Ray F NDE

Experience Description

The series of stories you are about to read are a true account of spirit hauntings and paranormal activity. It may be hard for you to understand how one person could have so many paranormal experiences in their life. I’m not sure I fully understand it myself, but I'll try to explain why there is a close connection with the paranormal, and the obsession the spirits seem to have with me.

It started the day I died. I was five years old. It was summertime on the edge of fall. The days were cool and fast to night. Here is what happened on one of those endless fall nights when I was 5 years old. My older sister and I never did get along but after that day, it only got worse. My mother told me my sister always wanted a little sister and when I was born that just started an ongoing love hate relationship, oh well, sorry sis. My sister had an old dollhouse. Back then, most all toys were made of particle wood or a flimsy plastic. However, this dollhouse was constructed from solid wood. That afternoon my sister decided that she was too old to play with dollhouses. She took the house to the back yard and placed it by the garbage cans. Well, that told me she didn’t want it anymore, so it was time to play 'Demolition Derby' with my father’s hammer. Smash, bang, crash!! Man did I have fun. Pieces and parts of that house were all over the backyard. Later I found out that the dollhouse belonged to my favorite great aunt Lil. I wish I’d never destroyed the dollhouse because it had to be at least 100 years old.

Anyway, I left the carnage strewn all across the backyard. That afternoon my sister came home from school and went out back to retrieve the dollhouse from the garbage. I was inside with my mother baking cookies when we heard a scream come from the backyard. My mom and I went flying out to see what happened. I'd forgotten about what I had done to the house. As we approached the door leading to the yard, my sister came bursting through the door screaming and yelling at me, 'You little brat! You stupid little brat!'

My mother stood spellbound at the sight of the utter destruction that lay before her in the battlefield we used to call our backyard. She told me to leave the mess to show my father when he came home. With that statement, it began to click that maybe it wasn’t such a good idea to wreck the dollhouse. That evening, Dad came home from work and the second he stepped through the door, was met by my mom and sister squawking at him. They both laid into him about what I had done. He grabbed me and marched me out to the backyard. When he saw the amount of havoc, I played on that innocent dollhouse he just stood and stared in disbelief.

How could a 5-year-old boy do so much damage to such a well-built toy? He asked me, 'What were you thinking?' I said, 'She threw it out and I played with it.' Simple. What came next is very interesting. My dad told me that after supper I was to grab a garbage can and pick up every scrap of house I could find. So that’s exactly what I did. It was 'summer-fall' as we use to like to say. Not summer and not quite fall. The nights started to come sooner than normal so by 5:30pm it was dark out there. It took me about an hour to clean up all the mess. As I put the last piece of house in the can, my mom called me in to get ready for bed. I was to go to bed early that night. I started walking up the back steps to go into the house, and as I grabbed the doorknob, I felt a pinch and a burning behind my right ear. I was startled, to say the least and man did it hurt. I walked into the kitchen where my mother and sister were putting the dinner dishes away, the first one to me was my sister who, much to my surprise, looked very concerned. My mom was next. My dad had gone fishing and at that time, there were no cell phones. The look on both their faces was complete amazement and horror. I suppose I should describe what they saw.

In just a few words, I looked like the Michelin Tire Boy. If you’ve ever seen the ads before, this image should pretty much cover it. I started to feel nauseated and very sleepy. What had happened, if you haven’t already guessed, a wasp stung me. Not an ordinary wasp but a black wasp, one of the most lethal species in North America. It just so happens that I was allergic to wasp venom. No one knew until that night. To explain briefly what happens when a wasp or bee stings you. A person allergic to bee or wasp venom goes into what is referred to as Anaphylactic Shock. This causes your endocrine system to kick into high gear and release histamine to counteract the venom, which in turn causes your body to flood your system with liquid. You virtually drown in your own fluids. Nice Huh? The next thing I remember was my godfather at the front door, and a police car waiting outside ready to take me to the hospital. My sister and mother were crying. My godfather scooped me up and carried me to the police car. On the way to the hospital, the police officer asked me if I’d like the siren on. I nodded yes and on it came.

That was one of the last things I remember prior to waking up in the hospital. What I do remember during the time I was out is a bit fuzzy. I was sitting in a dark room with a single light above my head, kind of like a spot light shining down. The darkness wasn’t something you could see, more over an inky blackness you could feel. All of a sudden, a gray black twister came out of the darkness and scooped me up. There was no noise, just a twister. I couldn’t be sure, but it felt like there were people speaking to me inside the twister. What was being said to me wasn’t real words, more like thought words, mostly telling me what I can and can’t do. Along with the voices inside the twister was the feeling that there were others outside, watching me, seemingly waiting for something to happen, an anxious feeling of dread. I only felt it when I tried to move outside the twister into the dark. It was almost as if the dark was alive. Have you ever had the feeling someone or something is watching you, late at night while you are alone?

That’s the feeling I had. I traveled for a while in the darkness, and occasionally I would see light spots, as if a single beam of light had been pointed at the ground. After a while, I saw myself heading towards one of those lit spots. As I approached, I could see people milling around in the light; some were standing in the lighted area and others just between the light rim and the dark. As I moved closer, I could see children about my age playing with a whole bunch of puppies. I wasn’t able to get down to play with the children because the twister kind of held me like a mother cradling a baby.

However, I could lean out of the twister to touch the kids and puppies, in fact one little girl held a puppy up to me and said, 'Hi, here you have one.' At once, the twister began to move away from the light and the kids with the puppies. I reached out to grab a puppy but I was moving too fast. The light began to fade until there was only the dark nothingness. That is when I woke up. I was lying on my back looking up at a bright light when the image of a nurse and a doctor came into focus. They were saying something to me but I couldn’t hear very well. My body was itchy and it ached all over. I can’t remember how I got home that night or how long I was sick because of the incident. I overheard people saying how lucky I was and that I had died several times. Apparently, I died a couple of times on my way to the hospital and a couple of times while I was there. A short time after, is when things began to happen around our house. Strange things like voices, smells and bumps in the night. In the morning, we would find chairs moved around, cupboard doors open, and the contents thrown on the floor. The cats would walk around with the hair on their backs standing up. Sometimes they would run through the house as if someone was chasing them; their tails poofed out, wide eyed, and wired.

As time went by, people would come to visit but soon after they arrived, they would make excuses as to why they had to leave so abruptly.

Foul odors would waft through the house causing my parents to scoot around opening doors and windows to chase out the stench. Even in the DEAD of winter. Many people including family members believe that something happened to open a corridor between the living world and the afterlife or where ever I went the night I died. My mom and dad did say they couldn’t remember any of these occurrences happening prior to my incident. The house I grew up in was my grandmother’s before it became ours. Our family lived in this house for over 100 years. I would have thought, in all that time there would have been at least one reported paranormal event. Wouldn’t you?

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date NDE Occurred: September 21st 1958

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Allergic Reaction Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function) The time of my first death I was stung by a black wasp...

How do you consider the content of your experience? Both pleasant AND distressing

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes Most of these questions are described in the text. But I was riding on top of a gray and black tornado like thing. There was no noise at all except for the people talking to me. There were little colored lights inside the tornado below me. red blue green yellow... No

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness I was aware of my surroundings and everything I saw. My mind was not clouded at all. There were people talking to me all the time...reassuring me and comforting me. It was so very pleasant and clam.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? During the entire time

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No

Were your senses More vivid than usual? More vivid than usual

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. It was crystal clear. But it was a vision of mind more than sight.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. My hearing was clear and un obstructed

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere, as if by ESP? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes A small tube very short brought me to the tornado

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes No relation. They were two boys and a little girl in a tan dress with ruffles on her collar and blue flowers dotted all over the dress. She had on black shoes with a strap and buckle and white socks. She was blonde and about my age.

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? No

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes the light I saw was very bright but it did not hurt my eyes. It was like spot lights throughout the blackness shining into the great void. spotlights all over. With people inside the light.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm I was riding on top of the tornado like thing and the area I was in was pitch black all except the dots of spotlights all over the place. I could see them from were i was sitting on top of the tornado. They went on for what would be described now as miles.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Curiosity...I was five years old and had no preconceptions...it was fun to me.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt no longer in conflict with nature

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about myself or others I had no fear and the people that were with me kept me safe and clam. I felt at home.

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Catholic I was an altar boy from 5th grade on through 9th grade I went to seminary for two years to become a priest.

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes God is a concept. There are many names for God. I know this being as a supreme universal intelligence

What is your religion now? Christian- Catholic I am a spiritual person believing in a supreme universal intelligence.

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience I was five years old and knew little of life and the world. My experience was unique in that I had no preconceptions. It just was.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Uncertain I was five years old and no very worldly. As I grew, I realized what happened to me and where it took me and this made me more aware of life and the afterlife.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin The voices were Male and there were three of them. They put their hands on my shoulders and kept whispering to me words I couldn't understand but it felt right and calming.

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes Just the people talking to me so calmly and gentle. They seemed to be familiar but not.

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? An afterlife definitely exists No

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes All I felt was calm love Happiness and joy.

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life I am not afraid of dying.I never have been. I am more aware of other than earthly occurrences.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I view people differently and because i am an empath feel them differently as well.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience. It has stayed with me all my life and as if it happened only moment ago every day of my life.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I am an empath and I have been told I am a sensitive. mostly by other Psychics.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Yes i have been contacted by some other being and given directions and purpose.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I wrote a book about the experience and others after my first death. People are shocked and excited all at once.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I didn't think about it because of my age at the time. My second death I was 17 and had a lot of reflection from that one.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real The clarity of my experience has not diminished over all the years since. My mind's eye plays the vision over and over again as I recall it without change to the original experience.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes One night when I was 33 years old, my wife was sick and slept on the couch in the living room while I slept in our bed. We did this if we were sick so as to not disturb each other. At 2:00 in the morning I woke up and went downstairs to see how my wife was doing. I got about half way down the stairs when i hears a voice singing. It was so loud and clear but it didn't hurt my ears. It was a song of six notes. and the voice sang it three times. The voice was a young Female so beautiful and melancholy. The voice came out of our dining room which was directly beneath our bedroom. My wife woke up and I asked her if she heard the voice she said 'It was someone singing'. I am a musician and could remember the tune. I went straight to my piano and played the tune again. This tune is as clear in my head as the night I first heard it. It haunted me for over 20 years. I finally designed and built a device to speak to the spirits. I currently offer my services to anyone who wishes to speak to their loved ones. During the design and building of this device I always felt my hands were being guided. Many renowned local psychics have sat in front of this device and have had what they described as 'incredibly enhanced psychic connections'. This is the best possible result of my NDE experiences.

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? I have learned by talking with the entities that come through my device that I am not alone and I am not be to afraid of death.

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? Yes. What were the colors you experienced during your NDE