Susan H NDE

Experience Description

I have been told I died three separate occasions.

I clearly remember a feeling that I was in a tunnel. I was floating towards a light that was getting larger the closer I got to it. I felt very relaxed. But, I also remember becoming increasingly annoyed as the nurse kept calling out to me and telling me to come back. Although I was annoyed at being disturbed, I listened to her. I found myself awake and back on the hospital bed in the emergency area.

My next experience was within 10 minutes of returning. I was looking down into the room and could see myself on the bed surrounded by medical staff. I remember not being able to understand why I was looking down at myself with strangers around me.

Through both these experiences, I do not remember being alarmed or frightened. Instead, I had a feeling of being at peace.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 2014

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Allergic Reaction Life threatening event, but not clinical death. I was in cardiogenic shock after being given wrong medication.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

Did you feel separated from your body? Uncertain The feeling of floating towards a light that was becoming larger and brighter the closer I floated towards it. I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Less consciousness and alertness than normal. My highest level of consciousness was when I was floating towards a very bright light. I remember hearing the nurse calling me back and feeling annoyed because I was so very relaxed. My next memories came during the second occasion when I was looking down at the medical staff surrounding my bed I remember feeling confused

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When floating and being annoyed at the nurse calling me back. The second occasion was when I was looking down at myself and being surrounded by doctors and nurses.

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning. I lost all meaning of time

Were your senses More vivid than usual? No

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Thinking back, I don’t think there was any difference

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I could hear the nurse calling me back but I couldn’t hear anything else happening, such as the medical staff surrounding my bed

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes. I was floating through a tunnel towards a light

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? An unusually bright light

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes A light was getting larger and brighter the closer I was to it.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Confusion

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt no longer in conflict with nature

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will. I suppose it could be like a barrier when the nurse was calling me back. She was repeatedly saying, "Susan come back!" This was so annoying I was feeling very peaceful like I had never felt before

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Unaffiliated- Atheist

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No

What is your religion now? Select

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience. I have always believed we went somewhere. I have an understanding that I previously did not as to being welcomed into something that I wasn’t sure what it was. But I felt at peace

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes. My belief that there is a god still remains the same as it always has. I understand there is something there but as to what, I'm still unsure. I have become more of an advocate to other's rights as I realize life is short so any wrongs made to others. I try and rectify them

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? No

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? No

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life. It has made me less critical of others. I now go through life not concerned about "what if’s."

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I have become less critical of others

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience as accurately as other life events that occurred around the time of the experience. I remember what occurred to me on that day it was 8 years ago and I remember it like I remember getting out of bed this morning. I also now know death is nothing to be frightened of. I had a look at the experience left me feeling of peace and comfort when I think of it that I do not understand why

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The experience has made me go through life not being afraid of what if’s

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I shared it almost immediately with medical staff. They informed me they knew what was happening to me, they see it often, and that's why the nurse was calling me to come back

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. The reality of it still stays with me today

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. I know it was real. I have never forgotten it

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? No

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? No other questions I can think of