Robert Jr. Probable NDE

Experience Description

During my second semester of college, I battled depression due to overwhelmingly stressful circumstances. I was using and abusing many different prescription drugs and drinking very heavily. After a while, my body began to become more and more frail as a side effect to extensive drug use. There was one night that I took it too far. I decided to mix prescription drugs with a half a pint of whiskey. Looking back now, I can see how one would think I was making an attempt on my life but I truly was not. I was depressed, but not suicidal. After about an hour and a half I found myself with very limited consciousness. I was in a dorm room sitting in a rocking chair. My chest began to hurt. I felt like life was shutting down, as if everything that had to do with my external reality was fading. I tried to stand up, but fell to the ground. My friends gathered around me, trying to pick me up. I could hear them calling my name but with every second, their calls become more like echoes in some far away cave. I began to feel like breathing was optional, as if it no longer mattered to me.

I felt like I could feel and see everything which was nothing at all. Everything was pure energy. I felt as if I was evaporating into the very air itself. Then I heard a voice, but saw no Being. It asked two questions in this order: 1) 'What are you doing here?'; and 2) 'Do you have any regrets?' To the first question I replied 'I do not know.' To the second question if I had any regrets I answered, 'Yes.' Lying was not an option. I felt an overwhelming sense of peace that I've never experienced in my life. I felt no need to lie, it just wasn't necessary. The voice then told me, 'It is not your time.'

Then slowly, I regained consciousness. I was returning. I awoke on the floor in my friend's arms, gasping for air. I was told he slapped me, but I felt nothing. Although my face was red. I was told I was passed out for 10 minutes or so, and that my breathing was becoming more and more faint. They said they were seconds away from calling an ambulance.

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date NDE Occurred: 19 April 2015

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Accident. Drug or medication overdose. Life threatening event, but not clinical death

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I slowly lost all consciousness and was unaware afterward. I lost awareness of my body

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal. I was completely unaware and uncaring about everyday matters.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? A few seconds after falling to the ground.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning. Time lost any and all meaning whatsoever.

Were your senses More vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. It was almost like being blind because all I could see was matter, like pure energy. Things did not have shapes or parameters, they just were.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. All sounds were felt like feelings.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere, as if by ESP? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

The experience included: Void

The experience included: Unearthly light

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? An unusually bright light

Did you see an Unearthly light? No

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm. It felt like being stitched into the very fabric of the universe itself.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? An incredible and vivid sense of indifference.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? No

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Not important to me

What was your religion prior to your experience? Unaffiliated- Agnostic

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No

What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Greatly important to me

What is your religion now? Unaffiliated- Nothing in particular- Religious unaffiliated

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes The

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I heard a voice I could not identify

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No

Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? God probably exists

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No

Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? God probably exists

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

Did you believe that our earthly lives Are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are not meaningful and significant

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? An afterlife probably exists

Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife probably exists No

Did you fear death prior to your experience? I greatly feared death

Do you fear death after your experience? I slightly fear death

Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life

Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Unknown

Did you believe that our earthly lives Are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are not meaningful and significant

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Unknown

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Slightly compassionate toward others

During your experience, did you gain information about love? No

Were you compassionate after your experience? Moderately compassionate toward others

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Moderate changes in my life

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience as accurately as other life events that occurred around the time of the experience

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The overwhelming sense of peace.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No