Nigel O NDE

Experience Description 9032 (Submitted 7/18/2020):

I was calm and without any pain. I knew I was dying and it did not seem to be of any importance to me. As I was preparing to leave my body, my life was 'rolled out' for me to view. I was disappointed at how little I had accomplished. Then I became aware of a presence who said telepathically, 'You have done enough; you can come over.' I became aware of a feeling of comfort, calm and a beautiful peace within a soft yellow/gold backdrop. I had no feeling for any of my children, family or friends because I realized how short in Cosmic terms that Life is and that we would all be together in a moment. As we discussed my Life, I felt guilt that I had not provided security for my Wife and could not leave her without addressing her future security. I told 'God' that I had to return even if I had now fulfilled whatever it was I was meant to have done. I had the insight that we are all here to allow souls to experience 'life,' however painful or rewarding, bland or stunning the soul's existence. The existence was so perfect as to be meaningless without feeling Life through others. I now knew what peace really is. I was told that I could go back and fulfill my job, cause or mission. However, I would be returning back to the souls at some point in the future and without warning.

My heart rate came down slowly. My sight returned three days later. I was taught to walk and talk again over several months. My brain seems to have 'rewired' itself as my wife reminds me that I am not the same person because I am no longer funny and am reclusive. I am now self-contained; neither happy or sad, just balanced and very much better at understanding complex concepts in any field. As I am semi-retired, this ability seems to serve no purpose. I am fulfilling my commitments, have some lasting physical damage, but nothing seems to bother me anymore.

Thank you for letting me write my story. This is the second time I have had an NDE, the first one at nine years old as told below. This may account for how this experience unfolded. I do not have, and I doubt there exists, any vocabulary that can describe the feelings, the 'Presence,' or the place. This note is crude compared to the reality of passing over. I felt a profound sense of loss for leaving the 'place' and having to return to this life. This feeling is with me all day and every day. I will fulfill my bargain and when it is my 'time' again I will pass over. At that time, I will willingly stay.

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date NDE Occurred: June 29, 2015

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Stroke (3 in 24 hours) Life threatening event, but not clinical death. My heart rate was out of control with BPM over 200+. My body systems had started to shut down. There was no movement, sight, or speech. I only had hearing. The Consultant requested my wife return to the Hospital as it was unlikely I would last another hour.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Neither pleasant NOR distressing

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes Two Male (foreign) Nurses were betting on if one could keep me alive and the other that I would not make it through the night. I lost awareness of my body

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal. Far beyond.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I was taken into Hospital at 6.25am (in June) so it would have been after 11pm and into the following day.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning. Time ceased to exist, as it only matters on Earth.

Were your senses More vivid than usual? More vivid than usual

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. No vision (lost)

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Hearing the same

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere, as if by ESP? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? I sensed their presence

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes It was a 'repository' for every Soul that has ever been, none of which will ever cease to exist.

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes A 'glow' in a color that was like a washed yellow or soft gold.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm. No more detail than a 'light'

What emotions did you feel during the experience? None except total calm.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe. I felt at one and as if I had returned to where I belonged.

Did scenes from your past come back to you? I remembered many past events. This time I 'lived' my life again.

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a definite conscious decision to return to life. I asked to be allowed to return and this was allowed.

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Unaffiliated- Nothing in particular- Religious unaffiliated

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No

What is your religion now? Unaffiliated- Nothing in particular- Religious unaffiliated

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I heard a voice I could not identify. It was my voice in my head that was telepathically discussing with another 'feeling'.

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I sensed their presence

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? Yes We are all 'God' and have always existed as a question it can only be 'felt' as an answer.

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes As above

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes 'God' is all the Souls combined therefore the sum total of everything experienced as a whole is 'God'.

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? An afterlife definitely exists

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? No

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Slight changes in my life

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes No vocabulary can describe the 'feeling and presence' of place and awareness.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience as accurately as other life events that occurred around the time of the experience

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes one year, understood as much as they can.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes for this NDE (no for the NDE when I was 9 years old. 7098)

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes this NDE: No for 7098

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Uncertain It is not possible to 'feel' the answer to this question. However as far as possible, I have addressed it as accurately as I can.

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? It is as comprehensive as it is possible to be within the confines of the subject.



Experience Description 7098 (Submitted 1/31/2014):

I saw a light and started to walk towards it, I became aware I was in, what felt like a very large ‘tunnel’ and I was moving up an incline within it. At an undetermined point within the ‘tunnel’, I stopped. I heard inside my head a voice that was neither male nor female. The voice sounded soft and kind said, ‘Hello Nigel don’t be afraid you have had an accident, it is not your time, you have to go back.’ I said I did not want to, as it hurt too much and I wanted to stay here. We were almost involved in an argument. The voice told me I had no choice in the matter and I was going back as I had ‘things to do’. I presume I heard in the form of language I used at the time as a nine-year-old boy.

I came to, in great pain as I started to grab small breaths, then I could breathe normally. It felt liked my lungs popped open. Luckily nothing was broken, my right arm felt dead because of the fall. I walked up to the house, told my Mother I fell out a tree and I was alright, went upstairs and cleaned up, had my tea and never said a word to her about this experience.

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date NDE Occurred: May 1959

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes. Acciden. Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function) Having fallen onto my back, out of the tree, I stopped breathing and could not get air into my lungs. I was in great pain and felt very cold, I presume I passed out.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

The experience included: Out of body experience

Did you feel separated from your body? No I lost awareness of my body

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When I was ‘discussing’ staying with the ‘voice’, I did not feel like a nine year old boy, I felt as lucid as I am now, in total control with something to say and a point of view to be heard.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning Time did not have a place in the ‘discussion’ and only became ‘real’ again when I came back.

Were your senses more vivid than usual? More vivid than usual

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I had and still have excellent vision the experience changed nothing.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Age and trap shooting alone, have reduced my hearing, the experience changed nothing.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

The experience included: Tunnel

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes As described before

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

The experience included: Unearthly light

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? An unusually bright light

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes As described before

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm I was in a tunnel without being in any ‘place’ it was just me in a tunnel in another realm talking to a Voice.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Calm, comfort, well-being, alert and a total feeling of peace.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about myself or others I felt ‘part of everything’ that existed and yet I felt I was without a ‘form’.

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

The experience included: Boundary

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will I did NOT want to return.

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Not important to me

What was your religion prior to your experience? Unaffiliated- Nothing in particular- Religious unaffiliated

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No

What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Not important to me

What is your religion now? Unaffiliated- Nothing in particular- Religious unaffiliated

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience I had not hard and fast beliefs about anything

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I have never been as happy or contented as when I was ‘dead-ish’!!

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I heard a voice I could not identify I felt I ‘knew’ the voice, as it did not alarm me and even put me at ease, however it had an authority that made me take notice and accept what it said.

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes As described before

Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? Unknown

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No

Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? Unknown

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are probably meaningful and significant

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? Unknown

Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists Yes I know that life is not here, this is living as a part of mankind,the mind and "essence" of being are after this "living"

Did you fear death prior to your experience? Unknown

Do you fear death after your experience? I do not fear death

Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life

Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are probably meaningful and significant

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are possibly meaningful and significant

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No Only I had to go back to do "somthing" which was not explained, so I will never know if I have "done it" or have yet encounter "it"?

Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others

During your experience, did you gain information about love? No

Were you compassionate after your experience? Moderately compassionate toward others

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Slight changes in my life Slight changes in my life. I have no feeling for a ‘religious life’, I would not refer to my experience as ‘spiritual’, and it was far greater than a label and far too important to be neatly boxed up as either.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Uncertain Uncertain I seemed to grow up a little distant and very self-contained; I want few people around me: yet everyone wants to be part of me! I enjoy being in my own company: fly fishing, walking my dogs in the country and sometimes I drive off and sit and look at and be part of the sea, it’s almost as if I am compelled to do so.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes I, until now, have never written or tried to express this situation to a third party, I told my wife twenty years into our relationship, when the subject came up on a TV program. The light, the feeling of comfort and a sense of joy, the whole ‘place’ was unlike anything I have ever encountered; sadly my command of English will never do justice to the experience.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience as accurately as other life events that occurred around the time of the experience

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? I know who I am: I do not greatly impress me. However, I know that whatever I do is, in part, already decided. If I had no say in staying as the ‘voice’ sent me back. Then it follows I have had little say in my how my future will unfold, that said I enjoy life for what it is.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I was nine when it happened and fifty plus when I first spoke about it.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real It frightened me and yet changed how I viewed the world.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real I am pleased it happened to me. I feel sad for those who cannot ‘know’ that it will all be okay when they leave here.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? I would wish that everyone could have the experience without the pain, maybe they would take more care of each other whilst they are here, and save a shed load of money and life fighting wars which will never matter, building companies that have little point and creating a society that has many meaningless values. I am not a Hippy, but from my eyes, it is plain stupid! Here only matter's whilst you are here! Enjoy a life, why make it hard work when there is no need. I think if Hell were described without religion or fear it is right here, right now.