Sharon Q NDE

Experience Description

Prior to the experience:

I had ordered a small, hanging stained-glass window with a wisdom quotation on it for my godchild. When it came, it was a pure white statuette of St. Francis Assisi. Puzzled with this, I phoned the company I bought it from and explained the error. They were flummoxed because my item and order number had nothing in common with the item they sent me. They felt it was auspicious and chose to send me the window hanging insisting that I keep the statuette. They strongly felt that a Greater God-reason was at play and that I must have had a need to be in touch with St. Francis. 'Okay,' I thought and gratefully accepted this most unexpected gift and turn of events.

I cleared a space around my favorite chair in the living room and daily pondered the significance of this gift. I’d ask St. Francis, 'Why are you here? What am I to do or learn? Do you have a message for me?'

It had to be around late March or early April because the weather in Ohio at that time of the year is unpredictable, either warm and breezy or cold. I remember having to pull out my long, wool coat due to a big temperature drop on the morning of the event. I got dressed for work with my T-strapped heels, dress, and winter coat.

I had recently purchased a yellow Ford, cargo-type van with tinted windows all around. It was an automatic with a big, Canadian V-8 engine with lots of pulling power. I was still adjusting to its unique blind spots and the challenges of driving such a big vehicle with side mirrors. I used to drive a Ford pinto, so this change was very intimidating. This van was a slim-fit into a 4-plex garage that had brick separator between the parking spaces for each tenant. While the interior was shared, we each had our own garage door. My parking spot was at the far end of the garage with a brick wall to the right and a brick separator between the parking spaces to the left.

The experience:

On this morning, as I was backing out of the garage and about the quarters of the way ou when I realized my angle was wrong. I didn’t want to scrape the paint on the van. So, I put the van in park, opened the door, and jumped out. I walked to the back of the van so I could see if I needed to straighten it out or not. As I returned to the driver’s side door and opened it to get in, the van jumped gears and was moving forward into the garage. I tried to jump up into the van but the door was slamming shut faster than I could jump up and in. So I retreated from that, my heart pounding from the close call of almost getting my legs cut off by the slamming door as it hit the brick separator.

I foolishly leaned against the van to collect myself. Then I realized that I was being dragged along by the van and into that tiny space between the brick separator and the van. I tried to pull myself out of that sudden squeeze to the outside of the building. But, I was already pulled in too tightly and my efforts to free myself were not working! I screamed for help. From there it was a rapid sequence of pressurized movement that was squeezing me to death. My screams became the agony of pain. Quickly, I resigned myself to being in a traumatizing accident with broken bones and God knows what else. At first, I was mad at God for not loving me enough to make me unconscious. I didn’t want to experience this consciously. Then my focus shifted to my body losing its bodily functions. I emptied my bowels, bladder, and was vomiting. I knew I was dying.

My consciousness changed from a person angry with my dad, life’s problems, and myself; TO MY SPIRIT SELF, determined to not take this rage over to the other side. I felt my LOVE emerge and forgive everything. Then I realized that 'I know this drill, done it thousands of times.' I exited the body through that soft spot, the same place as in a baby’s head. I was happy, joyous, and free! I reveled in being free from the restrictive constrictions imposed by a physical form, matter, and gravity. It felt a sigh of relief, much like someone removing a very tight girdle.

Then I turned my attention to the scene below me. The old man from next door was gasping. I saw my smashed body between the van and brick separator. I also saw all the people gathering from around the neighborhood. My Love and care turned towards my family and the impact my death would have on them. I could feel their impending shock, regrets, and sorrow.

Then I turned my attention 'heavenward' Home. And right there was Kuthumi, also known as St. Francis of Assisi. He showed himself in his Eternal Presence as a clear, Light vignette in a human form and surrounded by cherubs. I recognized him as my teacher-mentor.

There is no time and space, nor words for that matter, like we relate to in 3D life. I experienced volumes of information and communication freely exchanged without any confusion or interpretation issues. It is a profoundly beautiful thing; Light & Love in communion with each other. I can only give a synopsis of this exchange, and it varies a bit each time I share it because that is just the way it is:

(1)

I was being recalled by my Christos-Spirit Presence in order to review a dire situation that was interfering with my life-path, and I needed to get things back in order and on track. Thus, this death was like a 'safety valve recall.' I needed to wake my conscious mind up to the slippery backslide that was neither karmically induced nor required for my Soul. I needed the higher guidance so I could determine if I wanted this situation to progress or to end. I understood this path was not merely sidetracking and distracting me. I needed to understand the consequences of my actions were leading me down a path that I had not previously chosen.

(2)

I had to deal with my alcohol addiction. My personal self was having too many sessions of drinking until I went unconscious. I didn’t have the control I believed myself to have. I had to stop drinking or going numb by other means. This was non-negotiable and I knew why. I wholeheartedly agreed, too. I was offered a choice to return immediately to my current life and reenter my body, joining the scene below; or I could be born as an infant into another family as soon as possible to have my lifetime start over.

Without hesitation, I chose to experience a miracle with no broken bones and no organs bursting from the compression aspect of the accident. Although there was physical body memory and muscle displacement, the medical doctors we baffled and dismissive of what really happened to me.

From Presence and the SELF-Gnosis thereof, the very idea of starting over with parents who would be searching for truth through consensus religions and such ideas was not attractive to me. I hope this doesn’t sound self-righteous, judgmental, arrogant, or special because that kind of energy does not exist in Light & Love. My decision to come back has nothing to do with our Eternal nature of Divine origin. I’m candidly sharing my reflections about a rare opportunity of having the clarity of knowing I’d be going back to guessing, wishing, hoping, wondering, despairing to know for sure, if I chose the option to be born again. That would mean my future and soon-to-be parents could only be guiding and teaching me their belief systems, and I’d be tethered as a child to what would be essentially another scenario of what I considered as the 'blind leading the blind' all over again.

My choice means I don't need to start all over again. I have the gift of the conscious awareness of being a Spirit in a human body. I have this amazing discovery as my spiritual guiderail. Now, I wouldn’t believe I was One with the Creator; I would remember this experience.

As soon as this decision was made, I was back in my earthly body. The van rolled off and hit the back wall. People were surrounding me, 'peeling' me off the brick separator and holding me up. They were attempting to get the shoes off so I could stand. An ambulance was on the way. The inside of my coat was shredded, the steel shank in my shoes was bent in half, and I was a smelly mess.

After the experience:

When I returned to my body, there was this man who no one seemed to know. He claimed to be a neighbor from about 4 units down. He wore a cap-like hat and stood in front of me at the garage wall with his arms outstretched around me like we were in a huddle. He reviewed my agreements I made with Kuthumi, the choice I made, and told me I’d have to go to the hospital so don't fight it. I was so amazed, I invited him up for tea so we could delve into this more. He said at a later time when I got back, but I never saw him again.

I was talking about miracles, and saying that I wanting to go up to my apartment for a good sleep. The paramedics put me on a board and took me to the hospital, expecting me to start bleeding from all my orifices. That didn’t happen. I was the, 'happiest almost dead person' the paramedic sitting with me in the back proclaimed. At the hospital full-body x-rays were taken and other tests were done. I was there for the rest of the day with the paramedic checking in on me each time they came back to the hospital. We had some interesting talks because he was dumbfounded at how well I was considering what had happened. I was finally released to my protective neighbor, Ike that we both pretended was my dad. I was pretty weak from all my fluids being released. After drinking a glass of orange juice that I had to insist be delivered got me, I was able to stand and walk out with Ike’s help.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: mid-1970's, in March or April

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain. Accident. Taken to hospital in ambulance for full body x-rays, and concerns about internal bleeding due to the accident. There was an older neighbor who came to see what was going on. What he saw horrified him, and his powerless to do anything caused him to have some kind of heart-attack: He was gasping and grabbing his heart. I witnessed this clearly once I left my body. My Consciousness/Presence knew it was not his time to die or to suffer because he came to my aid. He needs to go home and be with wife. So, the best way I can give words to this was that my Spirit wafted over him and took it all away. It was gentle and loving response.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

Did you feel separated from your body? Uncertain. I was above my body, watching the scene below me. I clearly left my body and existed outside it. Yet, my stream of consciousness was never broken, the perceptions shifted.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal. I knew I was an Eternal Spirit not a mortal. I knew I could leave the virtual game of life and return to Eternity (HOME) once I restored my Holy Resonance to be at-one with Eternity. I would not have to return to the wheel of life and death and the life reviews once full Holy Resonance was restored and stable. This is TRUE for everyone, by the way. Wonderful, yes?!

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I was most alert at the moment just preceding death and throughout the remaining experience. I suppose once I got back in my body, some of the awareness of total recall shifted to joy and celebration. It was great to not be in the pain that should have accompanied the accident.

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning. There was no time. Everything just was, is happening without our usual time-space reference points. Communication was instantaneous and what was communicated in a flash would take lots of talking to communicate to others in physical reality.

Were your senses More vivid than usual? More vivid than usual

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. There was no vision, just actual experience. The only difference is Light imaging more so than physical matter during the out of body time.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. none that I recall.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? No

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes If you consider Kuthumi's Presence as a pastel Light image, it was clear Light, warm and loving. I recognized him immediately and was comforted

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm. I was in spirit, transitioned from 3d reality into another mind, other worldly reality.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? calm, joyous, free, accountable, clarified, grateful, appreciative, loving, peaceful

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about myself or others. The very way to transition from mortality back to Eternity was on the line. So much to explain. I've published 4 books as a preface and entry into this vital knowledge for those who are ready to learn and ready to apply that knowledge to beget their own healing and liberation. It is resurrecting your lost InSpirited skills and forgotten knowledge and about healing your energy field back into harmony with Eternity, Creator, HOME. It's for everyone. Yet, we must choose. For more information: Tango with the Divine: SELFGnosis 101

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Catholic I was beginning to question the inconsistencies of my religion, So I began studying other faiths seeking answers to questions Catholicism had no answers for. I was dabbling with Eastern thought, and some metaphysical thought. I was attending local Edgar Cayce meetings.

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I do any form of worship. teaching understanding, conversation, and healing are the name of the game.

What is your religion now? Other or several faiths Other: I do not subscribe to any faith since I’m not seeking to find Truth any longer. Truth continues to keep expanding. Golden Threads of Truth exist in all faiths, that is our Oneness. The rest is imagined and layered on like 'wooly blankets' distorting that Golden clarity. Besides, dogma, doctrines, beliefs are used as stopgap measures attempting to appease people’s deep sense of belonging and theories about truth. Yet they fail to miss the point of knowingness, the power of the revealing process, and being open-minded about Spirit-in-actuality awarenesses;. more on point, beingness. They discourage honest dialog and preach consensus and separation consciousness with an agenda of conversion, assuming they got the one right answer despite behavioral evidence to the contrary. For the most part, I feel they’re not interested in listening and learning or legitimately filling in the gaps in their own teachings. They don’t trust the revealing process nor recognize the gems of Light and Love before them, so, what is the point?

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes Let’s just say there is a 180 degree difference and the peace thereof. I realize beliefs are concepts of the mind regarding the Ego-mind is not able to comprehend our Spirit Presence because they are diametric opposites of sorts. There are life and ego values of the virtuality that life is, being mortal and all. Then there are Eternal and Infinite Laws, Principles that are Light and Love based. I know things need to resonate and be in harmony with God and peace and wellbeing reign. Beliefs are not good enough anymore because there is more.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin. Kuthumi and cherubs as noted in the narrative and other answers given.

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? Yes Kuthumi, as a world teacher, is also known as St. Francis of Assisi from another of his incarnations.

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? Uncertain I doubt it.

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes MY very purpose was being protected by the experience; our universal Oneness as a Unity of Oneness was integral to this vital wake up call for me.

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes God is Creator and exists in Eternity. Each of us is a faceted expression of our Creator. We all exist as a Unity of Oneness in Spirit form that enters into life, sort of like a Cosmic virtuality game of life. It is grand and God is Light and Love. God is a creating Intelligence of Pure Consciousness. God is harmony, kind, caring, and most amazingly Pure Innocence and Goodness.

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes Please see the Narrative and answers above.

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? Yes Firstly, I never lost consciousness. My personal consciousness continued along with my Spirit Presence. My stream of consciousness was never broken, the perceptions shifted. But I never lost consciousness. Without a doubt our existence never ceases; it merely changes its experience and expressions. Secondly, we all have 'life after death'; it's not a 'one shot deal.'

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? Yes My alcoholic problem was core to what triggered this experience.

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes Love is our very Essence and power to Be.

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life. I know I have knowledge that I do not want to take to the grave with me because it would make a positive impact on others' lives. I know this information would grant them peace of mind and heart. I feel it is vital awareness meant for all humanity to benefit from and set them free. I also know it is my divine Intention that I share onward and not keep what I know to myself.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Who knows? This is likely. It helps others and I relate is better.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes We don't have accurate knowledge to speak about our Spirit side of life.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain. I wouldn't say it that way. But I do know how we can resurrect our innate InSpirited skills and heal back into our original Holy Resonance.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The fact that I don't wonder if we are eternal and know how to exit the game of life for HOME is an unsurpassed gift of awareness.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I've been sharing it with whoever is interested. Some are moved, as was my dad to ponder deeper about his life and some are fascinated and story collectors.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No. NDE was not popularized back then and considered an anomaly.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. It was too coherent and made too much sense to doubt it.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. My awareness expands all the time. My shifts cannot be denied and simply verify its veracity. Also, I know things I don’t have an earthly conscious way of knowing.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? Not at this time. Possibly later; I'm winding down for the day.

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? At the moment nothing comes to the top of my head. However, a good night's sleep often reveals interesting 'goodies' and insights! Thank You.

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