Paula A NDE

Experience Description

I was floating in darkness with the awareness that I was not alone. I heard unearthly, robot-like voices, that were announcing human events. Then I was in a very bright room with people I recognized, but did not know who they were. A red dragon moved slowly past. It wasn't frightening; it was beautiful. The sky seemed to rip open and I saw a landscape unfold before me. The scene was beautiful and shining brightly gold. It seemed to manifest as I was watching.

Then I was taken to a place that looked like a mountain meadow. I was able to zoom into an almost microscopic level. Each spot I chose to zoom into was a memory. I relived the memories from the perspective of every person impacted by my actions; not only those directly involved. I also relived memories from people who were affected indirectly by my actions, who were impacted by their involvement with those directly impacted by my actions. It was made clear to me that what was important was not my actions, but how my actions made others feel.

The things I expected to be punished for were not a big deal because there was no judgment. However, my tiniest actions and their impact on others was important. I remembered commenting to a younger woman that she looked beautiful. That simple act had changed her entire day. I witnessed that leaving a negative review for a product that had few reviews had left the entrepreneur who launched the product very angry. His anger impacted his family. The loss of sales had a serious impact on the finances of his entire young family.

I could feel entities around me. I somehow knew they were ancestors but not specifically who was there. I could feel my son's spirit. He passed 6 months before I attempted suicide and was the main reason I wanted to die. I was not allowed to see him because if I saw him, I would have chosen to stay there and not return to my life. But I could feel him near. I had the distinct feeling or knowing I had a choice. It wasn't vocalized to me, but I knew. I don't remember returning to my body but I regained consciousness.

The emergency room doctors who had saved me, visited me a couple of days later. One of them told me that I had chosen an impossible drug to reverse the physical effects and that I should never have survived. She was in tears when she told me they tried everything. I told her that I wasn't planning to survive. I had planned my suicide from the day my son died and I had planned it perfectly. Something more powerful than me did not want me dead.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 9/22/2024

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain Suicide attempt. Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function) I was found dead and then revived. Then I died again in the ambulance at least twice at the hospital. My family was told I would not survive the night. Then they were told my organs had all shut down. Then one by one, my organs came back online. My family was told I would be on dialysis and likely brain damaged and would lose my arms and legs. Then when that didn't happen, they were told to expect several months of physical rehabilitation in the hospital with limited recovery. I was in a coma for two weeks and fully recovered and released one week later.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

Did you feel separated from your body? No I lost awareness of my body

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal. There are no words. I just knew it to be true. I somehow felt that I knew everything there was to know.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When the sky ripped open and the landscape of gold manifested. I was also very conscious and alert during the meadow of memories.

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning. Time didn't exist

Were your senses More vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Microscopic clarity.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I don't remember hearing much. Most things communicated through a knowing. The only hearing I remember was the robotic voice while floating in the darkness.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? I sensed their presence

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes Ancestors as well as my father in law (who despised me) and my recently deceased mother.

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Uncertain The gold was very bright, but not like a bright light. The room with the red dragon was as if surrounded by a bright light

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm A gold landscape opened before my eyes.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Peace

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt no longer in conflict with nature

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe I don't know what I knew or how I knew it. I just felt like I knew everything.

Did scenes from your past come back to you? I remembered many past events. I was given the opportunity to see how my actions had impacted others from their point of view

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Unaffiliated- Nothing in particular- Religious unaffiliated. Culturally Christian but not a big believer nor denier.

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I have absolutely certainty that there is far more beyond this limited realm.

What is your religion now? Other faiths- New age I have become very spiritual

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience. I have read and listened to NDEs of others. Some things were consistent, but many were not.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I am eager to go back and be dead. But no longer suicidal.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I sensed their presence

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? Yes Experiencing the repercussions of my actions through the eyes of those impacted.

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes I knew everyone. We were all connected. That feeling or perception has lasted for months now. Every face I see I have the distinct feeling I knew that person before. I have stopped asking strangers how I know them because everyone thinks I am insane. But EVERY face is now familiar.

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? Uncertain Nothing told me life after death exists, but it was very clear that it does.

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? No

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life I now believe that death and life are not black and white, but rather a spectrum. The veil is thin for me now.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes There are no words in English that can describe what happened or how it felt. Everything I say out loud is inadequate and sounds dumb.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience. Vivid memory

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain I feel like the veil is thin. I don't know how to explain what's happening

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? I now realize there is no judgment. And I have nothing to lose by being as real and honest as I want to be.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Mixed reactions. I have lost any concern for what others think of me. I am my true self now.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes Books and videos, especially following the loss of my child.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. I just know. I was there.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. I was there. My feelings haven't changed

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

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