Malina E NDE

Experience Description

I was at a party and outside with friends. I was drinking beer and smoking pot, but not excessively, just socially. I wasn't drunk or high. My three friends and I went inside and walking down some stairs, I started seeing flashes of light. This was typical of the onset of a seizure so I was familiar with this trigger and knew what was about to happen. I told my friend how I was feeling and she thought that maybe I should take some more medication. We went upstairs to the kitchen. I took my pills with water and was standing in front of the sink. The following is what was told to me from friends at the party. I then went into a trance, my friend was asking me if I felt okay, but I didn't respond.

I was just staring into space. She said I then just fell to the floor and went into a seizure. People were around me and my friend said I was choking. I suppose my tongue blocked my air passage. She said her older brother practically had his whole hand down my throat, trying to pull my tongue out. I was turning blue, and when he finally was able to get my tongue clear from blocking my breathing, I came out of the seizure. He said he sat me up in a chair, and I looked at him and said, 'I'm dead, I know I'm dead.' He said it freaked him out and he kept assuring me that I wasn't dead. They called an ambulance and at the hospital, the doctors discovered I wasn't on the correct dosage of medication. The pharmacy filled the prescription wrong. The doctors determined this is what probably caused the seizure and why it was so severe. That was the physical part of my experience. What I was feeling while having this seizure, was like no other seizure I had before this or for anytime in the many years after. It was worst experience of my life.

First, before I was always unconscious and never felt anything while having a seizure. But during this seizure, I was fully aware of everything going on around me. I could hear my friends talking and I could hear the panic in their voices. This is why I believe I was experiencing an OBE. Although I couldn't see anything, I could also sense other beings around. I could feel the pain of my tongue being pulled on. I think I felt as if I was being tortured and I felt evil surrounded by the torture. After this sensation, my surroundings changed. Now I felt like I was in a void. I wasn't experiencing any pain anymore. I think this is when I started to die. I felt like I was slowly floating downward in a dark tunnel. I wasn't afraid anymore. I actually felt at peace. I don't recall that I was dying at the time, just felt good inside. It was a very pleasant feeling. But I never saw a light and I don't even recall when I came out of it. I know I don't remember telling my friend I was dead. I might have started to become aware of things when in the ambulance.

Since then I've had many OBEs, psychic experiences, lucid dreams, past life experiences, visitations from people who are dead during OBE. I went twenty years without having seizures and about three years ago started having seizures again. I've had OBE's during times of taking medication and during the years I didn't take medication. I don't drink or smoke and never did habitually.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: Approximately 1968

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Epileptic seizure Life threatening event, but not clinical death Having a seizure and stopped breathing.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Positive

The experience included: Out of body experience

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes My appearance seemed shadowy. I could see only shadowy figures when I felt I was being tortured.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Fully consciousness, could hear people, but couldn't see them. My alertness was vivid, as I experienced pain and later peace.

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Just could hear people's voices, not strange people voices, but my friends who were actually there.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes It was a dark tunnel, not completely black, but more like a void.

The experience included: Void

The experience included: Darkness

Did you see an unearthly light? No

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm Again, many times, all when having OBE's. Went to familiar places and I knew the places. Other times, I was in beautiful, unearthly places. I've flown in the skies, high above the earth, both in the early morning before sunrise and late at night, when I can see city lights in the distance.

The experience included: Strong emotional tone

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Extremely scared at first, felt an evil presence while I felt like I was being tortured. During the tunnel feeling, I felt no more pain and felt peaceful.

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe Hard to explain. But feel like I need to be doing something or sharing some knowledge. I think that's why I'm always searching for more knowledge. I always feel like I don't belong here on earth or I don't want to be here.

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control

Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future Throughout my life, I've had dreams that came true. Or felt a certain feeling about something about to happen and it would.

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes Not afraid of death anymore.

The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes The feelings, both the bad and good feelings.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes Since my early teens, I remember having psychic feelings. During times of having seizures, I feel this ability heightened.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Only share with certain people (other than my family members, who I share freely with). Most of the time I've shared this with friends, I've discovered they had similar experiences or believe in spiritualism. I think (consciously or subconsciously) I feel there's a connection with that person that enables me to share freely without fear of ridicule.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes During times of having seizures.

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? I have so much to say and ask, but too much to include right now.