Margaret E Possible NDE

Experience Description

First I said, 'Salad.' Then I went blind, and then deaf.

My consciousness went to a comforting gray, grave-like box. I was not afraid.

When I came to, I had a strong message, 'You have much work to do.' It was the first thing I said. I woke up 2 days later.


Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 2012

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Allergic Reaction. Life threatening event, but not clinical death. Anoxia from reaction to chemotherapy for late stage metastatic ovarian cancer.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Both pleasant AND distressing

Did you feel separated from your body? No I lost awareness of my body

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Less consciousness and alertness than normal. I was in dream-like state.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When going to a gray box.

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No

Were your senses More vivid than usual? No

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I saw a gray box.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Deaf

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere, as if by ESP? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

The experience included: Darkness

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? No

Did you see an Unearthly light? No

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? Some unfamiliar and strange place gray box

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Calm

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Relief or calmness

Did you have a feeling of joy? No

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt no longer in conflict with nature

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Moderately important to me

What was your religion prior to your experience? Other faiths- Unitarian and other liberal faiths Catholic, Agnostic, Jewish, Unitarian, Christian

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I am not as competitive, but am more compassionate instead.

What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Greatly important to me

What is your religion now? Christian- Other Christian

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes We are put here to learn to love one another.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I heard a voice I could not identify. I heard a strong, forceful message saying, 'You have much work to do'

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No

Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? God definitely exists

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes I had chosen a secular life away from God.

Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? God definitely exists

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes return to Jesus and share his love.

Did you believe that our earthly lives Are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are possibly meaningful and significant

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes Jesus is the son of God.

Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? An afterlife probably exists

Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists. Yes I was made to rest in this gray box until I woke up. I had clear message that I have much spiritual and earthly work to do before being ready to meet God.

Did you fear death prior to your experience? I greatly feared death

Do you fear death after your experience? I slightly fear death

Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Greatly fearful in living my earthly life

Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Slightly fearful in living my earthly life

Did you believe that our earthly lives Are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are possibly meaningful and significant

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are meaningful and significant

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? Uncertain I needed to reconcile my turning away from Jesus, and tell my son so. Also, to do more charitable work.

Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes I felt strongly admonished

Were you compassionate after your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life. I have more compassion towards everyone. I pray all of the time, for others and those who are hateful towards others and myself.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I lost many friends who are not Christian, and have closer relationships with my Christian and spiritually aware friends.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience. Afterwards, I was in a semi-coma state for three days, during which I had no memory except being in a CT machine.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Feeling sorrow at being separate from God/Jesus.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes right away

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Uncertain saw something on Oprah.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. It was certain and real.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. Separation from God/Jesus is a sorrowful state.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? We must learn to love one another, and connect on spiritual level.

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? No.