Nerise B NDE

Experience Description

I was almost 19 years old and had just given birth to my first child a couple of hours before my experience. I recall I had the urge to use the restroom and I attempted to get up from my bed without assistance. My mother and younger sister were in the room and holding the baby. When I stood up and felt an immense rush, like my water had broken, but it was blood. I saw the blood on the floor, and remember thinking, 'That's not right.'

The next thing I recall is feeling warm. I couldn't see anything but darkness. I didn't feel afraid. It was almost comfortable and cozy, like a warm hug. I couldn't hear anything. But just before I went into the darkness, I heard what I think was a nurse yelling for a crash cart.

I'm not sure how long I was in this dark and comfortable state of void, and I don't recall any events immediately after. I do remember waking up in my hospital bed, and my mother looked scared and was doting over me. Later on, over the years, she has told me she thought she had lost me forever. I don't fear dying and always remember how comforting that experience was. I knew I was okay; I didn't have a fear at all. The dark wasn't cold or scary. I have always been afraid of the dark but this wasn't that kind of dark. Following this experience, I began my journey to become a Registered Nurse and have been since the age of 23.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 05/24/2002

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain. Childbirth Other: Uterine Rupture following childbirth Uterine Rupture following childbirth. Pre-eclampsia during pregnancy, placental separation causing induction at 36 weeks.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I heard a nurse yell for a crash cart. That's it. After which I felt totally disconnected and as if I was perhaps floating, but not the sensation of floating. Perhaps just being but not heavy, like air. I lost awareness of my body

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Less consciousness and alertness than normal I was aware, but didn't have a thought, care or fear. I just remember feeling like I was being taken care of, that I was okay.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Just prior, my ears rang and then it was like I went through something tk where I couldn't hear or see anything

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning Time was still, it didn't exist. No sense of time.

Were your senses More vivid than usual? More vivid than usual

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. It was void, no visions, but comfortable. I am not blind, so not seeing typically causes distress.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. It was tunneled. Ringing then sounds were muffled, then nothing. Literally nothing.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere, as if by ESP? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain The experience was more of the sounds but not the vision part. It sounded like I was heading away but it was just me, and this pleasant peaceful void.

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? No

Did you see an unearthly light? No

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm. I was in a place without stress, without fears. It was a darkness but I knew I was with love. It was void of anything, no sounds no lights, nobody, but it was full of love and comfort

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Comfort and peace. Calmness.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt no longer in conflict with nature

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Other Christian Non-denominational, raised with Jehovah's witness and Baptist background

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No

What is your religion now? Christian- Other Christian Remain nondenominational

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience I was a child, but have always been conflicted with the spirit realm. I still am, despite this experience, but I know God Jehovah exists.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes Increased faith and knowing that God exists

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? Yes I knew I was me. And only me is me. No other life preceded me.

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes I felt I was with God the Creator, he had me protected and I was his child. It was an innate feeling, I just knew.

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes I felt like God was there. Surrounding me, I felt love and peace.

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Uncertain Unsure, I felt special, and anointed to do something during my earthly existence

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? I am uncertain if an afterlife exists Uncertain I'm not sure, if the void is just a place to stay for the earthly body to heal.

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? Yes Be at peace, need not worry, a task is given to those who are called to do it and that task will be done with the help of God.

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? Yes I felt I was okay; I was going to be okay and I need not worry.

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes I felt love. I was in the void but it was love surrounding me. Peace and comfort surrounded me.

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? No changes in my life I feel that I have been called upon to do God's work, to bless others and provide comfort and to lead. I have been placed in many circumstances that one couldn't imagine and have been in a leadership role during them. Such as an explosion near a nursing home, Covid-19 outbreak among one of the first nursing homes in the country and my state, merely immediate family tragedies (murder, drug overdoses and tragic deaths)

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes To describe the depth of peace and lack of stimulation. There wasn't a light, voice or anything. More of a knowing. Ongoing I was just fine, knowing I had nothing to fear

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Yes a knowing. Knowing I am loved, knowing I am protected, knowing I am special.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? No

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was probably real Unsure; I was busy with my newborn but remember knowing something special happened

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. After hearing others experiences, I know it was real.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? Unsure, this is the first time sharing