Dr. Martina F Probable NDE

Experience Description

June 22, 2018:

I went home from jogging and took off my shoes in the corridor. Suddenly I felt dizzy and thought, 'If I'm not lying down I will fall down.'

After an undefined time, I woke up from a noise that was similar to an audio tape when it was running too fast. But I knew that this noise was inside of myself. I was lying in wetness. The noise subsided and I could then register the outside noises again. I discovered that the wetness was blood and that I broke my nose. A few days later I was diagnosed with a ventricular tachycardia and a defibrillator was implanted.

July 31, 2018:

I had just been released from the hospital and was allowed to exercise again. I was biking and felt free and happy. About 30 seconds later, I felt dizziness. I could hear my brakes and then everything went blank.

I woke up to a place where everything was pleasant, joyful, and beautiful. I didn't want to leave there. After an undefined time, somebody woke me from this place of indescribable peace and well-being. I wanted to remain in this peace. And I was quite annoyed about the first-respondent because she tried to wake me up.

I abruptly got back into my body and I realized that I had experienced another arrhythmia. Afterwards, it showed that the defibrillator had released.

After this I fell down twice more, once in 2018 and once in 2020 but there nothing else happened except I felt fear. According to the defibrillator those episodes lasted at most only 13 seconds.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 6/22/2018 and 7/31/2018

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Heart attack. Life threatening event, but not clinical death

How do you consider the content of your experience? Both pleasant AND distressing

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I heard a strange noise. I lost awareness of my body

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Less consciousness and alertness than norma. Darkness

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I can't evaluate this.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No

Were your senses More vivid than usual? More vivid than usual

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. My sight was narrowed.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. With the first syncope, hearing was clearly sharpened, with the second one there was no influence.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? No

Did you see an unearthly light? No

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No

What emotions did you feel during the experience? During the second syncope there was at first fear, then peace.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will. The first-responder person upset when she woke me. I didn't want to come back but here, she became progressively louder.

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Catholic

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No

What is your religion now? Christian- Catholic Have left the church in the meantime, not because of religious reasons; but because of the cases of sexual abuse in the catholic church in Germany

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Uncertain I do not believe that the experience changed my values and convictions. It was because of the ventricular tachycardia that led to the experience, that changed my beliefs.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? No

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? No

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? I have never been a fearful person before the experience. The experience didn't scare me but the continuing arrhythmia has scared me each time it happened. There is fear before the moment of unconsciousness because it is so life-threatening and scary. I have experienced thise four times already. I listen more to my body and what I really want. I try to live accordingly, not as adapted as before. Even here it's not the experience that tipped the balance but the disease. The disease is probably an isolated cardiological sarcoidosis.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes There have been so many emotions that I can't describe.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience as accurately as other life events that occurred around the time of the experience

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? This enormous peace and the indescribable well-being.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I'm an anesthetist and a doctor of intensive care, have had lots of experience with death in the past. This knowledge didn't have an influence on my experience.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No