Rose K STE

Experience Description

A little background first. I have 3 daughters and 10 grandchildren. I was married to my children's father for 30 years and they were the worst years of my life. I divorced and married my current husband, Herb. Herb is the love of my life. We have been married since 2010 and I never knew I could be so happy. My greatest fear is him dying before me and me being left on earth without him.

In the middle of sleep, I was awakened by a very bright, pin-prick of light. I was lying on my left side. This light was above my head but behind me a bit. I kept looking at the light. I remember arching my head backwards to see it more clearly and to lift myself up to it. Slowly, the light got progressively larger and larger. It was beautiful. It was all dark around me but I was not afraid or anything. I just wanted to get to the light. I left my room at this point although it remained all dark.

I call the light 'God' because I don't know what else to call it and because of the feelings I had towards it when I got closer to it. Nothing told me to stop coming forward, I just knew that was where I was supposed to stop. I telepathically said, 'I'm here!' in an amazed feeling of 'Wow!' The light source or God telepathically answered 'YES.' It was more of a once I asked the question, I knew the answer type of feeling. I know I was awake. There was clarity. This was not a dream. I think I was in my body but more in my head because I didn't my body. Then I said, 'I died.' This was more of a statement than a question. The response was 'Yes.' I then said something like, 'So I'm dead and I am still my personality. I am still me. I have my personality?' Again, I heard confirmation. At that point, I was OVERWHELMED with a full wash-over of love that I cannot describe. There is no word available that can convey it. I know so many stories of NDE where people say that but it is true. It's not a feeling, it just is!

Once I confirmed I was dead, I was euphoric. I was ready to get on with death and move to the next step. There was a light behind me and I turned to see across the USA. I knew God was instructing me to look. A beam of light rose up from Indiana, Arizona, and Pennsylvania, all from my daughters' homes. Again, no words but I know it was God saying to me and showing me that I can't die yet because 'Your daughters and grandchildren need you.' I responded, 'No, they will be fine.' God then showed me that my husband needed me. At that point, I begged God to let me stay. The love I felt there, outshines any sort of love here on earth. For me to beg to leave my husband is nuts and not like me at all. Then God conveyed that I must go back. It was then that I was back in my bed with my eyes wide open wondering what the heck just happened.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 2022

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain. Other: I don't know if I died I was sleeping. I went to sleep and had this experience while sleeping. My thought was 'I'm dead' and it was confirmed by God or whoever it was.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes when God rolled out the USA so I could see my daughters' houses. I lost awareness of my body

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal. Only with respect to the feeling of love I felt. It was far superior than any words can describe it

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? But not like a super being just I knew it was really happening.

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No

Were your senses More vivid than usual? No

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. The same except the love feeling which now I cant feel.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I did not hear any sounds during my experience.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes the light when Gd showed me my childrens' houses

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm. Yes and no. I was somewhere else, not here but did not enter into another place

What emotions did you feel during the experience? that I wanted to never come back here. Nothing against here, but I really just wanted to be there. I felt very unattached to anything emotional here

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? No

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Unaffiliated- Agnostic I was raised Catholic went the route of born again Christian for many years. Probably 5 years ago stopped believing in Jesus then followed by agnostic belief

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No

What is your religion now? Unaffiliated- Agnostic I believe there is something else but have no idea what. I think I believe in a Godlike Being but not sure

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience. I believed there was something but didn't know what.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin. I encountered the light source in front of me but nothing audible

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Uncertain I can't describe it in words. I knew it was God but not a judg-y god or anything bigger than me, yet it was.

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes that we are still ourselves once we move on. Everything about my personality was in place. I knew I was funny and curious.

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? Uncertain nothing that suggested what was next but that all I wanted was to stay with the light forever and a feeling there were more steps

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes yes!!!! Only love. All being love. Wash over you love. A love I cannot explain. I just don't have the words.

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? No changes in my life. The love that was washed over me was amazing!

After the NDE:

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience as accurately as other life events that occurred around the time of the experience. I wish I could remember and still feel the love part

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? the love and that our personalities are the same even when we die

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes yikes, sharing was scary. I shared with my husband after it was nagging me for so many weeks. He was uneffected and I shared with my step daughter who encouraged me to share it on the website

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes reading books on subject and listening to podcast

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. I knew it happened but was afraid to share it. In some ways, I still am. It has layed on my soul so heavily in that it did happen

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. It isn't on my mind as much but when I do think of it I know it happened

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? I guess the biggest part that sticks out to me is that I would beg to not be with my husband. That blows my mind

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? no

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