Shirley D Possible NDE

Experience Description

I was in such a bad place in my life. I thought the only way out was to take my own life. I asked God to forgive me for what I was about to do. I took a bottle of muscle-relaxers and drank a 40 ounce bottle of beer. I laid on my bed, on my back and waited to go to sleep. The next thing I felt was myself rising. I remember thinking that I was going to hit the ceiling. Then I was above the ceiling still floating up. I looked down and saw my mom's house. She lived just a few blocks from me. I always have dreams that I can fly but the tree limbs and telephone wires stop me and I fall. But this time, I kept floating up and past the tree limbs and telephone wires.

I floated up above the clouds. The next thing I remember is floating upright. Two people who had died that year were a few feet away from me. The father of my children and one of my friends held out their hands and told me to stop and that I couldn't come any closer. So, I stopped. I saw millions of spirits. They were a ways behind Ernie and Elenore. One I recognized was my Grandpa.

As I floated up, I felt all my bad feelings just fall off of me. One by one, the hurt, anger, and all negative feelings fell off of me. There was such a peaceful and sweet feeling that I cannot put into words. I begged them to let me continue on, but they said I had to go back because I wasn't done yet. I started to fall. As I did so, all those feelings came back onto me one by one.

I then was awake in my bed. I just started to cry. But I know there is a heaven and I always try to remember that feeling of peace and love.



Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: Nov 1995

NDE Elements:

At the tim.e of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain. Suicide attempt. Other: I really don't know I thought I just went to sleep

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

Did you feel separated from your body? No I lost awareness of my body

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness. It wasn't any different except I experienced and was fully aware of everything

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? During the whole experience

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning. For the events that happened while I was there. I believe it happened so fast. I wish I would have paid attention to surroundings more. Maybe there were lights or maybe God was near. I was so consumed in what I was feeling and I wanted to get closer but I couldn't.

Were your senses More vivid than usual? No

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Everything was the same except the fact that I was floating. I never looked at my body, just experienced the floating by real trees and clouds.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Hearing was same except when they were talking to me. It was not in voices, just a knowing.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere, as if by ESP? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

The experience included: Presence of deceased persons

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes The two who came to meet me were my kid's father who had died January of that year and a friend who just died a month before. I saw many spirits. I thought they were people who had died. There were so many in the background. Some were saying hello to me, calling my name to say "hi". One I recognized was my Grandpa.

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an Unearthly light? No

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm Just an exsistance.not a place just different shades of silver and light. As I can remember. It was so fast, seems I didn't have time to take it all in.

The experience included: Strong emotional tone

What emotions did you feel during the experience? I explained about feelings.the journey other than that I was fully aware of what was going on

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

The experience included: Boundary

Did you reach a Boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes The two that met me made me stop and I couldn't come any closer.

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Greatly important to me

What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Protestant

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I know there's a God, it's not just Faith anymore. I pray more. I'm still trying to figure out my purpose and why I am not done yet.

What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Greatly important to me

What is your religion now? Christian- Protestant I've been seeing a lot of information on higher self and universe frequencies associated with the ringing in my ears

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience. Only consistent in fact that you go to someplace after death and that God and angels are there

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes My positive belief in God. No one can change or give me doubts about my experience

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No They had no real form but at the same time they were. I clearly remember what they looked like but there are no words to describe them

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No

Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? God definitely exists

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes I had a knowing awareness that God was near but because I had to go back I wasn't going to see him. But there is no doubt God was near

Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? God definitely exists

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

Did you believe that our earthly lives Are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are meaningful and significant

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? I was uncertain if an afterlife exists

Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists Yes The realm or plane where spirits were

Did you fear death prior to your experience? I moderately feared death

Do you fear death after your experience? I do not fear death

Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Moderately fearful in living my earthly life

Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life

Did you believe that our earthly lives Are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are meaningful and significant

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are meaningful and significant

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Moderately compassionate toward others

During your experience, did you gain information about love? No

Were you compassionate after your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life. The experience has convinced me there is a heaven and it's not built on faith

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes In my relationships I love and make sure I tell loved ones how much they mean to me

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes While I was there the feeling I felt. The way everyone looked. The communication.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience. I recollect. Remember every detail I mentioned and the feeling I cannot put to words. No memories that I have had here on Earth are as clear and complete as everything including the sights and feeling. I cannot put into words.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The fact that I was at the threshold of heaven

Have you ever shared this experience with others? No

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. From the moment I woke up here until now, reality is so real

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. The memory is as clear as the time it happened so is the reality that it will never change

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes Everyday of my life. The knowing that there is more after this

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? I saw heaven so many people live on only faith

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? I can't think of anything