Schon R NDE

Experience Description

I was eight years old. Earlier that year, I was diagnosed with B-Cell Leukemia within my legs. Thanks to the effort and persistence of my father, who is also a physician, he kept pushing doctors for an explanation of the sudden deterioration of my health and inability to run or walk properly. My mother who is very religious and a staunch Catholic spends most of her seconds praying, even now.

It was the week of Christmas Eve 2005 and I was sitting in a hospital bed with my mother in the room. Oddly, I remember seeing my father and sister walking through the door, but this never happened because they weren't ever there. That night, I had asked my mother to pray and ask Jesus to help me. She said, 'I am always praying for you but YOU also need to pray and talk to God.'

Several moments later, I was thirsty. So, I ask her to get me a drink. I remember praying as an open conversation rather than a specific prayer. I started to convulse and was having seizure. My mother came back into the room and saw me. She immediately ran to press the emergency button. I was flatlining during my convulsions. All the emergency doctors and surgeons on the floor came rushing in the room. My mother had fainted.

At first very briefly, like a still image, I saw myself below me. I don't remember specific details of seeing my body or the room, but what came next, I vividly remember. I transitioned to see a white, glowing space, similar to those commercials where the entire area is near-blinding white. However, there is no definition to the space, so it seemedlike an endless void. I had no shadow, body, or physical form. I remember 'looking' around. I felt like I was in a jacuzzi because the light felt like heated water. It was a comforting, peaceful, free, and euphoric feeling despite that I had no physical form. It was like a camera that you see in the professional NFL games, that is floating around the field and can move in any direction. I felt amazing!

Over the years, I've tried making sense of the feelings and sensations. The feelings have never faded but they are still so difficult to explain. The sense of peace and amount of comfort I felt were the best I have ever felt in my life. Since then, I have foolishly tried to chase the rabbit and do various drugs, trying to re-create those feelings I had that night. If these feelings were experienced by the rest of humanity, I believe it would surely make the world a better place by ending the hate and evilness seen around the world.

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date NDE Occurred: 12/23/2005

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Illness CPR given Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function)

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes Hard to explain. I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal. At the time, I was convulsing as a reaction to chemotherapy

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Throughout

Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning. Hard to explain.

Were your senses More vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Hard to explain.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Hard to explain.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere, as if by ESP? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes Hard to explain.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm Hard to explain.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Love, Euphoria and Peace

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt no longer in conflict with nature

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe. Hard to explain.

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Catholic

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes

What is your religion now? Christian- Catholic

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes Hard to explain.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin. Hard to explain.

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? Yes Hard to explain.

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes Hard to explain.

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes Hard to explain.

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes Hard to explain.

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes Hard to explain.

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? An afterlife definitely exists

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? Yes Hard to explain.

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? Yes Hard to explain.

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes Hard to explain.

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes Hard to explain.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I do not know how my remembrance of the experience compares to my remembrance of other life events

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I am highly intuitive, including high emotional intelligence. I can really feel a place and/or people. Often feel like I can sense other entities or feel places. Sometimes I think I am not alone. Easily have strangers open up to me/ Gift of Gab

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Can explain over phone

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? Yes

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? Perhaps have video function. It'd be easier for me to explain by talking rather than typing/writing.