Martina S Probable NDE

Experience Description

On the way to work with my car, around 12:15 pm, in a curve another oncoming vehicle came towards me in my lane. I tried to draw aside and avoid a crash. The only available space was the edge of a wood, because changing lanes could cause other possibilities for a crash with further vehicles, and the more there was a bridge over a river with the possibility to drown in case of a crash. Before we hit, the last thing I remember of the accident was that I had eye contact with the other Female driver. While I was in an artificial sleep (coma?), of which I can't give the exact time, I only knew that something is/was strange.

What precisely this was I didn't know. I was with my deceased aunt, that she (like all the others being present) had been deceased I didn't know that this point in time and I didn't care. It was simply nice even though I shortly wondered if I could be dead, but this also I didn't care about. I didn't really think about this. I was playing cards with my great-grandma, my aunt and my grandma and then asked for some more coffee. My aunt then said to me: “No, because you now have to go back home. I briefly wondered who had to decide that I would have to go home, as I already moved out from home for a time, but I didn't discuss this and simply accepted it. Probably it was at that moment that I remembered my dogs still being 'at home' and that I didn't know for how long I was 'here' and what would happen to them if I was 'away'. Possibly that was the main reason to 'leave'. And I also didn't 'really leave', I simply woke up in my bed at hospital when I was taken out of the artificial sleep and/or I woke up by myself because my aunt told me that I had to go (I never asked about). My world came crashing down because I was so helpless concerning my 'home' and because on the one hand I was scared to 'slip' back to where I had been before. Because I couldn't exert any influence about 'home' and that I was dependent of those being my medical guardians. And on the other hand, being scared about the 'efforts' I needed to do, to definitely get my own self-responsibility back. This 'fear' was taken away in the first clear moments by a very nice nurse in whose care I found myself in the ICU. He told me that this wouldn't happen and that everything will clear up in my head and will come out ok. There have been times when I would have liked to go back, as over there everything was so simple, and easy and natural.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 2015

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain Accident Direct head injury Life threatening event, but not clinical death I knew that something was different/strange, but didn't know precisely what and I simply accepted this feeling as I knew that everything was as it should be for me on that moment.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Both pleasant AND distressing

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I knew who was with me, and when, and that quite often I didn't appreciate it (actually never) in that form, but I had no influence about it. I had to take it as it came. I lost awareness of my body

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness I didn't feel different about consciousness.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? All the time.

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning Time was irrelevant.

Were your senses More vivid than usual? No

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Similar, after I learned to compensate the squint angle that the accident has caused.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Same.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere, as if by ESP? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes Great-grandma, aunt, grandma

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? No

Did you see an unearthly light? No

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Mostly lightness, peace, joy. Short moments with fears, I suppose when fearing coming back.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Relief or calmness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe Not more than before/after.

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No Places no precise events.

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a definite conscious decision to return to life It was mainly decided for me and I found it good, accepted it. From this moment I knew that I didn't belong 'here'.

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Do not know I was baptized but left church because since a long time already, I have the meaning that one can't compress the universe into one single category. I believe in the universe, in myself and in evolution. So I call it atheism.

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No

What is your religion now? Do not know My perception about everything from before this experience was confirmed, underlined and assured.

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience. I knew that it was ok for the moment but couldn't stay this way permanently, I felt right at that point in time in the place I was.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I now have the biggest value for myself, because only when I'm completely 'satisfied' I can be the good person I want to be.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? An afterlife definitely exists No

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? No

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life I'm not 'sacrificing' myself anymore for somebody else, my understanding concerning willful ignorance has diminished, almost completely gone.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I became more 'strict' concerning my borders and I stand up for them even up to break up. My border is my border. I accept the borders of others so they have to accept mine, or they are 'allowed' to leave my life.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I do not know how my remembrance of the experience compares to my remembrance of other life events that occurred around the time of the experience. My memory of the situation/experience is exactly the same than everything what I experienced before and after, but what happened outside of my world I don't know at all because I simply didn't care about. I had enough to do with 'defense' and 'recovering'.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I didn't 'know' anything about but I knew by myself that we are infinite and the experience confirmed my knowledge and I started to deal with this.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Uncertain Through hear say and my own feeling, I had no real information.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real Because it 'really' happened to me and I always felt being present at the place.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real Because the new insights show me that I was/am right.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? I'm more and more sure in my opinion that we are infinite.

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? For me it was good as it was.