Michelle L NDE

Experience Description

Nine years ago, I was busy putting on makeup in the restroom before going to work. All of a sudden, I felt a chill that went from my head and traveled down my body. I knew it was not a good sign, so I sat down on the toilet.

In less than a second, the pain was gone. I saw a sheet of white, bright light appearing before me. I felt safe and all the pressure was gone. I had no need to deal with tough problems, and no longer worried about my children. I felt calm and happy. I said to myself, 'It is so nice here that I want to stay.' Unfortunately, after a while, there was a voice telling me, 'Go back, you still have a lot to do, and you need to go to work.' I felt depressed and woke up with a sense of loss.

Later, I regained consciousness on the cold, marble floor in the bathroom. I called for an ambulance after I woke up and they took me to the hospital. The doctor examined my heart, brain, nerves, and the rest of the body. Everything was fine except my face and head where I had fallen on the floor. I lost consciousness and collapsed several times afterwards, but I had not experienced that state of happiness again.

What I learned is that death is not horrible when I know that I will go to a place without worries or family burdens. I felt such relief. It is a peaceful, pleasant, and safe place that made me forget about everything on earth. Heaven is very beautiful and calm. I am no longer afraid of death now.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 2012

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Faintness Other: I passed out in the restroom.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

Did you feel separated from your body? No. I lost awareness of my body

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal. Consciousness is real.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? It was white and foggy in this place. I felt warm and blissful.

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning. Time did not exit.

Were your senses More vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. It was a totally different world. It was very peaceful. Yet, I had never felt so relaxed.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. There was a person who talked to me, but I never heard of this voice before or knew who the person was.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere, as if by ESP? Yes, but the facts have not been checked out

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes The surroundings were covered with light but it was soft and did not hurt my eyes.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm. This world was filled with white mist and laser light.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Very happy, relaxed, and cozy.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about myself or others. I was worry-free. Although my kids were young, I did not care about them at all. I felt everything was not important anymore.

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No. I had several prophetic dreams and they all came true later.

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Unaffiliated- Atheist

What is your religion now? Unaffiliated- Atheist. Now, I believe in God of the Universe, but not Catholic or Christian beliefs

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience. I am an atheist, but this place is like heaven.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I heard a voice I could not identify. I couldn't tell if the voice was Male or Female. But the voice was very friendly and kind.

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes I felt a presence of the spirit and had prophetic dreams.

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes I had been through many difficulties , and they were all taken care of eventually. My cancer had metastasized seventeen years ago; however, it was God’s gift that gave me a chance to be alive now.

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes I had prophetic dreams and felt the presence of spirits.

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? An afterlife does not exist

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? Yes. I had fainted several times after my eyesight resumed normal. Although I am healthy, I believe the illness of this life was due to pay off the debts from my previous life. After paying back the debts, we will return to the white, misty world again to enjoy the joyfulness, peacefulness, comfort, and the light.

During your experience, did you gain information about love? No

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? No changes in my life. I prayed to the Sun daily to gain positive energy.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience. It was so blissful and cozy that I will never forget about it.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain. I am gifted with weird abilities even before this experience.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? I am not afraid of death.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I shared it with close friends and family, but they did not believe it.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. The reality is real no matter what. The reality is a feeling, you can see and feel. When you have a bowl of noodles, you feel it is real. The taste is real, the temperature is warm, and the aroma is real. I felt the genuine warmth, the feeling, and the taste are all authentic in this place where it made me very delighted.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. The reality is real no matter what. The reality is a feeling, you can see and feel. When you have a bowl of noodles, you feel it is real. The taste is real, the temperature is warm, and the aroma is real. I felt the genuine warmth, the feeling, and the taste are all authentic in this place where it made me very delighted.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? No