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Experience Description

I was on a health kick. I quit drinking after 20 years of alcohol abuse. I also was in the process of losing 100 pounds. At the time, I was suffering from crippling pain from my chest hurting, panic attacks, and dizziness. I was having problems dealing with being present for a mass shooting, several months priorto my experience. I had no hardcore religious practices, but I knew reincarnation was real and that Christian depictions of the afterlife were false.

I remembered crystals could help with anxiety, so I bought 7 of them, one for each of my chakras. I was alone and put on relaxing music, all were Solfeggio frequencies. My breathing was getting very slow and my chest hurt. I was having heart palpitations, which were normal for me. I took a deep breath and when I exhaled, I flew out of my body, out of the roof, above the city, and into space. I was holding a big red balloon that was twice the size of my head. The balloon represented my gas to get there. I broke through the galaxy and it cracked like an egg. Everything was blindingly white. Then my eyes adjusted.

I was in a long, busy, beautiful, glowing, and black corridor. It all seemed to be made of black, shiny, glowing iridescent material; black opal and black abalone. But this material was alive and had energy. The hallway was full of tall Beings I couldn't see or wasn't allowed to see fully. I was greeted by a shorter, very pale, pastel-skinned woman. Her skin changed hues as we talked. She was wearing a long, beaded fishnet dress and more jewelry than I've ever seen on one person. Everyone's clothing was made of beads, chains, opaque gems and plates of the rainbow stone that made up the wall. The wall was all made of swirling energy. The beautiful woman had a beaded fishnet dress with lots of necklaces. She had shoulder-length, jet black hair with bangs. She also had two horns and animal ears that stuck out of her head. She was not human. I had no clue who she was, but found out months later after going to a museum it was Egyptian Goddess Hathor/Sekmhet; they are one in the same.

I felt pure Happiness and love, like the whole place wanted me to be there. The beautiful, pastel-skinned, tall Beings passing by us in the hall. All of these people knew me and were excited to see me. I felt like I was a celebtity. Hathor/Sekmhet scolded them for trying to talk to me. She was irritated, causing her face and ears to morph from cow-like and into cat ears and a cat face. Her skin changed color. The last Being in a big group passed by. He grabbed my forearm arm, like a deep, loving handshake and looked blissfully, right into my eyes while saying 'Hey.' Hathor/Sekmhet smacked him away as he laughed and skipped away. I recognized his voice and eyes. I knew who he was when he touched me. This person was someone older whom I had a crush on since middle school. I hadn't thought about him for several years and knew that this person was still alive.

Hathor/Sekmhet gave me a lesson. She said, 'We have quantum spirits as described in ancient Egyptian texts. We leave our bodies at night and sometimes go home at night, but generally, aren't allowed to remember. When we do remember, it's through our human brains so it is all the weird, gobbledygook stuff dreams are made of. She also said that our subconscious is ALWAYS working on our behalf. Life should feel effortless if you're following your true path. We struggle when we lose our way or try to step outside of what we are here for. For example, if you are obsessed with being a lawyer and keep failing the bar exam? You need to be doing something else. Cruelty of life is supposed to catapult you into a different life-trajectory because we are not supposed participate in things/lifestyles that make us miserable.

Hathor/Sekmhet told me not to worry anymore and that I was home. She said she was my protector and that I came from this place and had many past lives. She then told me a secret about the universe; she addressed a vivid dream I had at 13 years old where my grandfather and I were standing outside an arena where I met my newly-deceased grandfather. It felt like the coolest party ever was going on in the arena behind him. He told me we weren't going to the same place. Although, we don't all come from the same place, we could always meet there. I felt the same Happiness in the dream that I felt when I was talking to the Being.

She told me that my grandfather was right. Some humans and some entire human cultures/civilizations are not from 'source' but from other realms, such as 4D and 5D. 3D humans are too unaware to comprehend it all. She said that's why I have always been very eager to learn and do new things, but I'm always bored. II have been depressed on earth my whole life and not really interested in the human experience. I'm here doing favors for others. She said my mission was to be an antenna. I was to just drop little bombs of good-intentioned art, love, truth and spirituality in the world and that I have a gift to help souls evolve. She said not everyone will be happy about it either, but its okay. She showed me that the ROOT OF ALL EVIL on earth is really dishonesty; lacking integrity within self, not being honest with self and others, and lying about who you are and being in denial about your actions. She said the earth and humans can evolve only through looking at themselves and being 100% honest and without ego. Having an ego is BAD, very BAD and fake love (being patronizing or manipulative) is VERY EVIL. You can always deliver honesty with care and love.

Hathor/Sekmhet said duality, harmony of dark and light, basically Hermetic principles were the driver of everything in the universe. The Merkaba star, Star of David, Star in Bethlehem, pentagrams, etc. were all the same and that they were the key to the universe. But she didn't explain more. She told me who some of our people were were that I could always find comfort in. She faded at that point; and I felt like I was falling asleep until I woke up on my bed coughing gasping for air.

For months after this experience, I felt like I was moving in an atmosphere of thick mud when I'm not in the desert. My Clair-abilities that I tried to ignore increased like crazy and are maddening at times. It has not improved my life, at all.

This was a life-changing experience, which is currently very traumatizing, yet also beautiful. After all this,I started meeting people who had NDEs. These seem to be the only people I can truly connect with. I practice Thelema (loosely, because most dogma is human) along with Kemetism and Yoruba, which I was born into, but never practiced.

Conclusion? Some of us are alien souls, really. Starseeds exist. Honesty is #1, Love is #2. Love, true love in all forms, can ONLY exist with honesty. ALL DESERT PEOPLES ARE CONNECTED. This was not a happy experience looking back, I hate being back in my body. I feel sad all the time and want to go home. People we are friends with at home won't always be your friends here. I have no use for material things that aren't used for art or to make my physical body feel better. I was a HUGE music collector, but that is mostly meaningless to me now. Literature also bores me. It has words made by humans and is inherently dishonest. Visual art is engaging and honest. Humans bore me. When I meet others like me? I immediately recognize them; but they are still human and asleep. I feel like I'm living in multiple dimensions at once; my awareness is everywhere. I just want to go home.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: January 2017

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain Illness Carbon Monoxide. Other: Unplanned out of body experience. The beings on the other side, told me I was dead but I would return alive. I was alone and felt like my consciousness did not change until I was back in my body. Then everything felt very heavy and thick and it felt like like mud was clogging up my vibe.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

Did you feel separated from your body? No. I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal. It was like going on the Mars simulator-ride at Epcot Disney and having gnosis at the same time. Everything clicked; all communication was telepathic.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When the being who I knew from this life touched me and I looked into his eyes. I still have never felt anything that compares to this, except when I made love to this person 3 years after my NDE. It scared us both, very intense.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning. It was all communicated to me telepathically, very quickly. It wasn't words, more like an understanding or knowledge transfer.

Were your senses More vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I could see the energy of everything in the atmosphere, the energy that drives the universe. It is iridescent and having anything around you with iridescence on earth, brings you closer to truth

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Everything was telepathic. The music around me was a vibration within me and telepathy was used to preserve the music.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes. Jesus, Buddha, etc. are ALL human constructs and they are not holy. Nobody is holy.

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes It was white, all encompassing, then it cracked like an egg and I went up further.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm It was the Duat. Not the way ancient Egyptian scribes describe though. It was more like the film Logan's Run with low ceilings and everything made of black glowing opal.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Joy, bliss, love, Happiness BELONGING! I finally felt I belonged somewhere.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt no longer in conflict with nature

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe. Human beings are their own enemies and ANYTHING is possible! The universe is a giant brain and we are like cells in the brain. Truth? As Above, So Below and Love Is The Law.

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No. My spiritual twin exists (my arm grabber) and we met when I was 11. They remember every bit of how we met which is odd because I was a kid and they were 18. We have had MANY lives knowing each other, some bad, some good.

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Other or several faiths Non-practicing pagan

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I have an Egyptian altar.

What is your religion now? Other or several faiths Thelemite who practices Kemetism and Yoruba

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience I practiced witchcraft for a long time and gave it up out of laziness. I now practice Thelma loosely and believe in Kemet and Yoruba again (born into it) I am not religious, I am spirit and spirit is me!

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes Life is cheap and precious simultaneously. Anything is possible.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin I later found out it was Hathor/Sekmhet. I was probably in the Duat, but she said I was also on a star.

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? Yes Kind of funny, but humans are the literal scum of the universe. We are not smart or special.

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes We are all connected over there, but its like international relations and certain beings/realms will do favors for other realms.

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Uncertain MANY higher beings exist. There is no one true god or messenger

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes I am an antenna to help others on their journey.

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes To be loving, kind and HONEST WITH YOURSELF AND OTHERS! Honesty IS the true love of the universe!

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? Yes We get reincarnated. Earth is a job, sometimes we come for fun. Some people reincarnate together

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? Yes This is the insane asylum planet. Souls come here to grow quickly and get their rocks off

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes HONESTY IS LOVE! We cannot have love without honesty. Patronizing people is more cruel than physical harm.

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life My Clair-senses improved. My distant family noticed and told me last year. I was the witch in the family and every generation in the family has one; my grandmother, my aunt and a 2nd cousin. Nobody is told about this and it is unspoken until they show it.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? I don't like humans anymore.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes It was gnosis. The information and communication was telepathic and was not given in words or pictures.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I do not know how my remembrance of the experience compares to my remembrance of other life events that occurred around the time of the experience

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I was already a Clair, this made it all more intense.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Seeing my twin. It kills me that we don't talk in this life, but we dream about each other. I hear him inside me sometimes.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes It was negative. I will never tell anyone again. I feel totally alone.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes My ex- husband who saw Hopi gods and Egyptian gods when he died. He is Irish and was raised there. Also Sylvia Browne and Edgar Cayce.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. I felt like I was a human 2.0, and zero all at once!

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. I want to live in the desert, then go home

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? I hate being on earth, I hate dealing with human beings. I hate talking. I want to go home.

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? Thank you.

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