Melinda C NDE

Experience Description

I was in an abusive relationship and suffering from post-partum depression. My mother-in-law, at the time, came over. She took my newborn child and told me that they were not going to let me and my husband raise him. My husband had left earlier that evening to go out. I was so depressed, I took drugs to leave this world. I couldn't go on living if they were going to take my child. My husband came home and found me on the floor in the bathroom and unconscious. His mom was a nurse, so he called her and she came over right away to help bring me back to consciousness. They called an ambulance to come and get me. At the hospital procedures were started to reverse the overdose. I was in and out of consciousness during this time but several days later my condition severely deteriorated. Tubes were inserted into my body to help me breathe and get nutrients. My liver was completely failing.

I was life-flighted to another hospital. When my family arrived, the specialists asked if they wanted to put me in the transplant list. They said tht since I had attempted suicide, that maybe they should just let me go. But, my father had died from suicide and my step-dad did not want to put my mother through that again. He talked the medical specialists into putting me on the list.

Being on the other side is the most wonderful feeling and it’s truly something I cannot explain with words. It’s not a “thinking” thing. It’s more of a feeling that is the most authentic, pure feeling even beyond what we can imagine with our minds or senses. I know that there was light and a passage from the darkness heading into the light. It’s so hard to describe the light because it’s so bright and vivid with colors that are not on earth. What I know from my experience is that I passed through some realm and then hovered around, while entities of energy, light and sound connected with my energy field. We communicated without words. I was trying to get across to them that I liked it here so much better and I wanted to stay. I was done with life because it hurt so badly. I was in a mentally and physically abusive relationship and had no means to escape it. They were threatening to take my newborn child and I couldn't live with that. I was afraid my family wouldn’t help me get out of that situation because they were also afraid of my husband.

My father was with me. His presence was so reassuring and I knew that he had been watching over me, protecting me, and giving me signs/clues about when to get out over the years so that I wouldn’t get hurt. I felt the warm embrace of my grandfather and other loved ones who had passed over. It was more like our energies mingling or combining. I was filled with love and no feelings of guilt for who I was in my earthly life or any of my weaknesses. I was told by an entity that they needed me to go back. My family would suffer too much of they lost me. I “knew” they would help me out of my situation and lead me into another life that would be fitting for me. But, I did not want to go back. I was trying to get across that everyone would be so much better off without me being a burden if I was alive. I kept saying I would come back again in another life and try all over again. The entities said they were so proud of me for what I had withstood, how much I had grown, and how wise and strong I really was in this life. The told me I was to come back and help others and they would show me the way.

I wasn't happy at the thought of going back and then they showed me a scene. I was outside of my body looking in on my mother who was sitting quietly and crying in the room with me on the ventilator. I could not decipher the words she was quietly saying but I know that she was praying and speaking to passed on family. I could “feel” her pain and how much this would hurt her, and my brothers and sisters. She knew what I had been living through was extremely tough and it’s why I had tried to commit suicide. She blamed my situation, not me. I just couldn’t take it anymore and I couldn’t bare to feel how strongly this was hurting her. I told the entity that I was okay and would get back in my body now. And, I did.

Just then I began coughing because of the tubes and they came into my room to do some checks. I couldn’t really speak and they told me they would take out the tube as soon as they could. This was a horrible experience. My situation was explained to me and my immediate family all visited and then they were going to go get some rest because they all needed it badly. I was safe from my husband because he was not allowed to visit me there. And, now we would just wait because I needed the transplant as soon as possible to survive. I was fine. I already knew it. I was happy and I knew what happens after this life that we go someplace safe where we’re not judged, just loved. I hadn’t felt love for so long before I passed and I had needed it so badly. And, now I knew that it’s what we all have to look forward to.

I didn’t get a transplant. My test results started coming back within the normal range without medical intervention. The doctors told me this wasn’t even possible. There’s no way it could happen and that it’s probably false results which sometimes occurs just before liver failure in rare cases. But, within weeks, they sent back to the first hospital. I was only getting one shot per day. Even from the first day I was wanting to eat solid food and was asking to get up and walk and go to the window. I knew I was going to be fine. The staff at the hospital was so excited. They couldn’t believe I was back and that I looked so healthy already. The last time they saw me my body was extremely swollen from withholding water. My own family told me later that you couldn’t even recognize me. And here I was back with a big smile on my face and in no pain.

I got a private room there and when I took my first shower, I bellowed out the song "In The Garden" and I knew I had walked and talked with my father on the other side and at that point In my life I needed him more than ever. It was the most beautiful thing. The words just came to me and I feel like my singing was from out of my body like someone sang through me. I didn’t have to stay at this hospital long either. Two weeks and I could go home. I went with my family this time. I did not leave with my husband at the time.

Even to this day, when I get blood work done everything looks great! A few years ago, I asked a doctor, are you sure because I had liver failure in the past and they scared me into thinking that would always be an issue for me. The doctor said, “You are in perfect health. Every single test result is within normal range and your vitals are even better than the normal.”

Ever since I had my experience, my intuition has been stronger. I am empathic with others and understand what that means. It doesn’t scare me anymore. I get signs and messages that I had been missing all of those years and I know how to work with them. Electronic devices malfunction around me and even ultrasound machines do not work accurately on me anymore. I know that my purpose is to just be and do things that make me happy because that’s how I’m healing the planet by resonating my frequency. I paint and write and play music. I’m not afraid of circumstances. I just have some kind of understanding that everything is going to always be okay and I have been able to share that feeling with friends and loved ones. It’s an entire new perspective lacking any type of fear of outcomes. I find beauty in all things around me especially in nature and all animals are drawn to me. I was meant to travel for many years and connect with the many energies and areas of our country.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: September/October 2010

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Suicide attempt Drug or medication overdose Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function) Liver failure. They put me on a transplant list and said I would not make it unless I got a new liver.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Both pleasant AND distressing

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes My family deciding my fate. I saw my mother sitting by my bed while I was unconscious. I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal. Could feel entering that space and everyone in it. All of us are connected and communicating with energy, sound frequencies, and light particles or like shapes

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Just before I agreed to slip back into my body and we were deciding whether I’d go back or not. It was like they were saying, 'please go back for them and others.'

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning. All in a flash they all came to me and everything happened at once

Were your senses More vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Dull drab environment before I got there. Afterwards, there was heightened colors and features. Eeverything is beautiful. I was noticing it all. Even the simplest things seem amazing and meaningful, brighter but like the light of knowledge

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I only heard what was directly around me. I could hear frequencies and pitches that were like a language. I could hear long distances away like at the end of the hallway and it sounded like I was right there

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, but the facts have not been checked out

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes From darkness to light. I thought of it as a realm. I did not get to pass all the way into the full light

Did you see any beings in your experience? I sensed their presence

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes Dad, grandfather, other family members

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes It’s like all the colors are in everything. The colors were fluid, constantly changing, and mixing

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm. Between here and “there” like a space or zone. One day out of nowhere, I mentioned 'I think I went through the Arcadian realm' or something like that to check me out and help me decide so I would know it was okay to come back

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Comfort safety bliss LOVE connection

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe. All is connected and bBoth positive and negative are necessary. Don’t hold it against people what stages in life they are in. We go through many lifetimes. Ascension is the goal Unity and flow

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control. Yes, just that they were always sending signs to help me be safe over the years

Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from my personal future. I would be safe once again in life and I would be able to create the life I want. I would travel away from home and share my thoughts, ideas with others in many ways

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a definite conscious decision to return to life. They showed me what it was like to feel my family's pain and that’s why I came back

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Other Christian

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I live spirituality in everything I do

What is your religion now? Other or several faiths: I adhere to beliefs from many religions and believe it’s all one faith

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience. At the time I believed we just died and it would end. For some reason I thought that’s what they meant of Heaven. I read the Bible a lot back then and I thought suicide meant you went on no more. I hadn’t really considered past lives until then either. But when this experience happened, I just knew

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I am whole and complete and love myself for who I am

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin. An entity assigned to me specifically, like a caseworker

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I sensed their presence

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? Yes Not specific but they let me know I’ve had many lives - MANY!!!

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes Human words can’t explain how we’re all connected but it’s all one

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes We are ‘god’; everyone and everything is god.

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes I think I’ve described it a lot Our very presence is making a difference in other’s lives even when we don’t know it or see it We affect everything, things as small as plants and environment all the way up to towns, cities, etc. our very being is healing so much more than we know when we live a life we/of love

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes Many lessons and many life’s We’re not just here for our self We’re here for all

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? Yes They would make me keep coming back for more lifetimes or else I could come back and get it all done in this one- this is my last incarnation but it wouldn’t have been if I didn’t come back this time

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? Yes We’re here for them Not ourselves Others need us to be ourself even if they don’t see it or talk to us about it We’re here for them to share a frequency or feelings with earth

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? Yes Tests and we can withstand them all We have before It’s teaching the all, not just us Life lessons are blessings (in disguise) blessons and the truly worthy get challenged the most in this realm Our very presence makes change and tough times don’t last because we get to leave/die

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes We’re always loved and only humans judge It’s part of this school When we’re not here or being in unconditionally loved and provided for

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life. Back then I would read the Bible some just searching for answers. Now, I love spirituality. It’s the most important aspect of my life. It’s so much broader and not defined by a specific religion or just words. It’s everything. Spirituality is evenh in light reflections, shadows, or raindrops. It is in all People and places; in everything, everywhere

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I’ve cut out people who don’t value me and respect me. I’m more content in my everyday life no matter what

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes It’s beyond what my mind can comprehend and put into words. It’s more like feelings or energy

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience. I remember it more accurately because I’ve gone back and thought it over so many times But, it’s more like I’ve thought of it to access the feelings so I could feel safe and loved again. Some days I get teary and I literally say I want to go back home because it felt like home. Nowhere on this planet can compare

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I can medium at times. I have a slider affect electronic equipment. I can picture something related to alchemy and then I get it. I can heal myself, based on some current health stuff (healed an autoimmune condition and allergies). I often know the future and have predicted many things for my friends, and just know things about people without talking to them. Then they verify it. While traveling I met some others randomly and we know each other without knowing each other. It's like we recognize our frequency or something

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? My family was saying good bye to me at the hospital because they didn’t think I’d get a liver to transplant. I don’t need One because I miraculously healed. I must need to be here on earth for some reason and w Wasn’t allowed to die ye. My singing in the shower was something amazing many weeks later. It was like angels were singing with me and they were glad I came back to the hospital in my town. They had been there with me when I was there before they life flighted me to the specialist hospital

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes 2 years

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes I had heard stories about people seeing the light and walking through a tunnel but nothing more specific than that they came back and told they went to Heaven

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. I discussed it a little with the nurses while there and they said it was truly amazing Sometimes I feel like some of them were like earth angels The doctors and everyone verified I miraculously healed But I didn’t tell them anything I “knew” It was years before I told a close friend the whole story

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. Life has shown me repeatedly how very real it was I’m a whole new person now with a much healthier life perspective And I’m not scared of what’s coming after this life I see beauty everywhere in everything

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? I’m grateful to know I’m loved. And more thankful for the little things now

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? I can’t think of any. The questionnaire seems very thorough