Experience Description

I had a 105 fever for three days. It was the Flu. I had been sick for a long time and just asked God if it was his will to take me. I said, 'into your hands I commend my spirit'. I had a wall clock in my bedroom it stopped and so it seemed did my breathing. I had a feeling for a brief time of numbness.

There was a feeling of lonesomeness and the room seemed to fill with a fog. It was then I had a feeling of floating and like a fainting feeling. In a flash, I was not in my bed any longer. Looking up, I saw the clouds. Then I looked back to see my person body lying there on the bed. I could feel uplift and no longer felt the weight of this world. I was free and now flying into the clouds. There was no more pain, no more anything of this earth. Looking ahead, I was going higher and then there was a bright warm light, so bright but full of love. There was no fear at all. I came to a stop. Suddenly, from no place at all, there was a voice. It was a warm and soft voice that said, 'You have to go back, it is not your time you have things to finish that are not done!'

BOOM I began to fall like on a roller coaster. I could feel weight coming back, fear, and anger all at the same time. Then there was numbness. I could hear the clock ticking again. I opened my eyes and I was back in my bed and the fever was gone: it was as if I was never sick.

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date NDE Occurred: 1979

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain Illness. Life threatening event, but not clinical death

How do you consider the content of your experience? Both pleasant AND distressing

The experience included: Out of body experience

Did you feel separated from your body? No I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal It was just so clear, what I saw was vivid!

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Before and after

Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. There is no need to say when it is clear even now.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. It was like any other day but more clear; there was no question just peace.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

The experience included: Unearthly light

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? An unusually bright light

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes It was so bright you could feel warmth from it.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No

The experience included: Strong emotional tone

What emotions did you feel during the experience? I felt peace and calm beyond this earth.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about myself or others There was just a sense of ultimate peace there.

The experience included: Life review

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:


What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Moderately important to me

What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Catholic I asked God to Take me!

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No

What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Moderately important to me

What is your religion now? Christian- Catholic

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience I had a feeling of fulfillment.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No

The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin I heard only a voice that said, 'You have to go back your work is not done there'!

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? Uncertain Only that I had to return and I was so mad!

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No

Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? God definitely exists

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No

Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? God definitely exists

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:


During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Uncertain Only that we have nothing to fear in death, we are taken care of there. There is peace like nothing we can have here.

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are probably meaningful and significant

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? An afterlife definitely exists

Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists No

Did you fear death prior to your experience? I moderately feared death

Do you fear death after your experience? I do not fear death

Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life

Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are probably meaningful and significant

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are meaningful and significant

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others

During your experience, did you gain information about love? No

Were you compassionate after your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Moderate changes in my life Moderate changes in my life.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No No

After the NDE:


Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience as accurately as other life events that occurred around the time of the experience Clear like it happened a moment ago.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I can feel when it is time for close friends to pass and sometimes I am able to see them. It seems I need a connection to the event, I find that distance is not a factor. I just know! I will say this also, I laid hands on a lady with cancer and her cancer was gone. There are or have been a few healings because I had been there and was asked to try in God's name.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes A few weeks and I thought people would think I was nuts.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I know what happened to me was real in that even to this day I can look back clearly and feel the peace for this event.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real It was a clear message to let me know life has a focus.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No