ShadowN Z NDE

Experience Description

The experience happened in 2004 when I was 24 years old. At that time, I was studying in the United Kingdom and doing a part-time fast food delivery job. One night, when I was finishing the food delivery to a house and going back to my car, there were 3-5 teenagers waiting by my car. I felt they might rob my car or money. They saw me and walked up to me. I was terrified and started running away. In about 10 seconds, they caught me.

I was knocked down to the ground and my head hit the curb hard. At that time, I still remember a little of what happened. The teenagers took my car keys and drove away in my car. All I was able to do was to stand there and watch them drive my away car.

The next thing I remember is being surrounded by warm, white, and bright lights. I saw all my past events, even the sad things in my past; including some things, I might have already forgotten. Then I cried very happily. I felt like I was finally released by all circumstances. I'm not worried about anything anymore. There is nothing I miss about family or friends. I was crying from happiness and relief.

The doctor did a work-up on me. I had suffered brain damage and memory loss for a few hours. In those few hours, I could not remember who I am; there was nothing in my head. My memories started to come to my head by the next morning when I was in hospital. But still many things happened in the past that I cannot remember.

The MOST IMPORTANT thing is that I felt my soul didn't belong to the body. It feels like I went inside somebody else's body/vessel. That feeling has been with me for years. It feels like the original soul of the body was gone and I just took the empty body with its memories and now live within it. I don't seem to have emotions, not even about the happy or sad things. I feel things differently after that experience. I think that death is not the destiny of our journey, there is another world or place we will go when we finish the lives here.

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date NDE Occurred: April 2008

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain Criminal attack. Life threatening event, but not clinical death

Did you feel separated from your body? No No

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Felt normal all the time, just the happy emotional cry and calm feeling at the same time.

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No

Were your senses more vivid than usual? No

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. It's like a dream.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I heard nothing during the time, just the past events.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

The experience included: Unearthly light

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? An unusually bright light

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No

The experience included: Strong emotional tone

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Calmness, relief, happy.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Relief or calmness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt no longer in conflict with nature

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about myself or others

The experience included: Life review

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No See Narrative

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Unknown

What was your religion prior to your experience? Other or several faiths No religious

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Uncertain

What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Unknown

What is your religion now? Other or several faiths No religious

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I feel there is meaningless in this world. I'm still seeking the meaning of my life.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No

Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? I was uncertain if God exists

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No

Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? Unknown

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are probably meaningful and significant

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes When the warm bright light came to me, I feel everthing doesn't matter anymore, I am ready to go.

Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? An afterlife probably exists

Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists No

Did you fear death prior to your experience? I greatly feared death

Do you fear death after your experience? I slightly fear death

Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Slightly fearful in living my earthly life

Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are probably meaningful and significant

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are not meaningful and significant

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? Yes I feel my life is full of sarrow, sad things.

Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Moderately compassionate toward others

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes During the experience, I feel there is nothing or nobody need to be love anything.

Were you compassionate after your experience? Slightly compassionate toward others

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life Large changes in my life

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I have less feeling about others.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes The warm bright light is difficult to express.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience as accurately as other life events that occurred around the time of the experience I remember the experience as accurately as other life events that occurred around the time of the experience

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? People might have a soul, and the soul controls feelings.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I shared the experience to a few people; mostly they feel it's not true.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was probably real It feels like a dream but not exactly a dream. It feels like the soul of this body has been changed to someone else's soul.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was probably real

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No