Experience Description (2055) 10/16/2004:

I was in a very peaceful place facing a very bright light that was not painful.

There were several (3 or 5) tall thin people whose features I either did not see or cannot remember. They seemed kindly.

We were moving slowly toward the light. I have no memory of walking, we were just moving. There was no discernible tunnel, but the space did seem to have boundaries.

One of the people took my hand and said, 'You can come with us.'

I looked up and said, 'No, I want my Mom.' I do not remember being afraid, only that I wanted my Mom.

The person released my hand and I began to back away from the light, again there is no memory of walking, just moving.

I awoke to find my Mom hugging me and looking very worried.

It ought to be noted that I had forgotten about this experience for many decades. My mother used to tell the story of Mich'l's hallucinations about space aliens. I must have told my Mom about the experience. since on one knew about NDEs in 1958, she interpreted it as an hallucination.

It was in 2001 during a protracted period (3 months) of intensive Taijiquan practice that local politician had an NDE. Listening to her relate her experience, I had a massive deja vu experience. Several weeks of deep meditation and Daoist introspection brought some of the memories back into consciousness.

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date NDE Occurred: 1958

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Illness Other Systemic infection with extremely high body temperatures. Treated with alcohol rubs.Systemic infection with associated extremely high temperatures.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful

The experience included: Out of body experience

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
I lost awareness of my body

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Unknown.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning I was in a place I had never been and time seemed slower.

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Did your vision differ in any way from normal? There was a very bright light in front of me. It was not painful. It seemed to obscure the features of the people with me.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes The walls of the tunnel were not apparent but there was a distinct feeling of a boundary at the end of which was the light.

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes Three or five very tall thin people was features were not discernible.

The experience included: Light

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes Very bright, but not painful to look at.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No

The experience included: Strong emotional tone

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Peace, calmness, lightness, comfort

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control

Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future

The experience included: Boundary

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal Anglican church of Canada

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No

What is your religion now? Liberal Practical Daoist

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No

The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Uncertain I suspect so, but since 12-year-olds do not have much in the way of relationships, it is difficult to tell. It has definitely influenced my life and how I relate to others. I have never had a fear of death, I tend to be very liberal and have always been empathic. Walking in the others shoes seems to be quite easy. Others find me affable, easy going and unflappable. I do not panic in crises.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain Electronic devices seem to work poorly or not at all, around me. I am the butt of jokes from computer folk who know that I get glitches that no one else does and are not reproducible.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes 43 years. My wife seemed interested. My older daughter is intrigued but is a practitioner of Eastern medicine. After several 'kindly negative' responses I have stopped telling people about the experience.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. I do not remember, but as a child I probably believed in the experience until convinced otherwise by my Mom.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. Body/mind work has realized the NDE as real.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes Taojiqauna and qigong have allowed me to attain similar mind/body or out-of-body states. This is ongoing.


Experience Description 5/3/2002:

I have after many years begun to remember the experience. The family story probably colored my perception of the event for decades.

I remember a lighted tunnel and humanoid beings at the end of the tunnel. They indicated that I could go with them. I did not want to to go. So I went back.

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date NDE Occurred: 1953

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Illness Life threatening event, but not clinical death Systemic infection - doctor apparently said after recovery that he thought I would not make it.Very high body temperature over several days treated with analgesics and alcohol rubs.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Positive

The experience included: Out of body experience

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I do have a memory of perceiving my body lying on the bed.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Alert

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes lighted tunnel

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes humanoid beings

The experience included: Light

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes tunnel was lighted

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No

The experience included: Strong emotional tone

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Contentment and joy.

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control

Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will I was 'offered the opportunity to go on' and instead decided to go back.

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What is your religion now? Liberal

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes They have changed over a very long time. I have never been afraid of dying, much to the consternation of family and friends. I have had several instances of anaphylactic shock and 1 myocardial infraction. I was never in a state of fear in any of these.

The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Uncertain The family story has always been about 'Mich'l's hallucination of space aliens'

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes My wife and children seem to just accept that that is Mich'l. I have only shared the remembrance with others who would have some understanding.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes The anima experiences of "slow dancing with the goddess" that have arisen from my taijiquan play are quite similar.