Rebecca H Probable NDE

Experience Description

I was 5 years old and had gone to the hospital for a tonsillectomy. My sister was also having a tonsillectomy surgery the same day.

In the night, I awoke with the need to vomit. I took the pink pan from the table at my bedside and preceded to vomit blood for what felt like a long time. My sister was not in her bed next to me, so I was alone. I collapsed onto the bed, the bowl spilling over with blood. When a nurse came into the room, she quickly left. I recall being rolled onto a clean bed quickly. I recall the lights on the ceiling moving. I saw a large black mask that smelled like rubber that was used to put me to sleep for emergency surgery.

I woke up in a dark space, still on my back but I floating. Attached to me was a string similar to a guitar string. There were other strings floating there. I seem to have been floating over and under the other people's strings but I never touched them. Just as I felt like I was waking up, even though I was still in the dark space or becoming more aware, I started to feel fear. I wanted my mother. I closed my eyes and felt dizzy.

When I opened my eyes, I was in the hallway of the hospital. I was holding on to the railing on the wall to steady myself, because I felt very strange and weak. I had recalled a playroom behind the nurses desk, and I wanted my sister. I was still very afraid. I made it to the nurses desk and looked behind into the playroom and my sister wasn't there. However, there was a boy who looked to be my age, sitting on the floor, legs crossed, and reading a book. I did not know him. He looked up and smiled and waved at me. I started to collapse against the wall when a nurse caught me in her arms and kindly said, 'What are you doing here, sweetheart?' I told her that I wanted my sister and she picked me up with both arms saying, 'You don't belong here. Lets get you back to where you belong.' I closed my eyes in her arms, felt the bed beneath me, and I woke up several days later still in the hospital.

The incident was so bad that I struggled to eat my entire life and have been on a complete liquid diet and occasional puree foods, and have had to have many surgeries to keep my throat open due to the scar tissue from the tear. I was not breathing for 4 minutes. It felt like it was much longer.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 1985

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Surgery-related Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function) It was after surgery when my tonsils were removed. My stiches had ruptured in the night, and I lost a lot of blood.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Both pleasant AND distressing

Did you feel separated from your body? No I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness. I have since been hyper-aware. I never felt that until that moment an I have felt it on occasion, since.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When I felt the fear in the area that I was floating. Right before I was in the hallway.

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No

Were your senses More vivid than usual? No

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I feel a connection to that time and place; it was like living in two worlds.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I hear the same.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain I don't know what the dark space was that I was floating in.

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes I saw a nurse and a child. I believe that they were once alive but no longer are.

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? No

Did you see an unearthly light? No

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? Some unfamiliar and strange place The floating in darkness with cords was unfamiliar to me.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? First, Fear. Then worry, then exhaustion

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? No

Did you have a feeling of joy? No

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? No

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Do not know My mother was raising me in the Baptist Church, but I was too young to choose an affiliation for myself.

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Uncertain Being very young at the time, I cannot say for sure.

What is your religion now? Christian- Other Christian I am simply a Christian. I am an Ordained Minister and do anointings and deal with spirits and demons in people's homes as a Christian.

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience. I believe that being so young, I may not have much life history to understand much more.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I know what it feels like in the other place.I feel connected to it.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? No

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? No

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life. I now search for truth. I work helping others with their supernatural experiences and anointing homes. I know that things exist beyond here and I believe that I am able to see things that others cannot. When I went home from the time in the hospital, I could see a woman and hear sirens and smell tar. I was terrified of this women. No one could see her but me. I have been tested psychologically and had brain scans and sleep studies and nothing can explain what I see since that day.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Being very young at the time, I cannot say for sure.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience. I remember this like it was recent.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I see, hear and feel others that have passed.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The boy in the room.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I was a teenager when I shared it with my mother.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. I was very confused.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. I do not know where I was in the darkness and I have tried to study it, but it seems that not many others had that experience.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes I feel that energy from that place often.

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Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? No

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? Maybe have a spot about it happening to you as a child. Everything else was great.