Seán O NDE

Experience Description

I was in bed, ill with swine flu. It was about 2:00 am.

I entered a very dark room and heard a door, bang shut behind me. There was a bright light that stretched from the ground and reaching up as far as I could see. I took two steps towards the light. I landed on a platform, next to the light that shot me straight upwards at lightning speed. The platform was just big enough for one person to stand on. The platform stopped at the top of the light. It was pitch-dark but I saw what looked like a bright white stage about 20 to 30 feet from me.

Everyone and everything on the stage was white. My dad stood at the front of the stage and my cousin Colin was standing slightly behind my dad and to the left. Colin had a very straggly, dark beard from his jawline down. I had never seen him with such a beard when he was alive. His beard was the only thing on the stage that was not bright white.

At the back of the stage, that was built into the wall, there was a very old woman who I didn’t recognize. I could tell she was clearly in charge and was monitoring everything that was going on.

My dad was the only one to speak to me. Even though it was 15 years ago, I remember his exact words, 'If you want to see Colleen and those boys again, you better go straight back down. You better start breathing and you better start fighting!' With that, I started to fall. As I looked up, I saw my dad reach over the stage and say, 'We’ll still be here if you need us.'

The I landed back in my bed with a thud and took a deep breath. I was in the exact center of our bed, in the fetal position. I have sleep apnea and never sleep without my c-pap machine, but I was not wearing it when I returned. I was using it when I fell asleep earlier. I spent the rest of the night breathing and fighting like my dad told me to do.

Colleen was sleeping in the spare room, while I was sick. The next morning, I told her I need to be in the hospital. She drove me to the hospital and spent 5 days in the ICU.

At the hospital, they put me in a private room and the TV was on to a local news station. The only thing they were discussing were people who had died of the swine flu. The doctor came in and said 'I’m going to do my best to save your life but I can’t guarantee it'. When I was leaving the hospital 5 days later she said, 'When I first saw you, I thought there was no way that you were going to survive.'

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date NDE Occurred: 11/4/2009

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Illness. Illness, trauma or other condition not considered life threatening

How do you consider the content of your experience? Both pleasant AND distressing

Did you feel separated from your body? No

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal. I was very conscious of the darkness and the stage that my dad and Colin were standing on. I noticed very small details about the stage that I would never notice in my regular life

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? From the moment I entered the dark room and heard the door slam behind me, to when I started falling from the platform

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning. Once I walked to the light, I was immediately transported upwards at lightning speed the people on the stage were all waiting for me and before I knew it I was falling back down.

Were your senses More vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. My vision of the stage was incredibly clear and precise. In everyday life would not have been able to describe or recognize anyone standing on it without my glasses.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. My hearing was pretty much on par with everyday life.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes My dad and my cousin Colin. There were other beings on the stage that I did not recognize. As I said, there was an elderly woman in the wall who was very vigilant and clearly in charge.

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? An unusually bright light

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes The light was like a vertical strobe that reached from the ground to as far as I could see.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No

What emotions did you feel during the experience? I have never thought about the emotions before. I was not afraid or nervous. I felt calm but no different from everyday life

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? No

Did you have a feeling of joy? No

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? No

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will. I was standing on the platform and the stage was about 20 to 30 feet from me. Everything else was just vast darkness almost like both were suspended in space. I could not gain access to the stage and I immediately started to fall after my dad spoke.

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Catholic

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No

What is your religion now? Christian- Catholic

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience. I believe that there is an afterlife and we will see those who have died again.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Uncertain My dad told me, 'If you want to see Colleen and those boys again, you better go straight back down. You better start breathing and you better start fighting.' From this I gathered that that still had a part to play in raising our boys.

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? Yes I met my deceased relatives

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? No

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Slight changes in my life

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience. To this day I remember my dad’s exact words and everything about the stage that he was standing on. I don’t not remember other conversations from that time in such a clear and precise manner

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Seeing my dad and Colin

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I shared it with my wife about 3-6 months afterwards. I remember her being skeptical

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. I believed it happened 100%.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. It’s been 15 years and I still remember it vividly and believe it happened 100%. My memory of the incident has not changed and is exactly the same now as it was then.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

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