Monika K Probable NDE

Experience Description

I gave birth to my daughter after a long labor. I lost a lot of blood fast, losing a total of 2.5 liters. I was rolled over to operation room, seeing darts of lights passing over my head. I remember I thought it looked like a scene in 2001 space odyssey.

In the operating room, they put me under general anesthesia. When I was unconscious, I floated out of my body and hovered above it up by the ceiling of the hospital. My mom, who was deceased, was floating beside me. I asked her, 'Is this was like being dead?' She answered, 'No, you're not dead yet honey.' And her words filled me with knowledge and purpose. I knew that I was not dead because I still had one job to do, and that was to take care of my new daughter.

I woke up and did not even remember I had given birth, until later. The nurses said the anesthesia could give me hallucinations, but I have always chosen to believe I talked to my mom for a brief moment.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 01.06.11

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes. Childbirth While under general anesthesia. Life threatening event, but not clinical death

How do you consider the content of your experience? Both pleasant AND distressing

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes. I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal. It felt light and I had the sense of knowing from within.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When I was out of my body, floating over myself.

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning.

Were your senses More vivid than usual? More vivid than usual

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I saw weird lights that were flashing around.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Same

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere, as if by ESP? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes my mother

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? No

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes flashing lights that were speeding around

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Hope and enlightens. Purpose.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Relief or calmness

Did you have a feeling of joy? No

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt no longer in conflict with nature

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about myself or others. I felt like I finally understand my place on earth and the meaning of life.

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No. My life situation was difficult because of the pregnancy and I was incredibly depressed. It all came back to me.

Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from my personal future. Me taking care of my daughter

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Unaffiliated- Nothing in particular- Secular unaffiliated

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No

What is your religion now? Unaffiliated- Nothing in particular- Secular unaffiliated

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs. You had at the time of your experience. I did not believe in seeing dead people

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Uncertain No

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? Yes I saw and talked to my dead mother

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes It's just that, a sense of knowledge.

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes hard to explained in words, an awareness about connections in life and life propagation.

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? An afterlife probably does not exist. I encountered my dead mother giving me the belief that there is more to life after death

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? Yes. It is hard to explain in words, but that same awareness feeling; explaining you why life is hard. Cannot put in to better words sorry.

During your experience, did you gain information about love? No

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Moderate changes in my life

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I cherish my loved ones more.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? I forgot to write that because of my depression. During pregnancy, I wanted to die after my daughter was born. It was my first thought, now I can just die. Then I had the experience and the few moments I had with my mother, changed everything for me. I was not going to die and now I had a purpose and a meaning for my life.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes days after. Different reactions, the thing is it was my personal experience that kind of is only meaningful to me. So I don't care what their reaction is.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes My mother almost died in similar way giving birth to me. She also had a cardiac arrest and was clinically dead for a few minutes and the spent a week in induced coma.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. I thought about it and decided it was real

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. It was explained to me that I might have hallucinate from the medicate, but I have chosen to believe that it really happened.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No