Sinnaeve NDE

Experience Description

Although, I don't remember the exact date of my NDE, I remember that I was 21, and I had a 1-1/2 year old little boy. I am currently 30 years old. After all these years, I have a second boy who is now six years old, while the first one is 10. Now, I finally have the nerve to talk about my NDE.

It was a party at night and I just wanted to have fun and unwind. I was with friends who smoked cannabis joints. I had never smoked this in my life. I wanted to try it and join in their state of delirium. So I smoked a joint of “amnesia” after drinking half a bottle of whiskey. Except, having never smoked before, I had a bad trip. I didn't feel well. I was sweating along with feeling nausea. Out of pride, I dared not tell the friends who were present that I was not feeling well. So I got up to go to the bathroom. I got to the hallway and closed the door behind me. I started to feel my vision blurring, and I was stumbling while walking. I suddenly fell down. I felt absolutely no pain.

Just then, I started to see a dark tunnel with an ultra bright, white and scintillating light at the end. I was attracted by the light and therefore decided to get closer to it. Once I arrived in the light, my maternal grandfather who had died when I was 13, welcomed me with open arms. I was happy to finally be able to see him again. We started talking, and he told me that I had just fainted, but that I must not worry and that everything was going to be fine. We went over my life until that day, in a loop format. Then, I saw my paternal grandmother who had died when I was 16. I asked my grandfather why my grandmother was in the dark. He told me to not look at the dark to always fix the light. He said to me, 'Grandma is in the dark because she left with a heavy secret that was never revealed.' He revealed it to me and told me to use the knowledge wisely. We were not solid, we were like a luminous, shimmering vapor. It felt truly an unconditional love, incomparable to anything down here on earth.

I also remember that there was a golden line that I wanted to cross. My grandfather shouted at me to 'Stop! If you cross that line, there is no turning back. But if you don't cross it, you may still be able to choose to return to your body. Look at you.' I turned around and saw myself in the hall, lying on the ground where I had fallen. My friends were top of me, trying to revive me. I could feel their stress. I tried to ask them to stop, to tell them that I was fine, and that I was quite well. But of course, no one could hear me. My grandfather said, 'You still have a lot to accomplish here on earth and your earthly mission is not over. The time has not yet come to join me.' He added, 'You have 1-1/2 half year old son, who needs you.' I asked, 'How do you know that, since you died when I was 13 years old?' He replied, 'From up here, we know everything and see everything!' We both said to each other, 'See you soon.'

I returned to my physical body, as if I were diving from the four-meter high diving board of a swimming pool. Once my soul had returned to its place in my body, I woke up with friends above me who were more than panicked. I had trouble breathing and couldn't speak. They had to take me outside and pour cold water on my face. It took 10 minutes before I could sober up. I still felt sick, but after the 10 minutes, I remembered in detail the magnificent experience I had just had. I didn't dare share it right away. I was afraid that would not be believed and called crazy. Although, I knew what had just happened to me. Since then, my intuition is extremely developped and I often enjoy astral outings outside of my body. Death no longer scares me, because I am now convinced that there is another kind of afterlife after the death of our physical body.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 21/01/2011

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Drug or medication overdose. Cannabis/Alcohol mix. Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function) I went unconscious in the the hallway as I was moving towards the bathroom at the bottom of the staircase.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes. I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness. I learned many more things up there than I had down here.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When I reached the sparkling white light.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning. The notion of time no longer exists up there.

Were your senses More vivid than usual? More vivid than usual

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I could see the world perfectly, as if I was on the top of a mountain.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. My hearing was much clearer and sharper.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere, as if by ESP? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes The tunnel was dark. At the end of the tunnel, a sparkling light attracted me like a magnet.

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes. Deceased members of my family.

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? An unusually bright light

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes. It was pure white and sparkling. The light was truly a beautiful light, like the color of a white rose in the morning dew

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? Some unfamiliar and strange place. It was like the Sahara desert. It was truly magical.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Unconditional love, intense body heat, general well-being. So much so, that I no longer wanted to return to my physical body.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe. I learned something essential, which was a family secret until then.

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control. There were a few episodes of my life that replayed in a loop at that point. It was displaying all the good deeds I had undertaken up to that experience. But I can no longer describe which ones in a few words.

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will. There was a golden line. I had a choice: I could cross it and then be unable to come back, or not cross it and be able to reintegrate my physical body.

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Catholic

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No

What is your religion now? No comment

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin. I met my maternal grandfather. And I heard all the voices laugh around me.

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes The universe is one! The Universe is a whole.

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes I feel like I have an overdeveloped intuition.

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes We each have specific missions to fullfill down here.

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? An afterlife definitely exists. Of course, there is another kind of life after death.

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? Yes We all have several missions that are intended for us and which we have to put into practice during our earthly life.

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes The love in the hereafter is truly incomparable to life on earth. It is unconditional love.

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I often go on astral outings outside of my body.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? That once you leave earthly life to go to the hereafter, you know everything and see everything.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes two years later and people thought I was crazy.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No