Peter J NDE

Experience Description:

Once I was lifeless on the ground, after a fall, my neighbors and parents came near to check how I was. My mother came beside me and kissed me crying. IN THAT MOMENT, I saw myself, my mother, and the rest of the people beside me. I floated above them.

I find myself in a tunnel and the end of the tunnel with a whitish and blinding light is at my left. Suddenly a person approaches that exit and encourages me to go towards it. The person does not talk to me but it is like if he did. At the right hand side, there is an abysmal darkness; I am afraid but decide to go towards it. The person in the light is restless, nervous and tells me that he cannot help me over there, to turn back immediately.

I did not pay attention at first and continued going towards the abysmal darkness; the tunnel grew smaller and smaller and the light could not be seen but I continued going forward on my knees until I feel the presence of someone or something. I am restless, disconcert, UNHAPPY, and there is an increasing stench and the air seems to be heavy. I decide to return but there is not enough space to turn back so I start going backwards on my knees. Before the tunnel allowed me to advance but now, it seemed to have weeds and branches but I continued going backwards and I was so afraid that I started to pray aloud.

After I reached a wider zone of the tunnel, I turned around and saw the light, very small. I continued praying. When I finally could stand up I started to run; I was now near the light and did not see the person that was guiding me at the beginning, there was no one. When I reached the light I was HAPPY, comfortable and then far away I saw the person, that greeted me first, saying good bye; the person was happy and joyful and so was I. The person made me understand that I was to stay there and not to go towards him or towards the darkness.

My experience ends here. Afterwards I awoke in the Intensive care unit.

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date NDE Occurred: February 1990

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? No. Accident Suicide attempt 'Life threatening event, but not clinical death' I fell down from the fourth floor. I do not have any physical impediment as a result from the fall. I was unconscious for 11 hours.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Frightening

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal It was because the person that wanted to guide me did not spoke to me. It was really like if I heard this person inside my brain and in my own thoughts.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When I was in the tunnel it was like if I had 100% consciousness.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Time seemed to go faster than usual For me it was a few seconds, everything developed very quickly except when I was inside the Light where time seemed not to pass.

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more so

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I saw everything in white and black and shades of gray.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Neither

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes The tunnel had a part that conducts you to the CELESTIAL LIGHT and another one that conducts you to the Absolute Darkness. The part that goes to the darkness narrows as you advance. There are branches and weeds that exercise a lot of resistance if you want to return to the LIGHT.

Did you see any beings in your experience? Neither

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Uncertain just saw one single being. It could be my grandmother but I do not know, as of yet.

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes The Celestial Light of an incredible brightness. It transmits much peace and happiness.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? Clearly mystical or unearthly realm

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Even though I felt INTERNAL PEACE AND HAPPINESS at the end, I can say it was worse than a nightmare. It was fearful and bad because most of the experience I was UNHAPPY. I felt anguish, fear, and soul pain.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Relief or calmness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? Neither

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe

Did scenes from your past come back to you? Neither Everyone that does evil things against neighbors or against God really is doing evil against oneself. It is enough if you repent and believe in HIM; all will be forgiven.

Did scenes from the future come to you? Neither

Did you come to a border or point of no return? A barrier I was not permitted to cross; or 'sent back' to life involuntarily

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal 'Más bien la definiría como ateismo y en contra de la fe cristiana, la iglesia y Jesucristo.'

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I have given a 180º turn in my religious life and in my relation with other people. I am now a much better person than before.

What is your religion now? Moderate 'Creo en Dios Padre todopoderoso Creador del Cielo y de la Tierra, Creo en Jesucristo su único hijo, Nuestro Señor....., Soy catolico apostolico romanico prácticante.'

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I have given a 180º turn in my religious life and in my relation with other people. I am now a much better person than before.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? Definite being, or voice clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? Neither

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Uncertain At first I think I did not have any idea of what had happened to me. But after the years and talking to people, I think that my experience was about what happens when people decide not to enter the Light, what they will find and feel.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes When I am restless or have an spontaneous stress feeling I know that something is going to happen and usually the event is not good, there are deaths most of the time. Then with an incredible precision, I can tell what is going to happen.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes People jokingly call me 'Shaman'. When I tell them what I think will happen and due to the fact that generally they are related to deaths, people get very scared.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real Experience was definitely real and has taught me a lot in regards as to how we human beings should behave towards ourselves and others.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? nothing