Timothy LS Probable NDE

Experience Description

After A chemotherapy session at home, I went into a coma. I was rushed to a hospital by my parents. I was in the intensive care unit (ICU) for eight days.

I woke up in my bed at home. I identified things in my bedroom to confirm where I was. I passed through the window behind my bed and travelled down the street. It was night and I saw lights on in the homes. We did not have sidewalks, but I walked in the grass near the road as I passed five or six of my neighbor's homes. I travelled back to my home and got in bed again. Then, I saw bright light that was really white. I was looking at it and was pulled toward it.

I began to shake. As the shaking reached my head, I woke up in the arms of the ICU nurse. She held me close and was calling out my name repeatedly. She released me as I woke up. I asked why I was there. She said I had been in the coma for 8 days, during which time I had stopped breathing. The blood pressure alarm went off while she was at her desk. She told me that she called for help. They had to shock me twice and I didn't respond. She said she grabbed me and was yelling at me to live. She said I moaned and took a deep breath and then melted in her arms. After which, my breathing was better. My blood pressure went back to normal levels. My bladder and bowels had released in the bed, so she thought I was dead. She was glad I came back. I felt better the next morning.

I told my therapist a month later. I survived AML and I survived the Coma. I survived the NDE also.


Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date NDE Occurred: 6/23/1970

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Illness. Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function). I was diagnosed with AML Leukemia. I was getting chemoregulary at the hospital. I had also just had surgery on my left hand, to remove a tumor. It was after that surgery, I went into a coma for 8 days.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Both pleasant AND distressing

The experience included: Out of body experience

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I saw cars passing me as I walked barefooted in the grass across the neighbors' yards. I remember my feet getting wet by walking in the grass. I clearly left my body and existed outside it.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal. It was a clearance of body and mind. In real life, I do not have that clearness in my body. I was not able to talk to anyone about the experience until I met with my therapist a month later to talk about chemo, cancer, being young, and in school.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? From waking up in my home bed and all during the travel outside and back and returning. I was awake in the bed with the bright light. It was during the shaking that in that life, I felt weak and was pulled back to the arms of a registered nurse. There I woke up groggy and learned what had really happened in the ICU. I was alert the next day around 5am and my parents arrived at 6am to visit.

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Time seemed to go faster or slower than usual The out of body experience was just a little slower than life.

Were your senses More vivid than usual? More vivid than usual

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. During the out of body experience. I felt normal all the time. The shaking and bright white light was not painful and it did go cloudy then and woke up.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I was hard of hearing at the time from being deaf in one ear. I do not remember any hearing that was better or different from everyday life.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere, as if by ESP? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain. I saw the white tunnel. I reached for it with my hands. The noise was loud. I remember being pulled. I remember it going dark. Then, I woke up and saw lights in the hospital.

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

The experience included: Unearthly light

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? An unusually bright light

Did you see an Unearthly light? Yes Bright and Glorious white light.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No

What emotions did you feel during the experience? I felt very happy at home. I was singing when I was walking. I was hollering with the shaking.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

The experience included: Special knowledge or purpose

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

The experience included: Future Visions

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Moderately important to me

What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Protestant Church goer with parents.

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No

What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Moderately important to me

What is your religion now? Christian- Protestant Episodical since 18

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes Easy going and anger under control most of my life.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I heard a voice I could not identify. I was hearing sounds but could not make out what was happening when I saw the bright white light.

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No

Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? God probably exists

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Uncertain I did not understand the bright white life.

Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? God definitely exists

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

Did you believe that our earthly lives Are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are probably meaningful and significant

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? An afterlife definitely exists

Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists No

Did you fear death prior to your experience? I did not fear death

Do you fear death after your experience? I do not fear death

Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life

Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life

Did you believe that our earthly lives Are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are probably meaningful and significant

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are meaningful and significant

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Moderately compassionate toward others

During your experience, did you gain information about love? No

Were you compassionate after your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life. I had a great education and work life after the experience. I was able to be home-schooled. I was placed in college preparation the next summer. I was able to get a scholarship to a great school. I skipped two grades, one in junior and one in senior high school. My guidance counselor was my best champ. I was given a diploma for my college achievement at graduation. I was top of the world. I dedicated my life for 30 years now to ending Cancer and HIV/AIDS in my lifetime. I went to law school but did not become a lawyer. I have had a great life. I was able to find my life. I have wonderful relations and do not fret over money.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes. I could not tell the nurse who was holding be because she was crying. The other nurse had returned, but I did not feel close enough confide in her. I was filled with many thoughts for days. I was cloudy for about three days with too many thoughts. I wrote a lot of notes in the hospital. I remember the Fourth of July events and then the visit to the therapist office a week or so later. It was in Late August or early September that I was able to talk to the therapist in a visit about what had happened. I was not dissuaded from the explanation I gave to my theripist.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience as accurately as other life events that occurred around the time of the experience

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I know stuff is going to happen and do not try to change it. I use the ability to feel comfortable

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The nurse who hugged me. I saw her for about a year after visiting the hospital for tests. Then my life changed and I never saw her again.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes My therapist just after.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. I accepted what occurred with out any reservation. I never felt threatened i I today feel it was an experience and I favor it.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. I never questioned it. I can see stuff with ESP and do not question it.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? Thank you none now.