Makaila M NDE

Experience Description

I was on my way home from work. It had been raining and I didn't know it had rained before I left for home. I hydroplaned around a curve going 50 mph. My car took a small flight, went two-feet into the ground, flipped 3 times. By the third flip, I was ejected out of my vehicle and through the windshield. I thought it was a dream, until I was told that I was fully conscious the whole time.

Before I woke up, I was in a pure black room that had invisible walls that revealed stars. The room was cold and dark, but it felt so nice. I felt a presence behind me. I felt the presence was too comforting, as if something was wrong. I was in my childhood body. But, I was pure white. The crease of ceilings connecting to the walls and the floor were like a shiny, overlapping, silver string . Due to the presence of the figure, I wanted to leave. So, I immediately got up and ran to the wall. It revealed a door to be opened. There was a bright light shining through the door.

As soon as I went through the door, I 'woke up' in the ambulance covered in blood. When I found out the true details of my accident, I was fully conscious and talking to the first responders. But I had no memory of that. I just remembered that dream. The first responders I had met after my accident, all said they were sure I would have died from how bad the crash was, how much blood was all over the vehicle and myself, and with how bad my injuries were. But I only had a small brain bleed, a neck fracture in my C2 vertebrae, and five gashes on my body. I left the hospital in 3 days and was fully walking.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 1/23/21

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Accident. Direct head injury. Life threatening event, but not clinical death. I had a brain bleed, fractured my neck, and had head trauma from going through a windshield

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely distressing

Did you feel separated from your body? No. I lost awareness of my body

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal. I woke up alert, eyes wide open

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I woke up at 10:34 pm when the accident happened at 8:40 pm

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning. I have 40-60 minutes unaccounted for but my 'dream' felt like it lasted three minutes

Were your senses More vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I wear glasses from being near-sighted with astigmatism. For a full 5 minutes, I could see clearly far away

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. It has been acute; I can't do loud noises and it's only been two weeks since the accident.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere, as if by ESP? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Uncertain This person was about 3 feet behind me. I knew they were there even thought I never saw them. It was a man's presence but it was off-putting

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes I couldn't see anything but blinding light as soon as I ran into the wall and through the door

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm. I was in a cosmos-type room. I had a child's body, a pure white body, like I was drawn on paper

What emotions did you feel during the experience? I didnt have time to feel emotions

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Relief or calmness

Did you have a feeling of joy? No

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt no longer in conflict with nature

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a definite conscious decision to return to life. I ran out of the room, through the door, immediately woke up

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Other or several faiths: Pagan wiccan

What is your religion now? Unknown

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience. I was literally in the cosmos and I believe in reincarnation.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin. I felt a calming presence but it felt off, like I shouldn't be around that presence yet.

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? An afterlife probably exists. It felt like I was in a waiting room

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? No

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Slight changes in my life

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience. I don't remember the part of my accident right before I went out the windshield and some of the ambulance ride.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain. I could always sense the dead, and hear the dead. I could see shadow figures but now they're more constant.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? I want to know why I was a child in that experience, and why the presence couldn't face me.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes four days later, but they concluded that shock does weird things to the mind

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was probably real. I felt the room, the coldness, how warm the light was when I escaped the room

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was probably real. After a week and a half, I still feel the same as when it happened.

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? Yes

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Uncertain I want to know why I have an hour unaccounted for, why such little injuries caused it even without surgery, why I can't remember things, and why the presence couldn't face me