Tamara V NDE-Like

Experience Description

11 July 2002, we decided to make a tour on the motorbike.

When returning home I closed my eyes for a moment because of the brightness of the Sun, we were driving about 50 kilometers per hour, suddenly my husband started cursing, the motorbike accelerated enormously and I did not have the time to open my eyes. It had happened in a flash, a bang, a few somersaults and there we were lying. I suddenly felt very peaceful and happy and felt I wanted to leave my body when suddenly someone or something told me, "Don't go yet, it is not your time, your children still need you." I felt someone take my hand and saw or knew that it was a woman all dressed in white and she made me feel very calm.

The I opened my eyes, I was lying in the grass and looked towards the Sun that warmed my face, next to me there was a grasshopper that looked right at me, and I wanted to shout for joy, I felt one with everything, all is beauty, then I felt a needle in my hand and got very angry I had to stand up and take off my helmet, I had to go home to my kids then I was pressed on the ground and got a terrible pain in my leg and was totally conscious again.

In the mean time police and ambulance had arrived and from their talk I understood that it was impossible we had survived this, also the policeman said,: "Gee, those two were very lucky" because at the same time of our accident someone died in a similar way also with a truck and a motorbike.

I did not realize very well what had happened because I could not see my wounded leg, and thought I had just sprawled my ankle, when I heard the medics talk about Gent ( a mayor city in Belgium, translator note) and amputation.

I first thought they were talking about my husband. Well, then we went into the ambulance, photos were taken, (a true nightmare) operation, intensive care, and blood.

When later I inquired with my doctor what all the numbers meant (I had remembered them) he told me that I had lost half of my blood, and had to be glad that I was still alive. How it is possible that I remained conscious apart from the NDE I do not know, even the doctors do not understand and I ask myself no questions about this any longer.

When the other day I was allowed to move and saw my husband I got a laughing fit, but really a very strong one, I lasted for two hours, and the nurses only worsened it when they asked what was wrong, because I didn't know , and still don't know.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 11.07.2002

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Accident

How do you consider the content of your experience? Increase

The experience included: Out of body experience

Did you feel separated from your body? Uncertain Felt myself slip away but did not leave my body.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I only know I heard my husband cursing then a bang, somersaults, then black and the experience, then full consciousness and pain. I didn't take long, 5 minutes at the most.

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Uncertain I met a woman in white that held my hand but I do not know whether it was real or part of the NDE but she gave me a very calm feeling, when I regained consciousness she was gone.

Did you see an unearthly light? No

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No

The experience included: Strong emotional tone

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Absolute bliss.

The experience included: Special Knowledge

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe Death is not the end.

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control

The experience included: Vision of the future

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate zoekend

What is your religion now? Moderate niets

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes Death holds no fear for me any longer. I put my earthly existence in the hands of the universe. Truth has been described in religion but religion is also the cause of many evils. I try to see the good in every human being, I do not kill animals anymore, for instance a spider, I put it gently outside. I started searching for the how and why of the experience and learned a lot. My life is now more focused on the helping of people through lived experiences. I do not worry much longer about earthly joys but find my satisfaction in meditation, spirituality and the small things that can do much good, like a smile.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes I did not know what had happened to me, and thought they would declare me a lunatic.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes Heightened intuition. Just knowing things , it is hard to explain. Like, 'I already knew this' without ever having seen it.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The words "go back, it is not yet your time, your children still need you." The realization that I was still alive and was howling with pain.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Understanding and lack of understanding. In the hospital they said it was due to blood loss, that I hallucinated

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? It was an inexplicable feeling for those that have not experienced it, and it is just wonderful that I have been allowed to experience it.

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Uncertain