Sonia M NDE 9766

Experience Description

I went from hanging in the closet to lying down on the floor. I remember putting my hands in the noose so I could breathe, but I don’t remember how I got fully out of the noose and onto the ground. It was like a blackout between struggling in the closet to lying down with no actual recollection of what happened in between.

I felt like I was floating. I saw myself from above in the closet. Then it felt like I was in a tunnel and became the tunnel when I was on the floor. Although, I was out of my body but still felt partially connected to it. I felt warm and at peace despite being in physical pain. I felt a type of calm such as I’ve never felt while on earth. It was like the haziness you get with a very high fever but in a good way and a lot stronger. I knew If I stayed there, that there would be nothing after this. My body and brain were getting ready for the nothingness that would follow the peace. I knew this place wasn’t forever. I could feel myself come back from out of that place; almost like I was sobering up.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 06/13/2022

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? No. Suicide attempt Life threatening event, but not clinical death

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

Did you feel separated from your body? No. I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness. I was more conscious toward the end of the experience when I realized there was nothing after this peaceful, calm place. I had a choice where I could stay here or go back. During the experienc, I was mostly delirious, feeling the energy of where I was and letting the peace go through me.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I don't know how long everything took, but I was more conscious toward the end of my experience. At the beginning, I was fully in this other place where I was in and became the tunnel. I felt warm, loved, and completely at peace. It was as if I wasn't in my body or on this earth. I knew I was was in pain from what I had done to myself, but I remember thinking that 'everything would be okay.' It wasn't until I realized that there was nothing after the peace and that this place was temporary before actual death. Then I made the choice to go back to my body.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Time seemed to go faster or slower than usual. Time slowed down once I left my body. My thoughts were moving quickly. It felt like my experience took many hours, even though I was back to consciousness that same night.

Were your senses More vivid than usual? No

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I could see the same as before

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. everything sounded quieter, almost muffled during my attempt and during my NDE.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain between my attempt and being on the ground felt like a blackout. I don't remember going down or how I'd gotten out of a noose. Once I was on the ground when I was leaving my body, I felt like I was floating up through a tunnel that became me once I left my body. Then everything went through me.

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? No

Did you see an unearthly light? No

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? Some unfamiliar and strange place. I was in a very color-saturated version of my room. I felt like I wasn't on earth; it was just energy around me

What emotions did you feel during the experience? peace, calm, comfort

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? No

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe. I wouldn't say that I understood everything. But, I understood that I would become one with the universe had I chosen to stay in my experience. I thought about how we have elements and all parts of the universe in our body. I felt that I would simply go into nothing and back into the universe as matter, not as a person

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a definite conscious decision to return to life. I felt extremely at peace and wanted to stay or head towards complete death. But I had the awareness that there would be nothing after this and I would be completely done on earth. the only way I'd be back in the universe was as physical matter or as energy but I would never get to be a person again once I die and go into nothing.

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Unaffiliated- Nothing in particular- Secular unaffiliated

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No

What is your religion now? Unaffiliated- Nothing in particular- Secular unaffiliated

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes I knew oneness. I felt that once I died, I wouldn't come back as a person. What's left of my body after cremation would go back into the universe as matter.

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? No

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? No

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Moderate changes in my life

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes I felt a type of calm I've never felt in my regular consciousness during my NDE that's hard to put in words. It was such a specific feeling that could be compared to drugs or being delirious with a very high fever. At the same time, it felt different from those experiences. The same with feeling 'like a tunnel', like I was in a tunnel and that I became the tunnel. I felt out of my body but the feelings and energy of the place I went to in my NDE could go through me, like a tunnel.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Going into my experience from a suicide attempt, previously wanting death and then making the conscious decision to reenter my earthly life

Have you ever shared this experience with others? No

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was probably real. For the most part, I thought it was real because of how strongly I felt everything and my recollection of before and during the experience. I knew I would die if I chose to stay in the experience. But a part of me thinks maybe it was hallucination because I had cut airflow to my brain in my attempt and I didn't go to the emergency room afterwards.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. Reading more NDEs similar to mine reinforce my belief that my experience was real.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

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