Robert B NDE

Experience Description

On 11/20/2019, I woke up because I was having severe nausea, and an aching in my left arm and lower left chest area. I figured it was food poisoning. But maybe not, because during my three years in Denver I had food poisoning between 6 - 10 times. I don't remember the exact number of times, but I did go back to sleep. I woke up three more times with the last event being about 2:00 a.m. I could not stand the pain any longer as my left arm was aching so badly, I wanted to cut it off. I was too weak to stand up anymore. I yelled at Valerie to start the car and get ready to take me to the hospital. I was overwhelmed from the pain, and had to lay down on the bathroom floor. I was too weak to get up.

During this time, I prayed for Christ to forgive and save me as I believed I was dying. Valerie came in and wanted to take my blood pressure. Somehow, I managed to get up and sit on my knees. The pain increased immediately and I fell back down. I thought that dying wouldn't be as painful as it was now. Valerie went upstairs to get Larry and Vanetta to help get me to my feet and into the car. This wasn't working, so Vanetta yelled to get an ambulance.

Within 3 to 4 minutes, the EMT/paramedic was asking me about my pain level. I told him it was a 9 or 10 on a scale of 1 to 10 with 10 being the highest pain. I was cold, sweating, thirsty, and exhausted. The EMT gave me baby aspirin and told me to, 'Chew them up right now.' I couldn't move and told him that. He responded, 'SIR YOU HAVE TO CHEW THEM UP RIGHT NOW!' I forced myself to take the aspirin and was filled with strength. I stood up. I felt compelled to stand. Unfortunately, I felt SEVERE pain again in my chest and left arm. The Paramedics got me into a chair apparatus and strapped me down for the movement to the ambulance. From there, I was helped onto the gurney and placed into the ambulance. The paramedics cut off my shirt and placed two IVs in my arms. Then we drove 3 miles to the hospital. I told the EMT that the pain was getting much worse.

Suddenly, I was in a new place. I knew I was COMPLETELY and WHOLLY in this place and it was perfect. I knew I was COMPLETELY ME without a body. I was aware that every action, situation, event, or decision I had made in my life was vivid and recallable, and all was and is me. I became aware of a bright light up and slightly towards my left. The light was infinitely brighter than anything I could ever imagine. It was so bright that initially, I had tried to turn my face away from it. I was in the light without shadow or explanation. I also knew that this place was perfect. The temperature was perfect. I also knew that the light was infinitely more powerful than the universe as this was the energy that created the universe. There were colors and shimmering coming from around the edges of the light although there really were no edges as the light filled the entire area and permeated my very being.

I thought, 'Thank God I was able to pray and ask forgiveness before I got here as this is why I am here!' I had a deep knowing, 'It is not about what you have done. Christ accomplished this and it was for you and for all. You are safe.' I wished I could explain this transference of knowledge to me, but it is beyond description. In my soul and in my very being, I knew I was safe. I knew I was me and that God had absolute knowledge of where I was, what I was, who I am, and was with me in this place.

The instant I was in Heaven, or rather the outskirts of it, time stopped. I did not have the knowledge of time as we do here on earth. I also did not have the NEED TO SURVIVE, to live, to draw the next breath. The survival instinct was gone. I was safe and totally at peace.

I looked away from the light, and smelled pure cotton linen. Of note here is that I lost my sense of smell about 6 years ago. On earth, I can't even smell gasoline. Yet here in this place, I was astounded and surprised since I was well aware that I could not smell. I saw a glimpse of a material in front of me and it looked distant to me and I was unable to discern or see what it was. I moved forward and was able to just glimpse a pattern of linen that was intricately woven. As I glimpsed this pattern in the linen, I knew everything about the line; such as the string used to make the weave and the act of making the linen weave. I knew that every part of the creation of this linen had been performed perfectly from pure, untainted materials.

Suddenly, I was returned to my body and I saw the EMT through my own eyes. I felt intense pain and anguish. Time restarted for me and I noted the passing of precious seconds as we traveled to the hospital. I asked the EMT, 'Was I out?' He replied, 'You coded sir. Do you remember anything?' I was in too much pain to say anything else.

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date NDE Occurred: 11/20/2019

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Heart attack. CPR given. Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function). I had a massive heart attack which resulted in three stents.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

Did you feel separated from your body? No. I lost awareness of my body

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal. I was instantly and vividly aware of all memories.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? instantly and during the entire event

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning. Time stopped and then as I came back, time restarted.

Were your senses More vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. It was the same.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. It was clearer

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere, as if by ESP? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes The light was powerful and safe as it enveloped everything.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm

What emotions did you feel during the experience? I was completely safe. I don't really understand love. I do understand safe. I have never felt safe on earth and still don't. I have to fight to survive.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt no longer in conflict with nature

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about myself or others. I was okay. I was safe.

Did scenes from your past come back to you? I remembered many past events. My memories were clear and vivid recollections of everything I had ever done. Yet, I didn't want to look or recall them since I didn't feel the need to.

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Protestant I was born again in the late 1980s. However, I disallowed all spiritual manifestations in this life.

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes, I became more serious about how I practice.

What is your religion now? Christian- Protestant

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes there is an afterlife, period. I now know that for sure.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin. There was a Being to my left the entire time. I did not see this Being and never looked.

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? Yes I have always had trouble believing in even my own Christian beliefs.

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes The light was Christ, God the Father, and The Spirit. The knowledge transference was from a 'senior' person.

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes. I was safe

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? I was uncertain if an afterlife exists. I was aware, instantly, of the fact that I was wrong to doubt the afterlife, and that all was okay and I was safe.

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? No

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Slight changes in my life. There have been subtle changes. I want to live. Not that I didn't want to live before, but life is now sweeter and I am more passionate about it.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes no words exist to explain what it was like.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience. Everything is vividly plain to me

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Yes, the feeling of being safe. I have never felt that before. NEVER! I can't really explain how this is. The other thing is how PERFECT everything was there.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes about a month later, I told my wife and a few. I didn't write it out until 3 months later.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes I was aware of NDEs. I believed the stories to be completely false and caused possibly by drugs, but definitely not real.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. I had no doubt it was the most real thing in my life. PERIOD!

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. I still believe it is the most real thing in my life. Although, my memory seems to dim a bit until I read the words I had written and then the experience comes flooding back to me.

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? No

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? Ttoo personal to explain at this time.