Ray C Probable NDE

Experience Description

It is hard to describe where I was because it is nearly indescribable in the human language.

I went into surgery for my third back surgery. I remember seeing what everyone thinks as the 'tunnel' of light and remember feeling a familiar presence. Then I came back. The experience humbled me in a calm and beautiful way. It was powerful enough to radically change my views of this earth. I had total peace inside.

Several years had passed and I re-injured my back. During the fifth surgery, I woke up and was fully conscious. I reached up and grabbed the clamp, when the medical personnel slammed my head back and stuffed a tube in my mouth.

At that point, things went dark for a moment. Then I saw the light again. But this time, I understood that the light that I was looking at, was my own. Once I focused past the light, I understood everything. I felt the overwhelming feeling of everyone that has ever existed was focusing all of ther love at me all at once. There is no start or ending and there is no time in between. You can be anywhere or everywhere all at once. There is no hate or judgement. There is no pain. Everyone we ever knew here on earth is there. We are all equal there. When I came back, it was with help. I didn't want to come back, but it was not my time. I did not discuss it with anyone for fear of the doctors not wanting to help fix the damage that was caused from me waking up. I was also afraid of what others might think.


Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date NDE Occurred: November 2007

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? No. Accident Surgery-related. While under general anesthesia. Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function)

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal. I had complete clarity of how the universe works.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? There is no time there. I was fully conscious

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning. I was everywhere and nowhere during the experience. Time is not linear there.

Were your senses More vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I saw with a clarity that is not achievable here

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I didn't hear exactly, because I felt the meaning more than heard it.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere, as if by ESP? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes I realized the light was my own and looked past it or focused past it.

Did you see any beings in your experience? I sensed their presence

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Uncertain, everyone is there all the time. There is no time there so people are never really gone.

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? No

Did you see an unearthly light? No

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm. it is an indescribable place. it is where we come from. It is almost like we are on a vacation from there. it is like we are here to understand all the emotions that we don't have there, like greed, envy, hate, lust, disgust, or pain. None of that exists there because there is only intense love.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? I felt the pure love of billions of people.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? I understood everything about the universe. I had knowledge of how everything worked in the universe. These are concepts that cannot be described with language.

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Select none

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes there is no one God. We are all 100 percent equal

What is your religion now? I have no religious beliefs

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience. Time has no meaning, nor does physical space.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes we are all one. We are all going to go to the same place when we are done here.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I sensed their presence

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? Yes I had an awareness of my being and how I fit into the big picture

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes we are all one. There is no individuality as we would describe here. We are all energy, and I could become each energy. There is an absolute understanding of everyone and everything.

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes We are all 'gods' because we are all equal

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes I had instant knowledge of how the universe works

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes we are here on vacation from there. We are here to experience emotions

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? An afterlife definitely exists. We are all part of a big energy complex

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? Yes what we do here has no relevance there. We are here to love one another. Fear is the only thing that stops us.

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes we are all love.

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life. My biggest change is that I have no need for social settings. I have a hard time understanding people's human problems and drama.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I am able to project my love through sight and touch

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes words cannot describe the emotion. There is the love of all, all at once and all the time. I cannot describe the knowledge that was there. There was unity of all at once. I could be anywhere, anytime in any space in any form or mind. The communication there is not in words but in energy. I was not just myself, but I was everyone.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience. My childhood memories were misplaced upon my return.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The incredible feeling of love was especially meaningful and significant to me.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Ten years from the experience I told my story. I told a complete stranger who was mourning the death of her husband. I tried my best to explain where I went and where he is. We were both profoundly overwhelmed, bathed in love, and crying happy tears. I truly believe it changed her entire view of death

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. I still feel it inside me.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. There is no denying where I went

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? The love we can understand here at its maximum, is only a grain of sand in a desert compared to the love you have over there.