Suzanne F NDE

This is my near death experience. It was many years ago. I was in the hospital in Chicago. I was dying of blood clots in my lungs from smoking, and taking birth control pills. We did not have the information that we have now. I was in great pain and the doctor on call at the hospital's emergency department thought I had pleurisy. I was sent home. Hours went by and I could not breathe.

I had a friend drive me back to the hospital. I told the attendant at the desk to admit me, but she would not. I then sat in a chair in the emergency room and put my head on the shoulder of a stranger sitting next to me. I wanted to die due to the pain. When I woke up I was in a bed in the hospital.

Before I did awake, all I can remember is I was in a wide tunnel. The light was very bright. I was calling out for my mother. I could only whisper for her. Then a voice, very soothing and comforting! The voice said, "Don't talk, save your energy." I was awake and scared. I then called for my mother again. I remember it was hard for me to talk.

The voice got somewhat louder, and said the same thing to me; don't talk, save your energy. I noticed at the end of the tunnel, a tiny figure. Again, I tried to call for my mother, I heard the voice again, it went on for a long time. As I spoke the figure became bigger and bigger.

When I awoke, my mother was standing at the foot of my bed. I still wonder to this day if it was her voice, but the voice was a man's voice. There was no doctor in the room at the time I woke. I kept it to myself for years, because I didn't want anyone to think me crazy. Can you help me with this?

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 1970

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Illness Life threatening event, but not clinical death I HAD BLOOD CLOTTS IN MY LUNGS CLOSE TO MY HEART. I was in the hospital because I could not breathe.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed

Did you feel separated from your body? No

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? It seemed I was fully aware.

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning. I thought I was dead and going to heaven.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes I was in the tunnel.

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes In the beginning, no, but after a while I saw a very small figure, I could not describe if it was a man or a woman.

The experience included: Void

The experience included: Light

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes The tunnel was all light.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No

The experience included: Strong emotional tone

What emotions did you feel during the experience? I was searching for something, I was trying to get to the end of the tunnel. I saw a tiny figure at the end I kept hearing a voice. I thought it was God, telling me to stop talking save my energy.

The experience included: Special Knowledge

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control

Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future. If I didn't talk I could save my energy that was what the voice told me to do.

The experience included: Boundary

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I really feel different. I want to be alone more, and I have dreams that I am in that are so real and vivid. I think, how can I dream about these people and events.

The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I have ESP and very vivid dreams that are very real.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The best part was that I had the experience. The worst part was I didn't know what or who the voice was for sure but I have my own opinions.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Only a few people.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? No.

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? I think you covered all of the important subjects.