Robert E NDE

Experience Description:

The first experience took place at the time when my blood pressure was crashing and my pulse rate was so fast I felt like my heart was breaking through my chest. I was tired of the fight.

In my vision, I found myself in a dark and barren hospital room. Besides the brightly illuminated bed I was in, the only other item in this room was a plain wooden chair up against a wall. The chair area was also brightly illuminated. In the penumbra, you could barely make out the outline of a doorway through which entered my clone who proceeded to sit in the chair.

At this moment, I swung my legs over the side of the bed and faced my companion. I wanted to rip out my heart, which felt, alien and unfriendly. My companion seemed clearly aware of all my feelings. After all, we were one and the same. He said the following, 'Robert, you can choose to stay or check out.' As he said this, I envisioned my wife and how much sexuality I felt towards her, I also saw my two young children and felt how important my guidance and love for them was. I said to my companion, 'I'm not checking out.'

With this, he rose and left the room. I laid back on the bed and the vision ended.

Even though I was in a medically induced coma, I am aware of my mind being very lucid. I was aware of most things taking place in the room. On various occasions, I was floating above my physical body observing what was taking place. During a different period I had visions which became reality well over a year later, most of these were of a sexual nature and very emotional. I was unconscious for three weeks until I was weaned from the respirator; I have no idea of when my experiences took place other than the episode with my hypotension and rapid heart rate.

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date NDE Occurred: 11 years old

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Surgery-related 'Life threatening event, but not clinical death' In the intensive care unit, medically induced coma, tracheotomy, septicemia, third spacing, blood pressure 50/0, pulse 160.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I lost awareness of my body

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Less consciousness and alertness than normal I am not aware of having been conscious nor alert.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I am not aware of having been conscious nor alert.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Neither

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening all at once

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more so

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Colors were very vivid as well as my sense of smell in my visions. My visual ability captured more information than normal.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? Neither

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes These beings were for the most part individuals I knew or would know of at a later date. Some of the communications were of things which were occurring in real time outside my environment in addition to events which were to occur in the future.

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? No

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? Neither i visited the artic and northern maine

What emotions did you feel during the experience? I felt anguish (emotional pain).

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Neither

Did you have a feeling of joy? Neither

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? Neither

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe

Did scenes from your past come back to you? Neither

Did scenes from the future come to you? From personal future I experienced events that would come to pass over a year later. My level of awareness was quite high.

Did you come to a border or point of no return? A barrier I was not permitted to cross; or 'sent back' to life involuntarily

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal non practicing catholic

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes There is more than just our physical presence.

What is your religion now? Liberal struggling with the idea of a creator

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes There is more than just our physical presence.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? Definite being, or voice clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? Neither

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I recounted my visions shortly after my physical recuperation. I don't think their reaction was noticeable. Let's say skeptical. No influence.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes I was aware of some individuals having NDE's from some television programs, newspapers, etc.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was probably not real

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real I have lived what my vision showed me.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? To me the most reasonable explanation to my experience is that the mind is never at rest and when it finds the physical being incapable of performing, the mind is free to travel.