Marianna NDE

Experience Description

I was having an ectopic pregnancy and had to undergo major surgery, I was told that I had two minutes to half an hour to survive. As two doctors met me in the surgery, I remember at the time thinking this is it. I am not going to recover from this, as the pain was unbearable.

I remember floating towards a bright light, I was calm and I wanted to go towards it, I was aware that I had my grandparents waiting for me on the other side, and I was very, very calm. I heard a female voice. She told me that it wasn't my time and that I had to go back. I was disappointed. The next thing I remember was another female voice, that of the nurse, telling me it was time to wake up. There was also another nurse that came up to her and asked if I was all right, the nurse informed her colleague that I was.

I found out later that it was more serious than they had thought at the time and that I had to have one tube removed and that I had to be revived as my blood pressure was very low.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: July 1998

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Surgery-related Life threatening event, but not clinical death See account.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Positive

The experience included: Out of body experience

Did you feel separated from your body? Uncertain I was journeying in my body I wasn't out of it, well that how it felt.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I was aware of everything.

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Uncertain I didn't see anyone, but I heard a voice and was aware of people being there.

The experience included: Light

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes It was a bright light the sort of light that you experience when you are in a tunnel and coming out the other side.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm There was no difference.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Tearful, fearful, apprehensive, disappointed.

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe It felt spiritual, I believed in Heaven and God at the time, but was not as certain as I am now.

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes It changed my outlook on life. Life is precious; you only get one chance at it. I also go to church more so than before.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The shock of having that experience, coming out of it and learning from it.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I told my mom, it was very emotional because of the fact that this was life threatening anyway.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? A couple of the questions seem to duplicate themselves, but other than that they are very good questions because they make you explain them better, as you have to recall the emotion you felt at the time.