Mónica FD NDE

Experience Description

Two days before my heart attack, I underwent surgery. It was major surgery; the complete removal of the uterus due to a myomatosis that was considered high risk. The surgery was performed at a very good clinic in my city. There were months in which the clinic was still on red alert due to the Covid pandemic. So I only spent one night in the hospital under observation. The attending physician decided that the next day they would send me home. I was really worried because I felt like I couldn't breathe well. Given the seriousness of the operation, I was afraid to leave the clinic so soon. In any case, they sent me home. That night I arranged the reclining bed as best I could and got ready to sleep. I was very sedated with pain medication. However, I couldn't sleep and when they measured my oxygen saturation level the reading was very low.

I decided that I wouldn't sleep that night and I started looking for movies on Netflix, while I did therapy with the three-ball stimulator, which I believe saved my life.

The next day at 6 o'clock in the morning I called the gynecologist who performed the surgery. He told me that I should go back to the emergency room and report my oxygen level. That morning my husband and I left again for the clinic. Once at the clinic, the wait in the emergency room due to the Covid peak became hard to sit and very long. The first doctor who examined me after several hours said that he did not believe the data I gave him about saturation. Hhe said that if it were true, I would have already died. I insisted on being checked out. He ordered an electrocardiogram. I was still undergoing therapy with the three-ball incentivizer as I was sitting in a wheelchair. My chest hurt.

At night they called me back to emergency care. The Covid peak left the pediatric resuscitation rooms and the children's care corridors full of stretchers with people in treatment. The nurses who admitted me arranged me on a stretcher as best they could and placed me next to two other patients. One very old and the other who was not moving. One of the nurses who was moving my stretcher said to the one who was helping him, 'Hey, I'm worried about a lady who has a heart attack outside and we haven't been able to get her in.' The other nurse pointed at me with her gaze and I knew that the non-moving lady had a heart attack.

Then, everything started to happen very quickly. The cardiologist arrived around midnight. He was an older doctor who inspired a lot of respect. He said in a very friendly way, 'We are going to check her out.' Then they asked me to call my husband. I remember that I was in front of the operating room, my husband didn't know what to say, so he gave me a kiss.

They brought me in and there were a lot of people around me in the operating room. I think two or three nurses, the cardiologist and two other assistant doctors. The silence was profound. All I could hear was the movement and rubbing of the instruments. It was a catheterization. They took my right arm, I was awake when they took my right arm and numbed my wrist. There must have been a lot of blood coming out because the nurse next to me was cleaning all the time. I decided not to watch and closed my eyes.

That was when I started to feel like I was floating about 30 centimeters from my body. I had the intention of asking aloud why I felt like I was floating. I was going to sleep, but I thought I was scaring the medical team; so I didn't say anything. It felt good to float. Then they appeared as if in a vision, my father, who had died a year ago, also my uncle and grandmother who died 2 years before. A little further away, I thought I recognized my paternal grandfather, who had died more than 10 years ago. In chorus they said to me, 'It's time!' Without hesitation I told them, 'No, I don't want to go.' I thought about my little daughter and husband. I didn't want to leave them alone.

They told me, 'Their life will be what it has to be, whether you are present or not.' I must say that I didn't understand that at that moment. It seemed to make sense to me anyway. I insisted that I didn't want to die yet. I remember a light that seemed to be made up of millions of threads of light that moved at great speed and that formed what I managed to recognize as the shape of a large torus (donut). This torus-like thing was moving behind my father, my uncle, and grandparents, who were standing side by side in front of me. I don't remember asking for time. But they told me they would give me 20 years, which seemed like a long time. They also told me to set up a pottery studio. I don't remember asking this, but it seemed like a good idea too.

The power went out, the doctor said they couldn't find any obstructions and they were going to close. They put something on my wrist that was very tight and took me to the intensive care unit. These units had been set up during the emergency, so I was actually in a room with plastic walls in a hallway of the clinic. I was alone there, as they had just opened these units. They connected me to many tubes and machines; I was not able to move by myself. Now, I had two surgeries, the hysterectomy that was extremely painful and the catheterization. I didn't know if it was day or night. There were no windows in that ICU and the medications had me a little out of control. I remember feeling like my uncle David was in the room and moving the bed. The scared nurses were asking who had moved things on my machines. I wasn't scared. I knew that David or my grandmother were there and that they were making jokes. I was very calm. Because of the pandemic, only my husband was allowed to visit. He came every day I spent in the ICU. I remember that I didn't tell him anything about what I experienced until many months later.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: July 9, 2021

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain Surgery-related Heart attack Life threatening event, but not clinical death

How do you consider the content of your experience? Both pleasant AND distressing

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I only heard the noises of the medical instruments I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness No, I don't think it was. I only communicated with another level of existence, but I didn't reach it

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? During the catheterization

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No

Were your senses More vivid than usual? No

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. It was like seeing in a dream

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I only heard the noises of the medical instruments. The messages received were perceived but not by the ears

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes My father, Gustavo Forero. Died a year before My uncle Davíd Díaz, Died two years before My maternal grandmother, Edelmira Prieto de Díaz, Died two years before My paternal grandfather. Dead a decade or more before

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? No

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes You have to count thousands of luminous threads that spin creating a large torus shape

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm My father, uncle and grandparents stood in front of the great torus-shaped light

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Peace

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? No

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a definite conscious decision to return to life At the time of my heart attack all I thought about was my 5 year old daughter, leaving her and my husband, her father, leaving them was not acceptable to me. Not yet.

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Catholic My childhood upbringing was Catholic, but I must say that since I was about 40 years old I did not practice it regularly, only sporadically and out of commitment to my family

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I no longer practice the Catholic religion at all, but I respect and venerate Mr. Jesus Christ.

What is your religion now? Other or several faiths For two years I have been following the path of Self Realization Fellowship, under the teachings of Paramahansa Yogananda

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience Since this happened 3 years ago, and I haven't written before, my memories may be confused. I really didn't expect or recognize anything from this experience that I had learned before. Everything was new, different. From the peace and calm that was felt, to the beautiful rotating shape in the background... there was nothing I had learned that could happen to me

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I searched for a new spiritual path, one that would help me keep this truth for the rest of my life.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Uncertain As he interpreted it, the great moving light is the creative force. I wouldn't know if it's God

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Uncertain Well, this message I received about setting up a pottery studio seems to be part of a purpose, but I'm not sure what it is.

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? Uncertain Well, being able to see my father and my dead relatives, seeing them healthy, seeing them well, makes me think that it is possible to live after death.

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? No

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life I would like to add many more things. A year after the heart attack I was diagnosed with thyroid cancer. I was very afraid of having another operation, so I put off the surgery as much as I could. A year later I had surgery and my thyroid was removed. They found metastasis in some lymph nodes and to this day I am in check-ups. After the heart attack everything changed in my life. I realized that for the University for which I worked so hard I was just another role and that my death would not have changed anything there... I also began to look for confirmation of what I had experienced, I took online courses on astral travel and expansion of consciousness... I paid for the MindValley membership For about six months, one day Vishen named Paramahansa Yogananda and I could not resist the temptation to look up who this Hindu monk was. I read the Autobiography of a Yogi and became a member of Self Realization Fellowship (SRF). When I had the opportunity I told an SRF monk about my near-death experience and asked him if it was real, he said yes, it surely was, that it was a recognized pattern in women with small children. I also asked him why since I had been applying the SRF meditation techniques I felt my body vibrating strongly while I slept... he answered that I had surely done other different techniques before and that the contrast of techniques could produce the vibration of my body... I have continued with this path. Last week I was in a silent retreat that was wonderful. There in the middle of the meditation I received several messages, here I want to share the first of them. Some kind of inner voice told me that my dog, named Domino, who died of cancer shortly after I had the surgery, my dog Domino had absorbed my cancer and made me understand a little that I should show more gratitude for this help. They told me more things while I was meditating, but they are already outside the near-death experience.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? I worry less about my relationships. I am less intense with my husband; I am calmer with my daughter.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience Well, I usually forget a lot of things... this experience I just need to play it in my mind like a movie and it comes back quite clearly

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Opening the ceramics workshop and having 20 years of life since then. I love ceramics, but I don't dedicate myself to it. Having these as objectives is very significant.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Not many people know. It took me three months to tell my husband, and maybe a year to tell some students who are close to me... my Catholic family doesn't know.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I doubted the reality of the experience, but when I spoke to the SRF monk I no longer doubted.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real It's like a treasure that constantly reminds me that I'm alive and that life is about being happy.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

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