Pamela H NDE

Experience Description

That day I was going to my boyfriend's friend's house. It was late in the evening and I remember getting into the car and lying my head on his shoulder. Seat belts weren't required, so I was able to sit in the middle of the seat as we drove home. We were coming around a sharp curve and he had lost control of the car. I didn't realize he had taken drugs earlier, so his driving was impaired. We were headed over a very high cliff without trees. But, instead of going over that cliff, the car slammed head long into a huge tree that just suddenly appeared. It confounded the people that lived across the street from where the accident happened. They swore up and down there had never been a tree there.

The next thing I remember, I felt the crash, but yet, I didn't feel the crash. I was standing above my body hearing my boyfriend cry out, 'She's not dead! She's Not Dead!' I saw the ambulance driver zip me up in the black bag as he pronounced me dead. David continued screaming, 'She's not dead! She can't be dead!'

Then, I saw the brightest light. It is hard to describe because I've never seen it here on earth. The light did not hurt my eyes. I was overwhelmed as I felt in my soul what I had missed. I wanted to know peace and joy. My life had been chaos and I was living in such pain; emotionally, spiritually, and physically. I knew the only place I could get that peace and joy was with God, but I was still trying to discover exactly how to go after it. I remember standing there and I could hear music. I could hear the angels singing and praising God. I started to go towards them and then I felt a very loving hand touch my shoulders. I heard a Voice telling me that I had to come back snf that my purpose wasn't fulfilled. I remember saying, 'I don't want to go back! I want to stay. Please let me stay.' I tried to go back towards that beautiful, brilliant light and again the hand touched my shoulder. Again, the Voice said, 'Your time is not up yet. You have to go back.'

The next thing I remember is three days later when I woke up from a coma. The doctors could not understand how I live through that car wreck, without sustaining any injuries. Yet, I died.

I tried to tell my story, but at the time nobody wanted to hear it. I know what I saw. I felt that I was in the place we go when we die. I can't wait to go home, but until then, I will serve My Father Here.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 1977-78

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Accident Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function) When this happened I was coming home with my boyfriend at the time he was driving no seat belts. He drove off a cliff.

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I really can't remember. I have flashes but I'm not sure all the memories have surfaced yet. But I know that the experience happened. I know that I died and went to heaven. I also know that I saw the EMTs zip up the bag and I heard David screaming that I wasn't dead. I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal. I believe I was given an opportunity to go either way. I Heard a Voice saying, 'You have a choice, choose life.' I believe when I saw heaven, that deep in my soul/spirit, that is what I wanted. I wanted to go back home because I am a child of God. I am one of his elect

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? The height of my alertness was when I entered into the peaceful kingdom of God

Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning. As I said from the time that I heard them zip the bag up to the time I saw the brilliant light, it seemed like eternity but yet it seemed to happen in less than a blink of an eye

Were your senses More vivid than usual? More vivid than usual

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I'm not sure on this question. I know that I always believed heaven to be a beautiful, peaceful place where our father lives and that we will go back to. I really didn't talk about it. I thought it might have been a dream. I didn't talk about it for years. I finally told my mom. She has strong faith and she's now with the Lord. She told me that God was giving me a great gift by showing me what I could have

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. After this experience, if I had chosen correctly, I would have had better hearing of my Lord that he never gave up on me. I can hear my Lord's voice but at the time I really didn't know it but I knew that I was drawn to it

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere, as if by ESP? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain I'm not sure if it was a tunnel. I know there was a space between watching them zip the bag up on my body and the time that I saw the greatest light that one could ever imagine. It was silent for a second.

Did you see any beings in your experience? I sensed their presence

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes Again the light I saw was brighter than anything I could ever describe on Earth yet it did not hurt my eyes it wasn't inviting loving peaceful kind of light that was brilliant glowed it shined it was breathtaking there's no way to describe the beauty

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm. Around me was not of this world. It was a spiritual world; it was God's Kingdom. There was no earthly anything there because it was all spiritual - the angels and our Lord Our Father

What emotions did you feel during the experience? The emotions I felt or peace so much deep loving peace, love, and joy. I felt emotions that I still can't find words for, that are so beautiful. I never felt this much peace in all my earthly life and that's what I yearn for is that feeling of peace that is indescribable

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt no longer in conflict with nature

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No I think the only experience is the word choice you have a choice this is what will happen if you take this road and this is what will happen if you take this road

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will. I did not want to come back. I wanted to stay with that piece and that loved that I was overwhelmingly filled with I asked not to come back but I was told that my purpose wasn't for failed that I had to

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Protestant I was saved when I was seven or eight knowingly with the help of Oral Roberts I pay Philly would walk to church in the rain and flood just to hear God's word I was drawn to him immensely around the age of 16 I did still have the love of God but I wasn't following his word as I should have been but I was always a Christian and always believed I wasn't taught as well as I am now

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I search for God even more

What is your religion now? Select

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience During my time never my experience my life was really bad if I looked at it from a human's point of view everything was going wrong I was still making them choices I didn't think that I was anybody cuz I grew up believing that I would amount to nothing that I was a nobody when I went to heaven got a shared me I was somebody and that I had a purpose to serve him

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes Although I think it took longer than it should have my values and perspective changed because I see I have seen what is real and what is true so that's what I strive for regardless of what the world tries to keep doing to me I know there's a better answer a better way and I tried to live it every second of the day

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin When the hand touched my shoulder it was from the right side I remember turning to my right and seeing a beautiful bright figure it was a light of sort but I could see a figure a robe and I can feel the hand on my shoulder I can hear loving voice

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I sensed their presence

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Uncertain My purpose wasn't for filled I needed to come back to for fill it and the one thing that I just remember is but the spiritual World God's kingdom does exist and it's connected to this one or second world age which would lead us into the third and final world age were having comes back and got sets his kingdom up here

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes God is God he exists he was the bright light that I can't describe in the love and the warmth in the piece that was drawing me to him

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? An afterlife definitely exists Yes My experience with being showed what I always knew was real heaven and I have the since that I need to share them to let people know that there really is a heaven because I saw it

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? No

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life My desire to know God increased immensely and still does to this day

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes There is no way to describe the beauty that I saw it was magnificent and peaceful and bright and glorious and the music was overwhelming it filled your spirit and made you want to rejoice and praise God and be in his arms it drew you near you don't want to leave it but to describe heaven there are no words in my vocabulary that can compare to such beauty that I saw

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience as accurately as other life events that occurred around the time of the experience

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain Overly sensitive to others, i xan feel their pain

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? But I got out of my experience which I'm still I think learning from because I have not talked about it I really thought about it much until recently it's a desire to be with God to do good

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes When this happened I remember telling my mom she thinks I I think I remember her thinking it was a dream Maybe are saying God was showing me I could go to heaven if I do good she was a positive person and a few other people between then and now that I have tried to tell blew me off look at me like I was crazy and even when I tried to give a testimony how to pair a church once I wanted to share my experience in my sight of Heaven in the feelings that I had were rejected for a while I felt like maybe I was crazy that it maybe it was a dream but in my spirit I know it wasn't I was there I'd I'd clinically died they said three to four minutes I was in heaven I know it's real and nobody no matter what they say or how they treat me could ever change my mind

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real As a choice i can have it if i so choose

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was probably real

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No