Ruth NDE

Experience Description :

My NDE first one was in 1965, diagnosed with terminal cervical cancer. I was in a coma for ten days, and I was out of body seeing how all the nurses and doctors were saying 'we have lost her now.'

I did not recognize the body, as I only weighed sixty-five pounds at the time, and it was ugly to me.

Next, I was wandering the hospital and the next thing I knew, I was in a long tunnel and all my relations who had passed before were standing, smiling as I passed them. I could only discern one motivation and that was to reach the awesome LIGHT at the end of the tunnel. Meantime I was shown all my life experiences, and I WAS the person whom I had hurt or helped so that I felt what they felt when I had erroneously acted against or helped them. A voice told me 'you have been judged in that being the other person I judged myself. Hard to explain, seems easiest for me to call it karma.

When I reached the LIGHT, it was so bright, like nothing on Earth, pure white LIGHT, and such a feeling of unconditional love and warmth. The LIGHT answered any questions I had ever had. It seems like I was there for a long time, just absorbing all the answers.

Next thing I knew a voice came from the LIGHT and told me it was not my time to stay there. I BEGGED as hard as I could, but I was slammed back into my body in reverse, and I cursed all the doctors and nurses. I did not speak of this to anyone as my family was/is fundamentalist Pentecostal.

I had a heart attack in 1993, and the situation was the same but for ONE big difference. I was married at this time and I was shown my husband crying for me not to die, thus I was offered a decision to stay or to return to him. I chose life this time.

In 2000, I lived alone and became very ill with what I know now was e-coli and was not taken to the hospital. I was so ill I was vomiting and could not stand. I screamed to the Universe to let me die or make me well.

I was taken out of body through the tunnel, but this time, I was able to visit other planes of existence. There were seven I was allowed to view, including one very strange plane where I could look inside a giant morass where souls were being tortured sexually, etc. in all types of vile forms. They 'thought' they were trapped when all they had to do was to look up and there was a path to the LIGHT. Not seeking seemed to be their doom. I screamed at them, but it seems they could not hear.

I was taken to special entities who looked like the usual grays, but they had many wrinkles on their faces. They called themselves the Counsel, and said they were part of a group called 'soul recyclers' helping souls to re-incarnate.

This was by far my most profound NDE, as I could see the silver cord that attached me to my body. This experience lasted for over twenty minutes as best I could remember. I was dead; this was NOT an OBE, as I know how those feel.

There is such a profound structure to the Universe that cannot be described. I look upon it as Edgar Cayce did the Akashic records, but in my view, it is a giant gigabyte mainframe that can do trillions of bytes per second. It is like a well-run machine that is totally fair and well ordered. The Universe is the opposite of Chaos.

There is much more I saw on the different planes, but some of it I will not speak of just yet.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 1965, 1993, 2000

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Illness Surgery-relatedHeart attack Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function)

How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful

Did you feel separated from your body? No I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal I knew I was me, my personality survived, I just no longer needed a body.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Near the LIGHT.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening all at once Time no longer existed.

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more so

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Indescribable amounts of colors that we do not have on Earth, also a type of vibration. I asked what it was, as it was a type of music. I was told these are the prayers, pleas, praise coming from Earth and other planets.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes

Did you see any beings in your experience? Sensed their presence

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? Clearly mystical or unearthly realm see NDE

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Total peace and that I was finally at HOME.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? United, one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe

Did scenes from your past come back to you? Past flashed before me, out of my control

Did scenes from the future come to you? From the world's future Have not discussed.

Did you come to a border or point of no return? A barrier I was not permitted to cross; or 'sent back' to life involuntarily

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate None

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I KNOW reincarnation is real and Buddhism fits me best.

What is your religion now? Moderate Buddhist

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I KNOW reincarnation is real and Buddhism fits me best.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? Definite being, or voice clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? Sensed their presence

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes All the answers I got from my queries.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes My ex was disturbed by any mention of it, I have become a recluse. I am a 'tweener' stuck between Earth and the LIGHT.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes There are no words in any language to describe that 'feeling'.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes Empathy and healing of others.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The simplicity of how the Universe is run.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Only with others who have been there. One who has not gone looks at you as if you are possessed if you try to describe it to them.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No