Matthew L FDE

Experience Description

I was an over-the-road truck driver at the time. I didn't use drugs and drinking was only reserved for my time off. A couple of months prior to my accident, I decided to quit drinking and treat myself better. I worked hard because I loved the money. I was accustomed to working nearly 20 hours a day. On the weekends, I would just sleep to restart my week. Two weeks prior, I decided to cut back on my work-time and just do what was required. The night before the accident, I was binge watched 'the walking dead' series and thought I could sleep 4 hours and then catch up on my sleep the following night. As I woke up, I set my GPS location to my destination on the east coast of the peninsula. Somehow, my God took me on a journey leading me to the west coast. I believe the GPS was set to avoid toll roads, causing me to head west.

I ended up on a narrow highway through some wooded areas and was getting very sleepy. I tried everything to stay awake. I called people. I sang loudly. I had the windows down. There was no exit or place to turn off and park. At the edge of the asphalt was grass and forest. In fear of getting stuck, I kept trying to push on to find a safe place to pull over. I started nodding off and would fight it. Finally on my last nod, there was a semi-truck with a prefabricated house on the back. When I woke up from the nod, I was facing the corner of the house staring at its wall. I was in a full-size pickup with a 40ft trailer doing 'Hotshot' runs. I jerked the wheel as hard as I could, but it was too late. The hood slammed against the windshield and all the airbags deployed, and threw my hands away from the wheel. I had no control of the truck and could not see what was going on either. I knew at that moment, I was going to die. I accepted my fate and prayed it would be over quick.

That's when everything started to slow down. I remember seeing a green glow around me. Time slowed down as I watched things like my pens and other personal items floating like in a slow film. There was a jolt that I assumed the truck going airborne. I waited for everything to go black. All of a sudden, the truck came to a sudden, high-impact stop. I was told that the truck went straight towards an oak tree. The steering wheel dug into my abdomen and the engine crushed my left leg, pinning it in. I was surprised that I survived everything. The green glow was still present as I was looking around the truck. I lost my phone and was going to call my mother to tell her goodbye. I could see the green grass coming through the floorboard of where the passenger seat was. I also noted that I was super-impressed by all the airbags in the truck. I could hear screaming voices on the other side. One was saying, 'That was the worst accident I have ever seen.' From hearing those voices, I was able to stick my hand out and tried to yell for help. I had to try 3 times to be heard. Finally, someone noticed my hand and yelled, 'He's alive!' The process following was the rescue. The pictures taken of the truck proved to me it was a miracle that I survived.

But here's the crazy part. That's not my first near-death experience. I have had many, two were drug overdoses a year apart when I was in my early 20's. In my first experience, I had an out-of-body experience. I have traveled to three different galaxies. One time, I went to a void and actually met God. I could not see, but the voice was so powerful it went through me because it was so loud. I could see all the souls from everywhere and how it came all together and went all back. For months afterwards, the voice resonated through me and I had constant goosebumps. That was how I knew for sure there is a god. The second overdose, I woke up and was strapped in a bed at the hospital. The ceiling never ended and it was snowing in the room. Everything was white. The light above was what TV would say as the light of heaven. I tried to grab a snowflake and looked at the officers. They were so threatening to me, I thought, 'Oh no, I'm going to hell.' One officer spoke and comforted me. He told me I'm not in trouble and he was there to help. I suppose they were guardians of some sort of twisted fate.

When I was 14 years old, I hopped into the seat of a neighbor's sister's car with a friend of mine. I thought he had a license and we went off to get a spark plug for his 4-wheeler. I just moved to Texas at the time. We went to the store and got the spark plug. On the way back, he was speeding and showing off. In the back seat, I decided to put my seatbelt on right before he lost control of the car. We were on the service road, coming to a bridge. When the car lost control, it crashed through the barricade and flew into the air. Later, we were told it was 25 feet into the air. From the back seat it looked like some crazy stunt man driving off a cliff. We spiraled down towards the freeway and was caught by a ditch that saved us from crashing into traffic. A Mexican guy saw us kids standing around the car in amazement knowing our parents would kill us. All the tires were popped and the axles were broken. We fled the scene.

After the accident in 2016, I joked around with everyone that I was invincible. I survived horrific accidents like a high-speed motorcycle crash when I was 26 years old. As of last Thursday coming home from work, I had a deer hit me straight-on while on my motorcycle. That deer jumped a fence and landed straight on me. That's the only thing I can think of. I went crashing down. All I saw at the last minute was the deer body overshadowing my helmet as it knocked me and the bike down. When I finally stopped, the deer was 5 feet from me. I got up and it did also, only to make a few steps before it collapsed. A passerby saw the accident and checked on me and 'Dispatched' the deer.

I mentally struggle with my existence, don't get me wrong because I love life. Many people I know have passed on for far less. I don't know if I'm in purgatory or if my body dies in one realm and I am to finishing my existence in another; or if I am already dead and am reliving other people's memories in all the coexisting planes of reality. But I know the life I live and am living is unnatural. There is no way I am still here.

I am grateful that this site is here. Maybe there are other people out there who are like me. Maybe you will find answers of what we are and why we keep going and why some don't. I can't say that I am damned because I feel life is a gift, but I am one lucky person for sure. I am a little sore today, but I've had worse. Tomorrow will just be another day.

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date NDE Occurred: 8/28/2016

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? No. Accident Life threatening event, but not clinical death

How do you consider the content of your experience? Neither pleasant NOR distressing

Did you feel separated from your body? No No

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal At the time of my accidents, everything seemed to slow down. My brain was working faster.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Yes

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning.Time seemed to go at a super slow speed during some of my events. Other times it was at the moment

Were your senses More vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I tend to notice things and react accordingly. There's times where there's nothing you can do. There are others times that I just make do with what I got. But my brain worked really fast

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I don't hear much during those episodes. My mind takes control and I do what is necessary. I guess it's like talking to myself.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Uncertain As a kid I used to hear my name 'Matues'. My mother used to tell me to say 'No one is here' in Portuguese. The calling went away until I was back in Brazil. One night, it came back calling my name. When I came back to United States I came to chaos.

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes Once there was a green light. Soft but everywhere. Another time it was white. It's like a light fog, but not fog, just light

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No

What emotions did you feel during the experience? No emotions that I recall. No fear. No sadness. Nothing. There is calm.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Relief or calmness

Did you have a feeling of joy? No

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? No

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe. It's taken some time to get here, but I have my own speculative beliefs.

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No. I'm not sure what this means, if it's flashbacks, then no

Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future. Sheepishly, I'm an empath. I think we all are. I can feel other people. I can also see paths and outcomes. Many things I've secretly predicted have come to fruition

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will. I'm going to say this in my own words. I don't think I'm allowed to go. I keep getting sent back here despite all the odds. I used to joke that nobody wanted me. Too good to go to hell and too bad to go to heaven, so they keep sending me back

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Do not know I believed. I know there is truth in the Bible. But I also believe there is more than what we know that is suppressed

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No

What is your religion now? Do not know. I am studying all religions and finding connections with them all

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Uncertain I'm sure I described this previously

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I heard a voice I could not identify. The only time I left my body. I heard a voice so powerful it went through my soul. It was amazing. For months, I got goosebumps every time I thought of it.

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? Uncertain Well. I don't know if this is the right answer, but I think it's pretty certain that those who experience death or near death tend to live more. Life is only a timeline and your body is only a vessel

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Uncertain. I believe there is more than what we know. I can guarantee you that I do not know what happens before or after, but I am not at all concerned as much as I am curious. I think of timelines and possible multiverses. The mind is a powerful thing and for that it gives perception to our own reality for whatever that is.

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Uncertain I was just shown that this is where everyone comes. I don't remember the message completely. But I was grateful to know that we are all interconnected no matter what species, beings, or origin.

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes Previously mentioned

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes Control is an illusion. The only thing that you can control is yourself. Freedom is what you decide to do with your time without anything stopping you. And the only thing that can stop you from doing anything is yourself.

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? Yes The time I met 'God' I saw souls gathering together. And when it was time, they ventured out. It was a collecting point. My interpretation of what souls looked like in the void looked similar to Jacks (almost like the game kids played in the day with a rubber ball and jacks) they came in a huge pile swirling around like glitter in a liquid. I was told when it was time they came here and then would get sent out again. This happened many different lifetimes. I don't think anything was ever assigned. I think it is just. We come, we go, and we do it all over again with a different experience.

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? Yes Sometimes you have to let go and distance yourself from whatever is holding you back. Your mind is the only cage that you have to break from freedom and Your heart will always play tricks on you.

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Uncertain Having once trying to commit suicide. I realized that I was hurting others more for trying to selfishly take myself out. It was a dumb act to remove my pain and distributing to many others.

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Uncertain My people love me before and love me after. They are always concerned about me, but it's one of those things. They keep scratching their heads with disbelief

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I can feel what others are feeling almost sense what they are thinking. I can see paths of possibilities and sense dangers that are to come.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? I'm unsure. I live life day to day unless there are goals that I wish to achieve

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Immediately. But my experiences are extreme and people are left with disbelief

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. In my many experiences, I was always shocked to think how did I survive this or that?

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. The reality is this. No man, nor nature can put me down until it is my time. I am of flesh and blood. I can get hurt like anyone else, but to evade death as many times as I have, what am I?

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? No

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? There's too many questions, some seem the same

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