Maggie S NDE

Experience Description

I had been married for only a year and was about 5-1/2 months pregnant with my first child. I had developed toxemia. It was seriously detrimental to my health and the health of my baby. I had driven myself to my doctor appointment that day. I remember I had a massive headache and had a general feeling of being unwell. As soon as I arrived, I was rushed into a room. I laid down on the table and my blood pressure was taken about 18 times. I was getting super annoyed by this point. I was in the U.S.Airforce at the time and now was late for work. My husband needed the car and I had it. I didn't realize how dangerously close I was to having a heart attack. I was immediately admitted into hospital. My blood pressure had been 180/120 and my doctor could not understand how I was still functioning. The kidneys had start shutting down and I had retained so much fluid, I could not tell where my knees were.

I didn't get any better during this time, but I stayed in that bed on my left side until I went into labor. I went into labor. During this time, the doctors had given me morphine to stop the labor. I remember I thought, 'Oh, wow. I am going to die.' Then a nurse come into the room and said she would stay with me. I had never seen this nurse before. I remember telling her how golden she glowed. She said to 'Just rest' and placed her hand on my forehead. The pain was the worse thing I had ever experienced.

The next thing I know, I am floating above my body and my heart had stopped. I remember watching the doctors rush in the room, the machines buzzing, and seeing them pumping my chest to get a heartbeat. I remember saying, 'I do not want to go back in that body.' I floated and watched for what seemed like hours. All of a sudden, a tunnel opened by the ceiling in the corner of the room. It was so bright, but I could still see. I knew I was supposed to go and I floated right into that tunnel. I remember it was like being in a warm bath and I floated in this tunnel for a while. It was so peaceful and calm and then I came to the other side. I saw the most brilliant city. There were lights everywhere and I saw thousands of people. I wasn't able to see their faces but I knew they were waiting for me. I felt so much love at that moment. Then I heard the voice, 'It is not your time yet. You have to go back. You have unfinished business.' I argued, 'I do not want to go back. Please don't make me!'

I woke up two or three days later in the intensive care unit. The baby had been cut out in an emergency situation. His apgar scores were 6 or 7. He was blue and floppy but he did survive. There were no ill effects to him and today he is a dad himself. I had my bladder cut through in their crazy attempt to get him out. I have discovered that I was sent back to help others. I have helped raise many children who were not my own. This was my purpose for coming back. I have lost a lot of people and prior to their passing, I was able to recant my experience and how incredible it was. There is nothing to fear from passing - it is living that is hard.



Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 3/22/1987

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? No. Surgery-related. Childbirth. Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function)

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I watched them work on me. I watched them throw my husband out of the room. I remembered who was in the room, what they were wearing, and were they were standing. I was 100% accurate. I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal. I was aware that my body was shutting down and I was dying. I was aware that there was an angel there to help.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? The whole time

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No

Were your senses More vivid than usual? More vivid than usual

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. While I was watching this unfold, I remembered every tiny detail and upon my return. I recited this story to my doctors. They didn't believe me until I told them what they were wearing, where they were standing, and what they had said during the time I was floating.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. It was so much sharper. I could remember every minute of it. I can still hear them and it was 31 years ago today

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere, as if by ESP? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes It opened in the ceiling of my room

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes deceased family members. At the time I couldn't understand how there were so many people waiting for me. I did my DNA recently and discovered I came from and unusually large family

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? An unusually bright light

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes, the tunnel glowed in a very brilliant white light.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? Some unfamiliar and strange place. It was a brilliant city of bright white light

What emotions did you feel during the experience? I didn't have any. It was just very calm

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? No

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? No

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Catholic

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No

What is your religion now? Christian- Other Christian

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience. During my passing, I had not given this any thought one way or another. I had no idea what people experience in death.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I heard a voice I could not identify. The voice told me I had to return to my body. It was loud and commanding but very calming.

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes I was sent back to rescue children that needed help and to help people close to death pass over easily.

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? An afterlife definitely exists. Yes there is life after death

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes I understood what it meant to be loved. I have never had that in my life. I helped my sons understand what that love it is and how it should be. If I had not came back, my older son would not have experienced how a mother's love is.

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Uncertain A lot of people that used to be in my life are no longer there.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience. This experience is extremely vivid still to this day

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I hear warning voices if danger is going to happen. I had one experience where my youngest son was in the backseat asleep. A booming voice kept saying put your son in the front seat. It kept getting louder and louder until I finally pulled the car over and moved him. Five mins later, I was broad sided and if my son had stayed there he would have died. If I hear those voices, I don't question it I listen and comply.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? just the calming of the entire experience. I try to live my life that way now but it isn't as easy

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Immediate and of course, 99% of people do not believe me

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. It was so confusing at the time and I tried not to dwell on it

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real Today, I have learned that there was a reason for my visit. I don't think my death was planned and I almost think I was thrown out of my body, like ejected from the pain.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? It was sad when I had to come back and I am still sad. I get the feeling that I will have to live to 120 before I can get back to that place again. It was shown to me but I could not have it.

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? I had to search for you and it took me 31 years to tell my story.