Sally A NDE

Experience Description

I went out with friends for the day. We did consume a lot of alcohol but nothing more than we had previous times. We had a great, fulfilled day. In the early hours of the morning, we went back to their home. We had just arrived when I collapsed. I remember not being able to breathe. I heard my friend from what seemed like a long distance away. She was screaming and talking. I couldn't move or tell them I couldn't breathe. She struck her fingers down my throat to make me vomit.

I started feeling extremely cold and saw a ray of sunlight. I started recalling events in my life in flashes. I remember thinking I must vomit all the vile out my life before getting near the warm light. I just wanted to reach the light. I was extremely cold but not panicky anymore. After vomiting, I got so very close to touching the sunray. All I felt was extreme bliss, peace, love, and so much warmth. I felt myself exhaling my last breath. I was completely at peace and felt a joy that I cannot describe. As I touched the sunray, I felt my lungs filled with air and I heard my friend calling my name. I was angry with her. I wanted to go back to the sunray. That's all I was thinking about.

I woke the next morning and vividly remembered, very clearly. I think of the bliss and warm light even now, a week after it happened. I feel everything before going to sleep. My friend and I didn't discuss it much. I just told her I felt my last breath leave and was cold. She told me I went blue and that she did CPR on me. Apparently, I stopped breathing twice.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 04 June 2014

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain Life threatening event, but not clinical death. I could not breathe. Just collapsed at a friend's house

How do you consider the content of your experience? Both pleasant AND distressing

Did you feel separated from your body? Uncertain I only heard my friend from afar at times. I felt my last breath and heartbeat. Through the whole experience I never saw any earthly things I lost awareness of my body

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When I was about to touch the sun ray. I felt my last breath and last heartbeat. That feeling cannot be explained. I felt the warmth, the peace, the love, the bliss, and the absolute joy. I felt complete and utter contentedness.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning Everything felt extremely slow

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I doubt I will experience that awesome feeling on all levels ever in normal life.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I didn't hear my friend calling until later. Her voice was very distant until I nearly touched the sunray. Then it was loud and intrusive. I wanted to go and she wouldn't let me

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain It wasn't a tunnel as such. Just cold darker sides with the sun ray ahead of me within reach

Did you see any beings in your experience? I sensed their presence

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes I begged my deceased fiancΘ to help me get to the sun ray. I heard my friend yelling at me after I felt air go into my lungs

The experience included: Darkness

The experience included: Unearthly light

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? An unusually bright light

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes Bright warm sun ray

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? Some unfamiliar and strange place Warm. Loving. Calm. Happy. Blissful place

The experience included: Strong emotional tone

What emotions did you feel during the experience? First panic, then a total sense of calmness. Determination to get to the sunray. Absolute contentment. Warmth. Joy. Happiness.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No

The experience included: Life review

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

The experience included: Boundary

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Uncertain I only felt the breath come back into my lungs and heard my friend shouting. This was obviously when she gave me mouth to mouth and beating on my heart

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will My friend brought me back with CPR. I didn't want to come back

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Not important to me

What was your religion prior to your experience? Unaffiliated- Nothing in particular- Religious unaffiliated None

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No

What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Unknown

What is your religion now? Unaffiliated- Nothing in particular- Religious unaffiliated

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I sensed their presence

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes Oneness I think

Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? Unknown

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Uncertain No worldly feeling can be experienced like that. There isn't a word to describe the extreme joy. happiness. calmness. contentment

Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? I am uncertain if God exists

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes Death is not to be feared. In all honesty, I still don't care if I had died last week or not. It was just such an indescribable feeling

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are probably meaningful and significant

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes Life could never give me that feeling or feelings

Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? An afterlife does not exist

Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? I am uncertain if an afterlife exists No

Did you fear death prior to your experience? I moderately feared death

Do you fear death after your experience? I do not fear death

Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Slightly fearful in living my earthly life

Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are probably meaningful and significant

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Unknown

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? Yes Life's challenges. Meaning.. Love did not compare at all

Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Moderately compassionate toward others

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes It was a love like none other

Were you compassionate after your experience? Moderately compassionate toward others

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Unknown None. Too soon. Still absorbing it.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No No

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Uncertain The part before was panicky. I can't remember much. I remember everything clearly after I saw the sun ray. My whole focus was getting to it

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience I have a wonderful married life. I'm not a depressed person and enjoy my life. This experience was ecstatic. I cannot explain how calm I feel about it happening. I have no fear etc

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Yes, the absolute warmth. Contentment. Happiness.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes The next day with my friend. We didn't go into detail. It was horrific for her to try save my life. The other time was today. She was more open minded but concerned about my health

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I think about it every day.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real I know what I felt

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No