Terri B Possible NDE

Experience Description

I was in the ambulance en route to the hospital. I knew I was having a heart attack but I felt no pain. I remember thinking how calm and at peace I felt. Suddenly, I heard my mother, who had been dead for three months. As children we had always joked that prayers went from Esther's mouth to God's ears. As clearly as if she had been standing next to me, I heard her say 'You put her back!' in her no-nonsense mom's voice.

The next thing I remember is the emergency medical technician saying, 'Stay with me' and the driver flipping the siren on. After that, I have no memory until I woke up the next morning with a new stent.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 8/28/2010

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Heart attack Life threatening event, but not clinical death. Widowmaker heart-attack

How do you consider the content of your experience? Both pleasant AND distressing

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes My deceased mother spoke very clearly and plainly to someone, instructing them to 'put her back'.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Less consciousness and alertness than normal. I don't remember most of the experience, just bits and pieces.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? While I felt like I was alert and aware at the time, I have spotty memories of the whole event. Most of my memories seem surreal. My mother, however, was not surreal in the least. I truly believe she was in that ambulance.

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Time seemed to go faster or slower than usual. Everything that I can remember seemed to be in slow motion.

Were your senses More vivid than usual? No

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I don't remember opening my eyes during the entire event except for one point ,where I can remember seeing the yellow brick wall of the hospital emergency room entrance.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. My hearing didn't seem to be affected.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere, as if by ESP? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes My mother's voice came through clearly. I don't remember if I knew she was deceased when I heard her, but I feel like I probably did.

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? An unusually bright light

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes I recall seeing a bright light in the distance at one point, but I have no idea if it was real or not.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Calm

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? No

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Other or several faiths I was raised Protestant but have no affiliations.

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes Deeper faith and no longer fear death. I almost look forward to seeing my loved ones after I die.

What is your religion now? Other or several faiths. Strong faith but no church affiliation

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience. I've always believed that those who went before us visit us in the present, although I always associated those visits with dreams.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes My faith has deepened.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? An afterlife definitely exists. I assume that there is because of my mother's voice, but I don't remember thinking that at the time.

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? No

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Moderate changes in my life. My Faith has deepened. I'm not 'born again' but more like slowly awakened. I don't know if He is God, but I know He exists and guides and protects me.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes How do you explain that your dead mother was chastising God?

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Having my mother there was infinitely comforting. Prior to her death I had spent the night at her bedside; when morning came and my sister arrived, I went home to take a quick shower before returning to her. She died right after I left and I always felt that I had let her down by leaving. Her coming to me when I had the heart attack gave me more comfort than I'll ever be able to explain.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Within days; most actually believed me and agreed that she was there. I don't know if they were influenced or not.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. I KNOW she was there.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? No