Ryan P NDE

Experience Description

We were awoken in the middle of the night by a phone call from my wife's sister-in-law. She was calling to inform us that my wife's mother, who had been battling melanoma, was in her final moments. We got up. I was feeling unwell and went to the emergency room. My wife left to go to her mother's side. I arrived at the hospital and was taken into triage. They took blood and administered some tests, ultimately chalking up my anxiety to the events that were unfolding. They told me to go home and rest, so I did.

I was called by the head of the emergency room a few minutes after I arrived at home and asked why I had left. I told him that I was discharged. He said that I wasn't supposed to be and that they did not have the test results back yet. He gave me choices that I could either come back, they could send an ambulance, or I could wait for a call. I elected to wait for a call. They called back shortly after and said that I was having or had had a heart attack. I drove myself back, and was rushed in. While I was being re-admitted they were struggling to get an IV line into my arm.

The nurse who they'd called in to assist happened to be a childhood friend. I asked him, 'How serious is this?' He told me it was pretty serious. So, I got texts/calls out to my parents and my wife. At that time, I didn't have anything else to do but to close my eyes and pray. I began repeating the 'Our Father' prayer over and over again.

In an instant, I was in like a train depot or some sort of meeting place. There were clusters of light all throughout the room. I liken them to the visual effects that Star Trek used when beaming people in and out. They were bright and brilliant light that provided a peaceful feeling. I focused on one of them and went over to it. As I drew closer, I saw that it was my mother-in-law who had passed away not more than an hour or two before. I experienced an overwhelming feeling of calmness and peace. At first I thought I was going with her, but then it became clear that she was there in some capacity to let me know that I was going to be okay.

I awoke on the gurney and surrounded by doctors. They still were working on getting an IV in my arm. By that time, I had calmed down. I was no longer worried about what was going to happen. What felt like 60 or more minutes engaging with my mother-in-law turned out to be mere seconds.

Prior to the event, I was always a very anxious person. I used to over-think and drive myself crazy worrying about situations that I had no control over. Since that experience, I haven't had the same problem. Since that day I've been a little bit more in-tune with my God-given intuition on things.

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date NDE Occurred: 7/30/2017

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Illness Heart attack Life threatening event, but not clinical death. I was having a heart attack.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

Did you feel separated from your body? No I lost awareness of my body

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal Previous to, from the best I could describe it my consciousness and alertness was impacted by a cloud of anxiety and fear of the .

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Right after. Even though I didn't have any answers, it all made sense. The removal of my anxiety lifted the cloud that impacted my consciousness and alertness.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning It felt like I was with my mother in law for a while.. but in reality it was seconds.

Were your senses More vivid than usual? More vivid than usual

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. same

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. same

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes mother in law

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? No

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes The room was filled with these pillars of light moving around. I took them as people/spirits.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No

What emotions did you feel during the experience? peace, calmness, love.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt no longer in conflict with nature

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about myself or others. At the same time that I felt like I understood everything, it was more than I know that I didn't need to understand certain things anymore. I didn't need to let them rule my life.

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Protestant

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I'm still not where I'd like to be spiritually. But the experience reminds me of the importance of my faith and obedience.

What is your religion now? Christian- Protestant

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin there were no voices. I guess it was all telepathy?

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? Yes Seeing my mother in law and the other pillars of light suggested that there was more.

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? Uncertain. Yes, but I don't recall any specifics. Only that the difficulties, challenges, and hardships aren't worth the energy that I was giving them. That energy was ultimately driving my anxiety and stress.

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes being surrounded and overcome by it.

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life. I feel more in turn with all of life. I still struggle like anyone but the experience reminds me I do not need to worry, or stress.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes Philippians 4:7

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience as accurately as other life events that occurred around the time of the experience

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I do not shrug circumstance off as coincidence any longer. I lean into them, and I have a better understanding of when God is speaking to me. Not speaking, speaking.. but speaking to my through circumstances, people I know, new people I meet. Etc.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Sharing the experience with my mother in law was impactful. We had a very good conversation in the weeks before her death about faith and life.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes that night, and the days after. many people in the hospital weren't surprised. I was hesitant to discuss with my wife and her family considering the circumstances.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Uncertain some, nothing in detail. just that people had them.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

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