it was too small for me. There was a pop.

Then I woke up on the living room floor. When I woke up, I was gasping for air. I was trying to full my lungs as I swung my arms around. My husband said that I rolled off of the couch and let out a long breath, turning blue. The 911 operator talked him through chest compressions. The ambulance took me to the hospital. While I was in the emergency room waiting for tests, it happened again. This time all I remember was being quickly shoved back in the hole. Coming back is much worse than going.

After that, the small hospital I was at shipped me to a larger hospital because they were not equipped to deal with my medical issue. I was diagnosed with spontaneous Long QT with torsade. I now have a pacemaker ICD and have not had any more issues. My fear of death is gone, and I look at humanity differently.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 8-30-2010

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain Illness CPR given Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function) The event was with my heart, so it was entirely my physical body.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Both pleasant AND distressing

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I was up, near the ceiling. I saw my husband and children kneeling around my body on the floor. I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal. That is what we really are. I was home.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When I was in the peaceful grayness, and all of the weight was off of me

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning. There is no time there. I could have been there seconds or years, because time has no meaning there.

Were your senses More vivid than usual? More vivid than usual

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I could see everything all at once because there was no time or space. There were no limitations.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I could hear the other beings thoughts. There were no secrets. I could hear everything all at once but none of it was jumbled or confusing

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes The tunnel was black with what looked like holes in the sides. There was an incredibly bright white, but soft light shining through the holes

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Uncertain. I am uncertain if the beings I saw could be considered dead, or had once been alive. I know that I knew them, have always known them, but they did not look like people

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? An unusually bright light

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes The light was coming through the holes in the tunnel

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm. It was not earth, but it was not to me. I knew that I had been there before and now I was back.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? I am ashamed to say this but I felt nothing but awareness. I was like, 'oh look at that'

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe. We are all pieces of the one. And when our time is up on earth, we go home.

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will. The large, imposing being at the head table told me I had to go back; I was not done. I call him imposing but that's not the right word, he wasn't scary, there was no fear, and I was not afraid to say to him that I did not want to go back, but he made me go anyway.

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Catholic

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No I am very spiritual because that is what we really are. I am not religious because most religions definition of God is not what God really is.

What is your religion now? Unaffiliated- Nothing in particular- Religious unaffiliated

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience. I was Catholic. I was taught to believe that when you die there was the gates, and Saint Peter, standing there with a book to judge you and send you to either purgatory, heaven, or hell. There is none of that. There is no judgment there.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I no longer believe in organized religion. It is a man-made construct. I believe we all have a purpose and we are all one.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin. There were beings around me that I knew I knew, but cannot identify, and there were the beings at the table, I call it the head table.

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? Yes The death experience. Being back in that place, I knew it was familiar to me. I knew I had been through it all before several times, and I was super happy to be back. I do not know how I knew this; I just knew.

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes This is hard to put into words. The universe is a bowl of water. Everything in the universe is the water. There is nothing separating the water from itself. If you take a spoonful of the water out, it is in a separate place, but it is still the water. I'm sorry I know it's not the best explanation but I can't think of any other way to describe it.

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes I cannot explain how I knew; I just knew. The light coming through the holes in the tunnel, the essence of every being I encountered there, it was all God. We are all God. We are all one. I really do not have any words to explain it better than that.

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes Everything. There is all knowledge there. But the second my consciousness popped back into my body, most of it was gone

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes Learning is all experience.

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? Yes I know there is existence after physical death because I was there. And I knew I have been there before and I know that that is what we really are.

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? Yes We forget for a reason. If we came here still knowing what we know before we come, there would be no challenge, no opportunities for soul growth.

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? Yes Learning and experience. We are here to experience as much as we can and learn as much as we can. It is not all good.

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes Love is all there is. But the definition of love and the feeling of love that we have here on earth is not enough to describe what it is there.

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life. I am more compassionate towards others. I see other people as a soul. I remember that I do not know their story or purpose, so I try not to judge.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes It still is. Because I say that all of the weight was lifted off of me but that doesn't describe it. It's like all of the human emotions we carry around, like fear, anger, anxiety, they are all replaced by love and total acceptance

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience. I remember it vividly. What I remember most is the feeling that all of the weight was off of me and I was finally home.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I feel spirits. I can hear them talk to me. It's a voice that always comes into my head, just above my right ear. It is not my voice.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? I feel like I put this experience into my life plan to wake myself up if needed. The amnesia when we come here is so total and complete, that it is easy to get lost in the earthly experience

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I have shared it with a few people but they either act like I'm crazy, or are not really interested, or twist it to fit their own personal religious beliefs. After a while I stopped trying to tell people

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes Only in that I had heard the term NDE. I had not studied it.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I have always known it was very real, since the second it happened.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real I have always know it was real

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? When I get stressed in this human life, I think about all of that weight leaving me, and I remind myself that this is all only temporary.

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? I do not have any suggestions

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