Rahmaan NDE

Experience Description

My NDE happened 9 years ago. I was a proud atheist and didn't believe in anything. I looked at the world through materialistic glasses.

One morning, I was walking to my work. The sole of my shoes had become very worn and flat. I continued to ignore the occasional slippage that occurred. That morning, I was very late for work and was hurriedly walking. I suddenly slipped. This time, I fell and my back and hit the ground. My right ribs hit the concrete on the edge of the sidewalk. I felt a lot of pain and went into shock. I realized that I couldn't breath anymore. I felt fear and was worried. A few of the local shop owners and a taxi driver rushed to help me get up off the ground, but I couldn't do it. I passed out.

The next moment, I found myself standing on the sidewalk. I saw a man lying down on the ground with several people gathered around him. I had no feelings about this person and went closer to see what was happening. A taxi driver had taken his hand to help him get up. I went closer to look at his face, but suddenly a man from behind tapped on my back to get my attention. I turned to him. He was normal-looking and wore black clothes. He told me to follow him. I didn't ask why. I was not feeling anything as I followed him.

We walked a while, reached the end of the street, and entered an alley. The alley looked very long and empty. The further we went into the alley, the emptier it became. Gradually I started to feel fear. I asked the man, 'Why is this alley so empty and narrow?' But he didn't respond. I asked him again, and this time he said:

'I want to show you something very important, come with me. We don't have much time!'

We walked for some time and I started to feel very tired. My feet and legs were in pain from all the walking. I told him again that this alley is very long and it seems nobody is living here. He said,

'That is not the case. You will see for yourself.'

We went further and I started to see a few people who were smirking. As we walked more, their number gradually increased. At first, I thought they were laughing at something unrelated to me. But the further we went, the more I became certain that they were sneering and laughing at me. A feeling of terror encompassed my whole being. I asked him,

'Who are you? What do you want to show me?'

The guy with black dress laughed and told me, 'You are very naive!'

I said, 'I trusted you but you wasted my time. I came all this way with you, and this is what you wanted to show me?"

I was so tired, I couldn't walk any more. As soon as I told him, 'I don't trust you,' he started walking away from me. His friends followed him and everyone started to leave. Then I was feeling so lonely in that empty alley. I couldn't walk and there was no energy left in me. Fear had filled my whole being. I said, 'Wait, please don't leave me alone! I cannot walk anymore.'

But they ignored me and one by one were leaving that place. I screamed at them saying, 'You are making fun of me! I cannot walk anymore, please help me!' They continued smirking and ridiculing me some more while still walking away. I had a bad feeling. I felt they had stood me up and their laughter made it more like torture. Suddenly, I realized that it was impossible for me to walk at all. I was trapped and alone in that narrow, long alley. I was feeling very weak. I needed help, but there was no one there to help me. I was screaming loudly and begging for help while lying on the ground. I laid my head on the ground and continued crying for help.

Suddenly, I remembered God. But I didn't believe in God and was very stubborn about my non-belief. I had my own scientific reasons for denying God's existence. How could I ask Him for help when I was certain that He does not exist? Then, I heard a voice:

'Ask me and I will help you!'

This voice was so vivid and clear that it is still in my ears. But my pride did not let me ask for help. The voice got louder:

'I am yourself! Ask me and I will help you.'

Again I thought, how could I ask for help from someone that I didn't believe exists? For someone who does not believe in God, asking for Help from him is like asking for help from a wall while you know it cannot help you. I spent some time in pain and frustration. I had become like a piece of meat with no ability to move. I was crying and had no hope for my situation to get better. I was feeling lonely and felt that I had been badlyconned.

The voice told me, for the third time, to ask Him for help. Out of desperation and necessity, I decided to ask for help from God. Suddenly, it was like there was a powerful heater there. Something gave me warmth and energy. I started to feel better. I turned my head to left and saw a light with a lot of warmth that was giving me a lot of energy. All my leg pain disappeared and I could stand again. I was feeling that Light has healed me and given me energy. I went closer to see Him. The Light was made of many small particles that had come together beautifully. Each particle of light was like a prism made of multiple colors. I could see three colors of blue, green and yellow in it.

This light was so majestic that the first I saw Him, I felt so small in his presence. I felt that His nature is higher than me. I felt that He loves me with all His existence and now I was falling in love with Him too. The Light asked me if I fear Him. I replied,

'No, not at all. You are so beautiful! But I don't know who are you!'

The Light replied, "It is not important at all [what you call me]. You can call me your guide.'

I asked, 'Guide for what?'

He said: 'I am your guide in this world.'

I don't know why I didn't think for a second that I was dead. I was feeling shocked and was just beginning to understand what had happened. I realized that the man I had seen lying down on the sidewalk was my own body. But there was no fear from this realization. It was just a nudge so I could understand what had happened. I felt that Light had noticed this and had made me aware of my death. I felt very ashamed of myself. Ashamed for my past, ashamed for denying the life after death, ashamed for denying God and not believing in Him. I felt ashamed for all the kindness that He had shown towards me and for the warmth that this angel was giving me despite all of my sins.

I had many questions come to my mind. The Light told me to ask any question I want. The first thing I asked was,

'Am I dead?' Ther Light answered, 'Yes.'

Then I asked, 'What is God?' The Light replied,

'Every thing collectively is God and His thought. All of us, all the particles of this world and all the worlds, collectively make God's mind. We are like cells in the God's body, each of us are a small part of Him.'

I was given the understanding that we cannot fully comprehend God, because we don't perceive and have knowledge of all there is in the Universe.

I asked him, 'How was this world was created?' The Light said,

'This world is formed in God's mind. God is increasing His experience by creating this world. This is what needs to happen based on divine laws, so Creator has meaning and becomes stronger."

I asked, 'Does God have any weaknesses that He needs to do something to become stronger?'

The Light showed me a very high mountain. There was a fast-moving waterfall on top of the mountain. The Light said,

'Look at this mountain and waterfall. The waterfall is pouring down water without any effort. This is the nature of the waterfall and mountain. The water does its function every day with pleasure. If someday the waterfall does not do this, we don't call it a waterfall anymore. What God does is the same. God does not spend any energy or effort to do this, and if He does not do this, we won't call him God. All of this happens in full harmony and order in the creation.'

I asked, 'What is the purpose of creation?' The Light replied,

'Creation is a necessity of God's nature. When there is a God, creation will exist naturally which is the result of God's love for His creation and the creation's love for Him, which are necessary for each other [or natural result of each other].'

I was told that this is a divine law. The Light gave me the understanding that humans are a small part of God. Through challenges put on part of His soul (meaning human souls which belong to Him), God will get stronger. This was the understanding and feeling that I got.

I received the answers for most of my questions. The Light had given me knowledge and understanding and this was giving peace to my heart. I was feeling an order and harmony in the cosmos that is beyond description. The Light pointed to me and reminded me of my responsibilities and told me that I have to finish my mission on Earth. We were floating between Earth and the skies. The Light pointed by hand to Earth. I looked and again, I saw myself lying on the ground while several people were helping my body.

Suddenly, I felt like I was moving very fast through a tunnel towards Earth. The light in the tunnel was blue with a little white. The tunnel walls were twisting. On my way back in the tunnel, which [felt like] probably 4 to 5 seconds, the word 'return' was constantly going through my mind. It was as if repeatedly hearing the word 'return' was was meant for me to live and return to Earth. The feeling of returning to my body was like diving in a pool of water that was 6 feet long and 2 feet wide which is the size of my body.

After returning to Earth, I started to open my eyes . With half-open eyes, I could see the people around me who were looking at me with scared expressions on their faces. But once I gained my consciousness, they were happy and praising the Lord.

My body was half-paralyzed from the impact on my back. I tried a long time to get up but couldn't. I was feeling a lot of pain in one of my ribs. But eventually, I managed to get up. I couldn't move it well. With lots of struggling, I got to my work which was only a short walk away. At the office, I looked into the mirror to see my face was white as chalk. For sometime after this accident, I could not sit in a car or drive. Even walking or simple sitting was hard for me and my ribs would hurt.

This happened to me 9 years ago, but it is still in my memory like a HD movie with all the details and colors.

Background Information:

Gender: Male