Susie P NDE-like

Experience Description

Getting a clear message from the angels which turned out to be accurate**

As I was waiting to go into the scanner, something happened to me the like of which I had never experienced before or since.

I had this feeling of a bright light engulf me like I was having a visitation from a non-earthly being. I had a feeling of gold light come around me and a sense of being surrounded by a flock of golden angels. Stay with me at this point and open your mind to the possibility that this could happen. I had never experienced such a thing and my own belief system was being stretched at this point.

At the time, I heard a clear voice in my head, which sounded like the voice of my intuition. The voice told me clearly that I was not to worry and that I was being looked after. There was no need to be concerned as I would make it through this adventure in one piece.

The clear and reassuring voice told me that I would have three scans. The first one would come back as a terrible result and I was not to worry about it. The second scan would be better and show improvements. The third scan I would have would be clear. I would write a book about it that will help inspire people around the world. I was having this story line because I have a big platform and would write about it one day, just as i am doing right now.

This part of the story was like a divine visitation with clear guidance on what would happen to me. I have no template or words to describe really how I felt. It seemed to me that I was visited by golden angels and they were here to let me know that I was being looked after and that I would survive this experience.

I will never forget the feeling of this experience and it will likely stay with me for the rest of my life.

From this moment on, I felt strong, courageous and full of hope about what would unfold on this extreme journey I was facing.

All fear had left my body and I could not access the feelings of fear from this point on. This is a common feature of NDE experiences I have since found out. Not having any fear means that life is lived differently. It allows me to live in a way that is exciting, full of adventure and feeling the wonder like I felt as a child.

**Scan results**

We had to wait a while to get the MRI scan results through. I found the waiting for results was fine now that I had been told what the outcome would be by my golden visitors.

I remember that I did not feel nervous or worried during this time for two reasons. One, I felt that I was being looked after by a higher force and that it would turn out for the best. Secondly, I had no fear about dying. The concept of dying did not concern me and if I was going to die I was ok with that. So the only outcome that I faced was that I would live on Earth or live on in piece as spirit and I really was fine with either route.

My hospital room had a terrace overlooking the beautiful old town of Ibiza. There was lovely music from outside floating around which made its way into my room. Ibiza always has a great sound track and my room was no exception at this time.

I had lots of friends from the island dropping in and coming to see me. Many bought guitars, rugs to make a relaxing area and comfy cushions. We made an Ibiza chill out space on the terrace. I had so many visitors coming through that we had to set up a schedule of who was coming and when, so that the place didn’t get overcrowded.

There was such a good atmosphere in the room that even the nursing staff would come in smiling and asking if we were having a party. I said yes we were. People around me were saying that I was taking the situation well and seemed very positive for someone in this situation. I knew then that I was going to be ok and thrive because the angels had told me this, but I didn’t expect others to have the same level of optimism or believe my out-there story of a visit by angels telling me it was all going to be ok.

**The day I died and left my body**

It was a Thursday morning around 8am, Ibiza. I was laying in my bed and my room was empty of people which was unusual. I was meditating eyes closed sitting upright in bed.

I felt a strange session around my crown of my head. I felt like my spirit was lifting out of my body. I had the sense that a grey swirl of energy was gathering momentum at the top of my head and being sucked up towards the sky.

It was a feeling like I have never experienced before. I asked myself is my spirit trying to leave my body. I muscled tested the response and it was a clear ‘Yes’.

At this point, I felt like I was going to pass to the next realm. This felt like a pivotal moment in my life.

I began to breathe more deeply and a review the highlights of my life . I had lived a good-intentioned life, I had made mistakes, there were errors that I would rectify if given my time again and there was deep love for the people I cherished.

Then a feeling set in that I had to stop ‘myself’ - my spirit - from leaving my body. I got out of bed and went directly to the nurses station. It was early in the morning and I was on my own in my room. It was unusual to be on my own as I always had visitors but this day it was early and before any visitors had arrived.

As I went to the nurses station outside my room in the ward, the nurses were gathered together for their daily meeting. They were talking through the patients files and planning the day ahead.

I rushed up to them and interrupted their meeting. ‘Please, I need to talk to you, it’s urgent.’ ‘What’s up, Susie?’, said my favorite nurse.

‘I think I am going to die. Please keep an eye on me today. I am going to die soon. I can feel it.’

‘You are not going to die, Susie. We will look after you and keep an eye on you to make sure you are ok. Please don’t worry. We will be with you very soon,’ the gentle nurse said.

**The problem was I knew I was going to die any moment.**

The nurses in these oncology wards are the finest human beings. It is tough work to deal with cancer patients. They are caring for people who are losing the will to live, often vomiting with severe bouts losing control both ends of the body from the severity of the chemo treatment. To have a patient on the ward die was a regular occurrence. I am full of admiration and respect for these incredible people who do this as their vocation. They maintain a smile and a bubbly persona when all around them are suffering and going through immense challenges.

The nurses came to me in my room. They did tests for my temperature, blood pressure, heart rate and took blood. This was a regular procedure through the day and night at times intervals.

When I got back into bed I felt a little more grounded but my spirit was tugging at me and still trying to leave my body. As I sat upright on the bed, I felt a swoosh and it was like my spirit was heading out of my body in a straight funnel upwards going towards where I imagine heaven to be.

**What happened when I died**

There was a period of time, I don't know how long, when I was out of my body and out of my mind and flying high. I left the bag of bones that is my flesh and body and I became spirit, like a gaseous wisp of energy, as it felt to me.

This a similar feeling to when people talk about 'getting into the flow' by creatively and experiencing this sense of losing track of time and space.

The next stage was my journey around the universe in the form of sprit. This was the part the part that looks like a Hollywood movie of when you die. As I died in this life and my spirit left me, my body lay motionless like a shell.

I became one with all the stars around me.

As I travelled out of my body I felt a sense of oneness with everything. It was like flying around the cosmos seeing the form that exists in life. Everything is made of energy and is all connected, I could see this clearly on the flight out of my body.

I don't know how long I was gone for; time was not something I could gauge. I got shown what the universe is like when you don't have a body. It feels like being in outer space with a sense of everything and feeling the sensation of immense love. I imagined this is what being an angel feels like. Later I would find out.

In this space on the other side, there is no time. I learnt that everything is happening simultaneously and time is something that we somehow make up.

I remember clearly that I was given the choice about coming back into my body. I was asked do I want to stay out of my body and out of my mind, or come back into my body,

I remember asking to come back into my body while I was out of my body. I felt I had more to do here, my son was still young and would still need my shaping hand and I knew that I had more work to do in this life, in this body. I knew I could come back and that felt comforting while this was going on.

It felt like I was gone only a short while, and yet so much happened in that time.

The aspect I remember most vividly about leaving my body and getting shown around the universe is that I got to see how this is an energy-based universe where everything is connected to each other.

I knew the theory of this already as I had written a book about energy in life a few years early in my book Instructions for Happiness and success. I had read the science and the ancient wisdom on the nature of the universe and understood it to be energy-based. I had read a lot of literature on quantum physics and quantum mechanics when I was researching to write my book on energy. I knew the theories and the modern understanding of consciousness and interconnectedness, but in this journey out of my body I experienced what this looks like from the top looking down.

I got to see this with my own eyes and understood that we are energy beings, emanating frequency and vibrating around the place. One shift in one part of the cosmos, has an effect across the whole system. I saw how this works.

I know this is hard to comprehend and understand. I am reporting what actually happened to me and it is an event that will stay with me throughout this lifetime. To slip through the veil of life like that and then to come back again into the body is a rare and spectacular treat. I was courageous and had no fear about it. I have faith that we are all taken care of and that there is life after death just in a different form. I feel blessed that this event happened and I got to experience all of these stories written here.

Here I was being shown what the other side looks like and actually experiencing it while being able to return as a fully functioning human being.

I remember being asked specifically if I wanted to come back into my body and I knew this was a choice point. If I said yes, I would be reconnected with my body and begin life again. If I said no at this point, then there was no turning back and I would have been lost forever and there would be no return.

I made my choice. It was easy, I had a young son who still needed me in his life. He was too young to lose his mum.

I knew if I came back in to my body, I could be healed. It was like the angels had told me, I could have a clear scan and come back into my body realigned and without the disease. This is indeed what happened.

When I came back into my body, it was felt like a whoosh and entering back to the framework that is my body. When I opened my eyes again and came round, I felt quite different. Things looked different, my life looked different, my feelings felt different and clearer.

The most noticeable thing I felt on coming back was that I had no fear. I could not access the emotion of fear even when I tried. It was like that fear program had been eradicated. I was literally fear-less. I felt courageous and strong mentally. I felt wiser and more grateful for everything. I felt then that I should not speak about this event too widely as people would think I had gone completely crazy - more so than I had been acting already. I didn’t tell many people what had happened. I told my best friend and my friend Gavin in London what had happened. Gavin reminded me of the conversation we had while I was in hospital and I was describing to him what heaven looked like.

It’s difficult to tell people that you have died and come back. There is disbelief and no reply that is easy to give if someone says this. I didn’t want to tell the nursing staff about it as I was trying my best to act healthy and sane so that I could get out of this place.

I came back with no fear and full courage installed as a new piece of upgraded software. I had the sense that my own mind operating software had received a major upgrade in that experience of leaving and coming back.

Life would never be the same again because I suddenly started seeing the world differently. I felt more compassion for other people, slow to blame as others around me were simply working with what they had to work with in terms of beliefs, programs and experiences.

I got to understand in this out of body flight how important intentions are. I saw firsthand out of my body that when you think a thought, set an intention, make a goal, all of the small matter in the universe comes together in a way to make that happen. An example of this is when i set the intention to come back into my body when I was out of it. I set the intention and then in a flash I was back in my body.

I had this very comforting knowing that when coming back into my body, I had arrived configured in a way to heal completely. Going out of my body and coming back in was the healing I needed to create miraculous results that even the doctors could not understand. This exit and reentry would prove the golden angel story correct: I would completely heal from advanced brain tumor.

I knew I had more to do in this life and I loved my young son so much and wanted to see him grow up and make his way in the world. I also knew that if I go back into my body, the angel story would become my true reality creation. I had to be fearless for the next stage to get through all the things that would happen next.

Perhaps we have more choice over when we die than we may realize. I remember my mum when she was ready to leave her body, she was in her eighties and very ill, was just about to go and then was told that her granddaughter Jo would be coming back from Italy a few days later. She held on those few days, for Jo to return and then she passed peacefully after being able to see her granddaughter one final time when she got back home from her travels. I remember realizing at my mother's death bed that she chose to stay a little longer and put off the day of passing so that she could see her family one last time.

Once I decided to stay with this life, I knew I would be healed. I was absolutely certain about this. I knew that I didn’t need more tests, blood tests, injections or pills. I knew I was coming back healed.

I had learnt about the importance of beliefs and intentions from my work with Joe Dispensa, Gregg Braden, Bruce Lipton, Theta Healing and the other fields of mind science I had been studying in depth. Now, I got to have first-hand experience without having a body to know how powerful this really is as a human capability.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: April 2018

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Illness Life threatening event, but not clinical death Brain cancer. I had been given 3 weeks to live. in hospital waiting for surgery and chemo treatment

How do you consider the content of your experience? Neither pleasant NOR distressing

Did you feel separated from your body? Uncertain I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal I had a higher vision, a more complete vision of being in an interconnected universe with God

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? when i was in the state of not being in my body

Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning I don't know how long I was gone out of my body; I had no sense of time.

Were your senses More vivid than usual? More vivid than usual

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. The vision was further and more encompassing than normal. My perception was more cosmic.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I'm not sure about this

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere, as if by ESP? Yes, but the facts have not been checked out

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes A white light flashed as I came back into my body

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm It felt like I was floating in an expanse that was heaven. A cosmic place with no edges.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? joy and elation

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Relief or calmness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe I felt part of everything and everything is interconnectedness. I saw the vastness of existence.

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from my personal future I saw that I was safe and looked after and that all is well.

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a definite conscious decision to return to life I was given the chance to return to my body and come back to life. I choose this. I have a son and i am a single mum.

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Unaffiliated- Nothing in particular- Secular unaffiliated spiritual person rather than religious

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes Stronger belief in God.

What is your religion now? Other faiths- New age spiritual believe in god but not affiliated to a religion

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience I realized that there are no real boundaries and anything is possible. Fear is not necessary. I knew we are all one and this experience showed me this visually.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I value my life more. No fear. More gratitude and grace.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I heard a voice I could not identify I was visited by golden angels who were talking to me saying it was all going to be ok

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes I saw what heaven looks like. A vibratory universe where everything is one and interconnected.

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes I felt the presence of an intelligent force that I would call god

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes I came back to my body with a deeper understanding of life and the universe. Much deeper sense of how things work here.

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes I understood that my life is about love and learning and had purpose. I was told my purpose is to write a book to inspire others to heal as I did.

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? An afterlife definitely exists Yes I could see that there is a continuing on of my life with or without my body. I would continue.

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? Yes Fear is a construct. We should not fear. Thoughts are powerful. Intentions are powerful. That I have a mission in this life, to write about the experience. I am a published author and this is why I had this experience so I could share it with others.

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? Yes All fear went away. I knew I am looked after. There are no boundaries such as money. It is made up construct. when I came back I had not concept of not enough resources, money etc.

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes I saw that love is the default emotion of the universe and the controlling force of nature.

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life I have a deeper view of spiritual, I have no fears, I do not fear death at all. I know there is a wonderful space to enter into when we leave our bodies.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I can only be around certain people who are high frequency and with spiritual basis. I can't be around fear, anger or negativity.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes It was such a heavenly experience, no words can describe it

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience. It was a profound and life changing event. I will never be the same again.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I have stronger psychic abilities than before.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Having a choice to come back into my body

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I told close friends straight away who could handle it. Others 2 years later, I am now writing a book about it. Others find it hard to understand or comprehend so I am better not talking too much about it.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real It felt real and was so hugely impactful I could not ignore that it had happened. I knew I would heal and I did heal as soon as I came back into my body, my brain tumor was gone. The doctors could not understand the scans that showed it had gone. Even my doctor said this looks like a miracle.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real It was such a profound rich experience. I healed brain cancer tumor when I came back into my body. I only realized the connection a year later.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes Ayahuasca and DMT journey

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? no

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? Very good questionnaire.