Sally L NDE

Experience Description

I had relapsed on an opiate that I knew could kill me. I thought I had control over my disease, despite actually being more out of control than ever. I was found barely conscious, unable to speak and was really confused. I had been vomiting since Tuesday, and it was Friday. By the time the ambulance brought me to the hospital, I was answering questions to the doctor. I told him that the year was 2005 when it was it was 2025. I told him that I was 43 years old when I am 41 years old.

On Sunday, March 16, 2025, my physical condition set off alarms at the nurses station. My oxygen was 30% and I was going into respiratory failure. A rapid response team was called to my room. I remember my name being called one of the team was performing sternum rubs. At one point, I felt her weight shift onto the bed as she came up off her feet to try and rouse me.

I was conscious and suddenly in a control room inside my head. A musical note would play each time my eyes moved. I was having a seizure. They intubated and placed me on bypass machine. I can remember the feel of the breathing bag as it contracted and released against my face. They ran and got Ativan after the doctor called for it. They placed a sponge in my mouth and I remember the doctor telling me, 'Don't bite my finger.'

I had one foot in the hospital room, but was taken through something like a portal. I was suddenly in a room with spiritual beings. I was aware of their presence but couldn't exactly see them. Then, various points of my life flashed through my eyes. I saw painful, joyous, happy, and traumatic points as my timelines were flashing above me. I asked the being with me for the painful/traumatic memories to be fast-forwarded and the beings did that for me. I was then presented with different pathways. The pathways were laid out in a way that I could travel only so far on each one to see what it would be like should I choose that path. It was explained to me that I had been taking my gift of life for granted; and that I have a purpose on earth. I could choose to remain with them or return to my body. I chose a path, though I'm unsure consciously what I chose. I was reminded that I still have free will and that I can be my worst enemy with the wrong choices. I was warned that I can't mess it up because this is my last chance.

I woke up in the intensive care unit (ICU) with various wires attached to my head to monitor my brain activity. My parents were there when I briefly regained consciousness. I fully woke up on Monday evening and could recount the activities in the hospital room, surprising the doctors and staff. Monday night is when I felt the darkness. I could feel something watching in the depths of my hospital room. When I was discharged, I slept with a light on for about a week. I could still feel the beings eyes on me, watching. Although I didn't feel the entity was malicious or dark, it made me uneasy. I've been able to sleep with the light off for a week now. But the memories continue to play in my head, reinforcing my sobriety because it scared the heck out of me. so I remember for a reason.

I feel insane when I share my experience with people close to me. I believe I was dying rapidly and I was given a choice to live or die. I chose life because I don't want to disappoint the powers that be.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: March 16, 2025

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Drug or medication overdose Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function) Acute respiratory failure. Seizure and epilepsy. I was conscious and remember being in the hospital room and having the experience.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Both pleasant AND distressing

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes It was verified by the doctors. I spoke about my experience and the doctor stated, 'Wow you remember a lot.' I have medical documentation that correlates with what I remember as occurring in the hospital room while I went into acute respiratory failure. I had a generalized seizure and break-through seizures. I lost awareness of my body

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal. It was like I was in two realms at once - the spiritual realm and the earthly realm. I remember occurrences in both realms, up until medication to stop the seizures started to work on my body.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Conscious and aware of being in a hospital but aware of spiritual beings. I was remembering both hospital room occurrences and spiritually awakening.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Time seemed to go faster or slower than usual. I was able to control when my life events were reviewed. I could speed through or change the channel.

Were your senses More vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Eyes were closed, but I knew what and who was around me spiritually and physically

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I could hear the doctors and medical staff talking. Spiritually, I wasn’t spoken to until I had to make a choice.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain The tunnel was more a portal, as if I stepped into a different realm.

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Uncertain. See above answer

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? No

Did you see an unearthly light? Uncertain The portal was bright but wasn't what others describe as an inviting light. It was more just a light. It could be because it wasn't my time.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm. It was a room but yet, not a room. It expanded forever It seemed. Spiritual beings that I was aware of but who didn't have physical form were present.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Fear, but comfort in a strange way. I wasn't in control but I also didn't feel threatened by the spiritual beings.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Relief or calmness

Did you have a feeling of joy? No

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control. All events were real as they flashed before my eyes.

Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from my personal future. I was allowed to see only so far in each path I could choose.

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a definite conscious decision to return to life. I had to choose to cross over and physically die or return to my body for a second chance at life.

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Unaffiliated- Nothing in particular- Religious unaffiliated Raised catholic. Struggled in addiction recovery identifying a higher power and often questioned what occurred after death

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes Already answered

What is your religion now? Unaffiliated- Nothing in particular- Religious unaffiliated Belief there is something greater than us that has our story written

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience. I struggled with believing in something existing after death, that a spiritual realm or religion/faith in something greater than us exists. But it showed itself to me and wanted me to remember it's presence.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes Already described

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I heard a voice I could not identify. I could feel the presence of spiritual beings around me but couldn't identify them by sight. When I had to make a choice on returning and living or to come back, then the voice spoke to me. It was more thoughts, that I knew weren't mine but they were entering into my head.

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? Uncertain I knew spiritual beings were around me, but I don't know who they were.

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? Yes That the spiritual realm is real.

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes There is a spiritual realm in which these exist. I'm unsure, but it is like it is present and has written our stories.

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Uncertain I don't remember all of my experience, as some of it will come in a dream and trigger a memory of what occurred.

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes Consciously, I don't know my purpose. But I was told that I should return. I have a purpose and was told to not destroy my chance at having this purpose happen.

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? Yes I wasn't given all the answers. But when I crossed over, I was met by spiritual beings in a supernatural realm. They seem to have control over the realm we are alive in. What happens when we cross, I'm still unsure aside from my personal experience.

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life’s difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? No

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I'm not fighting people around me and feeding my disease of addiction further

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes It's been a lot to process and identify the words of what I experienced.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience as accurately as other life events that occurred around the time of the experience

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain. Unsure, as the experience occurred three weeks ago and my body and mind are still healing.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? All of it is. I almost died or did die.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes My parents, I've shared a little bit with. Time: 3 weeks

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. I questioned it but the experience was real

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

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