Nicole D NDE

Experience Description

When I had my NDE, I did not remember what had happened until much later after I woke up. Physically I passed out and my pulse stopped. My boyfriend, at the time, found me on the floor of his house after coming home. Because he was a firefighter, he started giving me lifesaving care and then I was brought to a hospital. After waking in a hospital hours later, I have never felt more alone or depressed thinking, 'Here we go again. When will this ever stop?'

Days or weeks later during meditation, I felt like I experienced a tremendous download and I remembered what happened clearly. I remember being under what seemed like a street lamp emitting this tremendous energy except it was different than light. It was so shiny but not bright; it is hard to explain. Then it felt as if time stopped. This was a relief because to me because I always viewed time as my enemy. I realized at that moment, Mondays and bills would no longer come. Everything just stopped and I was in the driver’s seat. Then instead of everything disintegrating with time, everything just started to regenerate, get new life, and get more beautiful - it just took my breathe away. I remember laughing at myself for taking everything so seriously. I realized that I chose to come here to earth, but instead of making it a good place to come and learn, I made it into a Hell. I then felt that a shift was happening. It felt like I had somewhat of a new perspective, and everything was one. I felt like all Beings, both physical and non-physical, were all present except that the physical Being didn’t know it.

At that moment, I realized that if I didn’t come back, my daughter's path would be more difficult. I couldn’t accept that her life would be more difficult because of my passing. I could have stayed and really would have because it felt like bliss. So, I chose to come back for her sake. I also felt like I had unfinished business. I started freaking out and started thinking negatively again but then saw that the light was absorbing the negative energy. The light was letting me know everything would be o.k., that it was always o.k., and that it’s my life. This is just the waiting room for something better that I chose to come to, to either visit or learn or prepare for the next level. I'm not sure which.

Ever since this experience happened, I felt like an alien. It is like I know there are certain secrets and I want everyone else to know. Yet, I don’t know how to get them to feel it or understand it. I want everyone to know this, to know that we are eternal and part of the source energy. Also, since this experience, I started being pulled to spiritual things and researching it. I found people on YouTube such as Abraham Hicks. I started meditating right afterwards, which I never did before.

I explain it in my Facebook video post which is only 15 min long

https://www.facebook.com/nicole.carr.714/videos/10100795931139732/?d=n


Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 4/3/2016

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? No. Accident Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function)

How do you consider the content of your experience? Both pleasant AND distressing

Did you feel separated from your body? No I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal. Yes it was clear

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? At the end

Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No

Were your senses More vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Enhanced

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Same

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere, as if by ESP? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? An unusually bright light

Did you see an unearthly light? No

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Happiness and peace

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Relief or calmness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back to you? I remembered many past events

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a definite conscious decision to return to life. I made a decision to come back

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Other faiths- New age

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No

What is your religion now? Other faiths- New age

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience. Peaceful

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I was at peace

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? An afterlife definitely exists

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? No

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Unknown. I became aware of the bad things in life

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes. It was more real

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience. I remember being at peace

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes Energy healing

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Yes I decided to come back for some reason

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes 1 year

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. 2 weeks

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. In a good way

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? No

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? Nine