Stacey RS NDE

Experience Description

Prior to the event, I had been dieting and was not feeling well. I couldn't tell if I was just ill or had the flu. At the time, I was not living with my parents and I had never asked to be near them if I was ill. In this case, I asked my mother if I could come home until I felt better. She agreed. I went over there and the next morning is when everything started.

It was early in the morning. I woke up to go to the restroom. When I walked back to my bedroom, I passed out. For some reason my mom told me that she, 'had a weird feeling and came home.' My mother worked about 35 minutes away and literally, the moment she walked in the house is when I passed out. She then loaded me up in the car since she was not the kind of person to call 911. She took me to urgent care. The only thing I remember was that it was silly after many attempts for the nurses to get the IV into a vein and they could not do it. So, I was sent to the local emergency room at the medical center.

I remember being rushed into a room. Someone was trying to speak to me; and all that came out of my mouth was a nonsensical, word-salad. I knew what I wanted to say and nothing like what I was wanted to say was coming out. I saw tubes and multiple people. Then a woman came to my side and was poking me in the head telling me to wake up. I wanted to tell her to stop, but I couldn't.

Then I was floating in the corner of the room as high in the room as I could get. I floated up with my back being pulled upwards. I could see my mom and this woman standing in the corner of the door. My mom was crying. I couldn't hear anything; just saw their faces and expressions pointing toward me on the bed.

Then, everything changed. I was 19 years old, but saw myself as a little girl. I was walking in a field full of the most beautiful flowers. I looked over and saw my sister, who was alive at the time and still alive today. She was swinging with me. The light that filled in around us was just radiant. I cannot explain fully the sense of peace I felt. This was the most peaceful feeling I have ever had. It was calm and peaceful. I had no complaints or fears. I was just there, in this peace. Then 'poof,' I was back on the bed and it had been apparently 8 or more hours. I thought it was minutes. My mom was there and I told her, 'I am done and it's time to go.' I pulled out my catheter, pulled out my IVs, and I said, 'Okay, let's go.' She and the folks in the hospital looked at me like I was insane.

There are so many reasons why this event was so impressive:

My mother was severely abusive, I had been a severely emotionally, physically, and sexually abused child. My sister and I were not even very close. This feeling was that her and I were extremely close and she was there with me. Although we did not talk, we were just swinging in this majestic field of flowers with this extremely bright, beautiful light.

This event capitalized on situations that I just loved as a child. Maybe because that is where I felt the most peaceful. My dad would take my sister on our weekends with him and he would take us to this park that was surrounded by tons of huge trees. This park in my experience I was in with my sister was very similar. I do remember seeing my dad, who is still alive, looking down on us. No words were said, I just know they were there with me.

I went home and realized if this was going to be my life or human life, then something had to happen. I bought a plane ticket and moved to Guam for 2 years. I have always been drawn to islands since that event. I currently just moved again because I saw my dad in his death bed and I had the feeling 'What am I doing?'

What I do know is I have always had people looking out for me, watching over me. I have felt always that I never really fit in because my brain sees the forrest through the trees. I just recently shared this story with another individual who had cancer and had been studying all this and he let me know I had a near death experience. So, here I am.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 1995

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Illness Life threatening event, but not clinical death. Meningitis

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

Did you feel separated from your body? No I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal. Above and beyond awareness.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I was just at peace; I do not remember even contemplating that point. I feel like I was forced back. I did not have a thought of to go back or stay. The level is unexplainable.

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning. It was all happening at once. I was in the event.

Were your senses More vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. The colors are not anything I could explain or that earthly beings would understand.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Everything was quiet. I felt quiet, peaceful calm - is the best I can describe the feeling.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes Bright, radiant white but the field had these incredible flowers. Just flowers full of color all over, literally everywhere. No area was missing a flower even the swing set my sister was on; there were flowers. Tall flowers that I walked through and looked back to see her swinging. The flowers were in my hands and they brushed my face.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm. Surrounded by beautiful flowers, warm air, extremely bright light without the view of sun. The whole area above me was full of this white light. It was a light so bright more like a pearly white light. The light itself was calm and loving.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Warm, held, comforted, loved, calm.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back to you? I remembered many past events. After all these years the only thing I can surmise is that this was a very loving experience and even in earthly form, those were moments I loved.

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Other Christian Christianity, non-denominational

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes Always open - we all have something to share.

What is your religion now? Christian- Other Christian

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience. I am just now starting to understand but know that I have tried in every way to stay true to my true nature which is full of love.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes Definitely more direct with spirituality. Meaning more outward with who I am and my beliefs. Took me a few decades to really know that I was am a precious being and I had to start respecting my own aura.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? Yes I changed after this event for sure. My view on interaction with other humans was more of just being more peaceful with other people's bad behavior. I cannot explain it, I had a peace with just letting them be. I have been contemplating this thought process difference since the event. It is unexplainable and no one but Sam understood because of his own knowledge.

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes It is a feeling and knowing. You just know without words, you just know.

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes All these years later, I believe that experience has guided me. Stay peaceful and loving and that is all you can do and that is who you are.

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? No

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes All I felt was bathed in acceptance.

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life. I have been able to see that walking in the light of love, one is a target. I have tried to change that in me and over the years that is unattainable. Now, I just am laughing questioning why? Why, all this pain, loss, sadness, corruption? Breaks my heart and yet, I know I have to keep going.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? I do not tolerate bad behavior. I give people chances, but then if they do not seek healing then I will realize this is not my choice to stay around.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes I have never typed it all out. Makes me wonder why I came back.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience. This event is so clear as to what happened. I remember all the feelings, emotions, and peace.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I have always had sensitivities and like noted earlier, apparently, so does my mother.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Just looking back now and I think this was a blessing. I was put back in my body for a reason. I have had so many consistencies throughout my life that I cannot deny. I was meant to be here for whatever needs to happen on this earth.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Few, more in depth with Sam. I felt safe sharing it all with Sam a few years ago.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. I feel extremely blessed to have a different thought process because of my experience.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

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