Robert RB NDE

Experience Description

My body had begun dissolving internal organs from extreme ketoacidosis. I began hyperventilating one evening and couldn't stop. My girlfriend had driven me to the closest VA hospital that was about 45-minutes away. When I arrived, I passed out at the check-in desk. It was determined the hyperventilating was my body attempting to release the carbon dioxide being generated from the ketoacidosis dissolving my internal organs. They told me later that most people are only able to expel about 40% of the gas and die from affixation. Luckily, I was expelling around 95% which allowed me to survive long enough to get to a facility that could immediately resuscitate me.

My Experience:

I was immediately taken to something like the event horizon of a black hole. I saw the swirling gasses flowing into a central, black disc. Around it was an accretion cloud that was distorted by the intense gravity of the object. It was exactly as you see from scientifically accurate images of what black holes would look like. There was an invisible path in front of me that led into the black hole. I was hesitant as I knew it would be a one way trip.

While I was thinking about this, I got a sudden data dump into my brain. All knowledge in the universe was becoming available to me. All the questions I ever had in life were being answered. I felt contempt. Then, I felt peaceful and all the anger I carried in life was gone. I was truly happy and it felt wonderful. Now, I was ready to go wherever this path was leading me.

I felt the presence of someone standing next to me, off to the side. I asked who he was. He replied he was an ancestor. I asked if he was my grandfather. He said, 'No, far older.' For some reason I asked if he was Atlantean. He replied, 'Far older.' He explained that he was part of the first colonists. I asked, 'Colonists of what?' He told me Earth.

I could kind of glimpse him from the sides of my vision. He was wearing a black suit, like a form-fitting suit with metal plating covering portions of it. It was brown in color with the metal portions looking coppery in appearance. He wore a helmet that almost looked like a stylized skull. I asked if I could see him. He told me that I hadn't reached, 'full awareness yet.' He said that although we are the same species, he comes from a humanity that evolved on another world. His physical appearance is different and might be a little jarring. I asked why he was here. He replied, 'You are not meant to stay.' He was chosen to guide me back because I had no emotional connection to him. If I had seen a past relative that I knew, I might be inclined to stay.

He warned me that my body was currently being worked on at a VA facility. I had basically signed over my body to them by accepting medical care. The Government may be inclined to use my dead body for military testing. He warned me that fates worse than death exist. Being kept alive against my will by scientists experimenting on me was one. Having no rights to my life was a literal, living nightmare. He warned me that when it was my time to leave Earth, it needed to be on my own terms.

It was after this exchange that I awoke in my body two weeks after my temporary death. It had turned out that the doctors were able to bring me back to life and stabilize me afterwards. I had entered into a coma. My consciousness was gone, despite my brain not being dead. It was like I left behind a functional body with no software to run it. The doctors even told me it was as if my consciousness was somewhere else during this time.

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date NDE Occurred: March 2008

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes ketoacidosis had shut down my body, fell down dead in hospital check-in. Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function)

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

Did you feel separated from your body? No I lost awareness of my body

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness. I felt just as I would in normal life.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Immediately, as I stood in front the black hole. Right from the start I was fully aware as I was awake and alert during waking life.

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No

Were your senses More vivid than usual? No

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. It was exactly the same. I had not yet begun the transition so I had assumed this is why I felt like did. I was beginning to see things and experience knowledge but was warn to not proceed by my guide.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I don't recall hearing as normal. It seemed that all sound was being projected directly to me. My conversation with my guide was entirely internalized.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes I met a person who claimed to be my first Earthly ancestor. Someone who died thousands of years prior.

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? No

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes The only thing I can describe it as is if you were sitting in front of a massive black hole. I saw the bright light of gas swirling around a massive black disc.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Complete peace. I had never felt such contempt in my life. I felt no pain or emotional distress; just pure Happiness.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt no longer in conflict with nature

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe. The information was slowly coming to me, like a download. I hadn't learned everything but was slowly becoming aware of things I had always had questions about in life. The universe was slowly opening up to me.

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a definite conscious decision to return to life. I was given the choice to return and was recommended by my guide to do so. I was told now is not my correct time. However, the choice was left up to me.

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Unaffiliated- Agnostic. I believe in higher beings and higher levels of consciousness beyond our own but do not subscribe to any one religious belief.

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No

What is your religion now? Unaffiliated- Agnostic I believe in higher beings and higher levels of consciousness beyond our own but do not subscribe to any one religious belief.

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience. Having a background in psychology, I had believe in higher expressions of consciousness. So, I have always been open to the idea a conscious energy transcending death. However, I was not sure I would still have my identify.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin. I met a person claiming to be a far distant ancestor.

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? Uncertain All information about the universe was being given to me. It didn't carry back to me when I was revived but I know suddenly there was a moment of everything making total sense to me.

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Uncertain I believe the true nature of conscious and the universe was revealed but by not remembering any of it I can be sure to what extent or what information was revealed.

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Uncertain I believe such knowledge was being given to me as the totality of existence suddenly clicked with me but it was gone when I regained consciousness.

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No. I believe so but can't comment on exactly what that is.

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? Yes These things were explained to me by person who was there to be my guide. I believe I was also aware myself as information was being sent to me about the true nature of existence and the universe but that information was lost to me when I regained consciousness.

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? No

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? This experience has created sort of an existential crisis in me. I have spent the years contemplating if it was actually real. Having a degree in psychology, I have a lingering fear that what I experienced was only an illusion created by a malfunctioning brain in the throes of death. I still have doubts to this day. I want it to be real. It feels like a wonderful thing was shone to me. Something that should confirm without a doubt that life after death is a real. Still, I'm no more convinced than I was before the experience. I feel like the whole experience has been cheapened somehow by prior education.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience as accurately as other life events that occurred around the time of the experience. The visual experience of the black hole is very much ingrained in my mind's eye. The look of the person with me was accurate as it would be on Earth if I was quickly glimpsing someone. I was not able to study the person in depth. The conversation is a paraphrase. I remember the gist of it but it is not verbatim.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Knowing that after I die, I could experience such a total feeling of peace. As someone that deals with depression, anxiety and PTSD from military service, it is comforting to know that if my experience was real, I would feel total peace again like I experienced in my NDE.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? No

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes I had heard stories from TV shows about paranormal topics or maybe read an article or two about it. Nothing too extensive but I was aware of the major gist of what a lot of people experience. I don't believe my prior knowledge clouded the experience in anyway.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was probably real. Then it definitely felt like I experience something real. However, coming out of my coma my body needed to be retrained and I had memory issues (my brain was jumbled, things felt out of order) and with my psychology background it faded to the background of my life.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was probably real. I want to believe it was real but I don't know.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? No.

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? Very comprehensive. Maybe questions more about what other beliefs of a paranormal nature people had prior and after their experience. My meeting an ancestor from another planet was interesting to me. I do have a belief in life outside of Earth. I'm curious if that could have tainted the experience in anyway. There really is no way to scientifically falsify or prove these encounters. However, it would be good to know if certain prior held beliefs could have guided the experience. I'd want to approach the topic as scientifically as possible.

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